149 Days… Father God in Heaven… Have Your Way ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿฅฐ๐Ÿ˜˜

Man ole man ole man… I opened my site to blog for today, and seen that a fairly old post had been reblogged, and I took the time to read over the post, from nearly 7 years ago, and I seen how optimistic and positive I was, even though I was homeless smh ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿฝโ€โ™€๏ธ… Not getting many hours at work ๐Ÿ˜ฉ.. But, I was always taught that you never allow yourself to look like what you’re going through. Also, “Faith is the substance of things Hoped for, and the evidence of things unseen”… Back then, I can remember that I would keep a smile daily smh ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿฝโ€โ™€๏ธ and believe God to do the unthinkable for me; which He has so many times before, and just as I hope He does again for me, before my time runs out. #JesusTakeTheWheel

Something else I surprisingly noticed today, is that a nice author reblogged my first book post for me… I’m so thankful for that; as I expressed to them, and I elaborate on that, with great emphasis, because that’s gotta be God, Who led them to reblog the book, because I was so sad that my books done so poorly, and I know it’s my fault, that I failed to promote the books properly duhhhh ๐Ÿ™„… Like how would anybody be interested in my books, when they have no clue who I am lol ๐Ÿ˜‚ lls ๐Ÿคฃ… But, still the fact that they took the initiative to assist meant a lot to me #ThankYou

But, back to the old post I mentioned earlier, even though I’m happy that the post and video was so ๐Ÿ…ฟ๏ธositive, I just had a #thingsthatmakeyougohmm moment, where I just wanted to break down and cry my eyes out, to think that I even have horrible memories to look back on, dating back so many freekin years ago, and people have the audacity to wonder why I’m counting down my days so openly!!! My God, just take the time to analyze my HCYMABH page, different posts from my YouTube and many other social media platforms… A lot of things I’ve archived, because my family would be embarrassed of my transparency, and instead of me moving forward with my attempts to link with others, who were going through the same things I were; in hopes that we could support one another, to please my family… I denied myself, probably some of the best help I could have ever received smh ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿฝโ€โ™€๏ธ… Not this time dammit ๐Ÿ˜ฉ… If it’s meant for me to live through this and finally get connected with good people, who are also suffering, and we can help one another, then that’s what will happen. #ironsharpensiron #loveyourfamily #eachoneteachone #PrayWithoutCeasing #ohana #happy

I’ve actually had some inconsistent inconsiderate therapists and counselors, one who fell asleep on me, one who reintroduced herself to me, after I’d been visiting her for months ๐Ÿ‘€๐Ÿ‘€๐Ÿ‘€… I’m like wtf… You can’t be serious… I just feel like it should be more than a paycheck for these people smh ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿฝโ€โ™€๏ธ… For me, I get really attached to my therapists, or I can’t disclose any personal information ๐Ÿคช… So, when you prove to me that we really don’t have a genuine caring specialist client relationship… Then I’m turned off and totally done thereafter. Nonetheless, I really thank God for the 2 miracles He performed for me today, showing that He is answering my Prayers, for Him to turn things around for me, before my plan can become a horrible reality… God knows I really don’t wanna die… Just wanna be loved, appreciated, taking serious, seen as important and worthy of life. As always, I love each of you and thank you from the top and bottom of my heart for all of your Prayers, support, likes, comments and shares ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿฅฐ๐Ÿ’ฏ

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