I can feel myself getting jealous, angry and nearly bitter towards ALL the people in my office who’s happily making six figures, driving fancy cars that are either paid for or for sure the notes ain’t backed up. And the same goes for their homes, they’re ALWAYS walking around talking bout meeting with realtors and either successfully paying off their houses or about to buy a SECOND home ggggrrrrrrhhhhhh.
This afternoon when I was leaving I was sooooooo hurt,I didn’t want nobody looking at me, make less saying stuff to me… Normally we ALL day drive safe, see you in the morning… Buuuuuutttttttt, today I just wasn’t myself, and acted like the Grinch who stole Christmas. Bad thing though, it ain’t even the people’s fault who I was shunning SMH.
So, I felt God leading me to my PO Box. So, I’m assuming definitely it’s either a letter about one of the jobs or an apartment is coming through, to make me feel better, since I was in a terrible stupor… NOT!!!
I just shook my head and said… “Yet will I trust YOU” Ultimately, that’s exactly what it’s ALL about, the enemy trynna break me down to the point where I Nooooooo longer see God as Worthy of ALL Praise, Honor and Glory, because He’s arbitrarily leaving me in this chaotic mess I’m experiencing… And I’m not able to see nooooooo evidence whatsoever of Him actively working things out on my behalf SMH. Still, I won’t waver in my Faith… He promised to Neeeeeevvvveeerr leave me nor forsake be, and He’s a God Who cannot and will not lie. Sooooooo, that means what I need is for sure for sure coming… Buuuuuutttttttt, whenever He’s ready to deliver and set me free from the bondage that I haphazardly got myself into.
Transparency is a gift that creates moments for freedom and deliverance. There is power in our testimonies, not only after we have come through, but while we are going through. Remain encouraged! You are a light that shines bright. The wind is always blowing and will continue to challenge the flame of each believer, but we must keep our hands up and shield the flame that lights this world! Keep the faith and keep pressing forward! You are blessed!
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Thanx for your AWESOME words of encouragement.
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All things are possible for you too beloved “if” you believe them to be. Take courage!
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Thanx luv… Much appreciated!!!
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I was diagnosed with bipolar some years back. Unfortunately, I dealt with that type of depressive thinking for years. Dealt with many things that kept me lame, and like you once while working I was looking and feeling anguished, coveting as you mentioned that some of the people in management positions were driving these nice homes (I still have the same car even though I don’t work there any longer), and I wondered where these people were living thinking about how nice it would be to have space rather than living in my grand ma’s house I inherited.
We never ever are really blessed until we become more content. I found out that those people who I was being jealous of were thieves, the culture in that place was so sick, but I didn’t know it was sick. I just knew that I wasn’t a thief. That’s the difference, is that we must understand that what looks good may not be what it seems.
I still have the same car, but another home and two new degrees since that job. The Most High blesses and we do not have to worry for he says if he clothes the lilies of the field, takes care of the sparrow he will surely watch over us.
That said, Look neither to the right or the left. I haven’t been depressed since I rejected that diagnosis and looked to the Most High.
You are in my prayers.
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Thanx sooooooo much for this… You really encouraged me today… So glad ALL is well for you nowadays.
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Fight the lies of the enemy. Get your sword out. Psalm 23:1 “The Lord is my Shepherd, I lack nothing.” I just published a book about this on Amazon called Rich Kids by Emilee Fischer. It’s a Christians guide to wealth…and also a reminder of how rich you are. It’s a dollar on Amazon…but I’ll be selling it for free for a promotional soon.
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OK thanx for the information and words of encouragement.
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The book is free today. Be sure to download a copy. I would love to share what God has already taught me about money. I use a lot of scripture as well. http://www.amazon.com/Rich-Kids-Emilee-Fischer-ebook/dp/B015VJBVB6/ref=sr_1_22?ie=UTF8&qid=1444478580&sr=8-22&keywords=Rich+kids
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Thanx… Will do
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Stay anchored to your faith.
When we have lots of stuff, it’s easy to forget that everything is a gift from God. We deceive ourselves into believing that we earned it or that we deserve it.
It is so hard to be lacking what you need in a material sense. Perhaps the hidden blessing is that it reminds you of your reliance on God. Your faith is a treasure. Your coworkers may be impoverished in the things that matter most.
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Thanx, I will 🙂
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Bless you girl, praying for you and keep the faith, (I know you have heard this a bunch). Hugs and prayers!
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I could Neeeeeevvvveeerr hear it tooooooo much, and it’s ALWAYS greatly appreciated 🙂
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I know how you feel. Stay focused on the promises of God. He has something for you even better than you imagined! Keep going forward!
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I will, and thanx bunches for your words of encouragement 🙂
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I’m glad things are going better for you. I hope you take out time to just enjoy things. I hope you have a fun and great week. 🙂
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Thank you, and you do the same 🙂
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Hey! Thanks for the like at my place! I have been around people who have A LOT more than me lately because my daughter got a scholarship to a prep school, but my mom told me,”things don’t matter, people do.” So, it helps me to focus on my wonderful people.
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That’s so wonderful and Mom was exactly right in what she told you too. Thanx for your help 🙂
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It is so hard to overcome jealousy and anger. But it is never easy to live the God’s way 😊
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It surely ain’t, that’s why I’m EVER so haaaappppyyyy for His Grace and Mercy that He bestows on each of us daily… It covers our thoughts and acts in an abundance.
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Thanks for being open 🙂 May I encourage you that I’ve had similar feelings/thoughts, which I try to remind myself 2 Corinthians 10:12 “do not compare yourself with others”.. http://smu.gs/1NYGgGd God has made you unique and has/will blessed you in other ways! 🙂
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Thanx for the encouragement, I’m so glad I didn’t make it obvious that I was feeling some type of way, and I still did as we always do before departing… Say “have a good remainder of the day, drive safe and see ya tomorrow”. That way, nobody even realized what I was thinking… Thank God!!!
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Faith is a word that is very very very difficult.
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Tell me about it!!! But, we just need the size of a mustard seed… So, I believe I’m good 🙂
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Without faith everything is impossible….it is just so hard to see and have that strong faith when everything looks so far away….the light at the end of the tunnel that is.
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Exactly, that’s why I keep my eyes on Jesus; the Author and Finisher of my Faith… Thanx luv 🙂
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(reaches through the computer screen in minds eye and gives you a tender hug) *I wish I could doll*
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Awwwwww thanx, that was sooooooo sweet of you 🙂
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Hang tight to your faith. The enemy will do whatever it takes to distract and ultimately destroy you. Hold tight. Don’t allow the enemy to block you.
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I won’t, and thanx for your encouragement… It’s much appreciated!!!
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