Better at what I say then what I do SMH… Jesus Plllleeeeeaaaaassssseeee HHHEEEELLLLPPPP me!!!

I know sooooooo well how to counsel, advise and help everyone stay strong and show forth Faith in the midst of tests. But, when the tables turn I get sooooooo weak and act out… I hate, hate, hate this about myself.

I gotta record myself ministering to others or something, and be able to quickly playback the audio, to defeat the enemy, by not getting depressed or stressed, and prove to him that I do in fact trust God to do just what He says and really and truly believe it in my heart of hearts also.

The darts just keep coming so fast, that it’s hard to get my footing. And the Holy Spirit is immaculate, because He’s teaching right as I’m typing and I’m now able to see the good in my situation either way.

Point at hand: I allowed myself to be scammed Friday, something I always kept a defense against ordinarily, and would’ve never been so naive. But, these people seemed so convincing… Really had a call back number, answering as IRS and appeared to really be in a legit call center and all, and my husband had in fact applied for financial aid. So, I fail for it SMH.

Low and behold, the monies were placed on a greendot card, and I was feeling better because one young lady got my hopes up by having me email her documents to prove I was the initial card holder and in deed was a victim of fraud. But, I got a disturbing reply this morning, that tore me all to pieces. Thus, making me shun and be mean to my husband all over again… When I wasted the entire Friday already in despair and acting ugly… Took off from work, causing myself more loss, wouldn’t eat… Just in the dumps wanting a pity party I guess and for him to feel terrible… I know better, but I couldn’t get myself outta the stupor.

Not today, just as the Holy Spirit showed me… My father is rich and owns the cattle on a thousand hills… He can bring back that and more money and it don’t have to be from greendot… I just have to trust and believe and be ever so careful not to lash out while I wait!!! I can’t lie, I’m humanly mad at the fact that both individuals are able to get away with their actions and my hands are inadvertently tied. The scammers can’t be found and greendot are rightfully doing this to me because of clauses in their policy that cover them SMH… I don’t feel it’s right one bit though, especially since I have proof that I have the card in my possession and the people who falsely registered the card and used the funds cannot produce the same proofs ggggrrrrrrhhhhhh… Tests are hard. But, with the help of the Holy Spirit we’ll pass and eventually benefit from doing what’s right no matter what we face.

BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

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Nooooooo matter how it looks… I believe!!!

Heavenly Father,

Thank You for Your Grace and Mercy, in Your Son Jesus Christ’s Holy name!

Dear God, no matter what it looks like I believe that You want to and will bring this ministry together, so that Alone No More can be readily available to help Your people everywhere.

Daddy, in spite of how I may feel as though nothing is turning out right, I’ll continue to look upwards, towards the hills, from where my help comes; knowing that hold ups don’t necessarily count me out!!!

I Love You Father God, and nothing’s going to stop Alone No More from taking root… we will, in Jesus name, help the people, as You lead, guide and direct. God, I’m convinced that in Your own time, You will undoubtedly bring forth every individual needed to make this ministry what You intend for it to be!!! Have Your way, I surrender my all to Your mighty work… Use me until You’ve used me up… My only desire is to serve and Plllleeeeeaaaaassssseeee You at any cost. Amen!!!

BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

Sooooooo angry at myself!!!

Just what in the world is wrong with me??? “If God be for me, WHO can be against me?”

I gotta stop letting the enemy reap havoc in my life, and I go curl up under bushes, with my tail tucked… Whimpering and subdued… I’m a child of God, an heir of God and a joint heir with Christ Jesus!!!

God has placed tooooooo much in me for me to keep shutting down on His work!!!

My deepest apologies to everyone who has been willing to back me on His endeavor. But, watched me inadvertently sink into that ridiculous nearly two week depression phase… I’m just grateful that God knows me through and through; enough to know that I wasn’t arbitrarily saying no I won’t do it, because other secular issues and/or opportunities took premise.

But rather He saw the distractions the adversary created for me, to veer me off course, and He had to send the right people along to pull me back. I’d like to thank each one of you for continuing to message me, in spite of my silence, during my trying time… That is nobody but God, to keep you steadfast, amidst my craziness… Thanks, thanx… Then thanx one more again!!!

Everybody… Alone No More is about to take off… Hurting individuals will have the love, compassion, attention, affection, care, concern, time, and anything else they need!!! God purposely saved me from twelve obnoxious suicide attempts, and I suffer from Nooooooo brain damage at all… Actually, I’m ridiculously intelligent… Which shows He’s ever so present in my life. Therefore, onward I go… In His service!!!

I’m BBBBAAAAACCCCCKKKKK 🙂 🙂 🙂

BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

Tribute to suicide victims – YouTube

http://de.gofund.me/h2r43w

Please go through each link, and realize, especially through their Facebook posts, that these were once normal individuals, living out each day… Then, something happen!!! Most had an abundance of friends and family interacting with them regularly SMH… Alone No More wants to get to the root of the issues and be able to, with the help of God Almighty, stop suicide altogether.

http://www.legacy.com/obituaries/fredericknewspost/obituary.aspx?pid=167476731

Jessica Gladhill

https://www.facebook.com/jessica.gladhill


http://www.legacy.com/obituaries/hartfordcourant/obituary.aspx?pid=166939399

Todd Dorey


http://www.suttonguardian.co.uk/news/8327340.Triple_suicide_family_torn_apart_by_fourth_death/

Anna Borau

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-1356031/How-mother-bear-After-suicides-child-lost-legal-high.html


http://worlddestiny.proboards.com/thread/11146

Destiny Grindstaff


http://www.findagrave.com/cgi-bin/fg.cgi?page=gr&GRid=82774735

Isabel Borau


https://www.facebook.com/neil.lal

Neil Lal


http://www.horancares.com/obituary/Sterling-Alexander-Malec/Northglenn-CO/1123023

Sterling Malec

https://www.facebook.com/events/482613408437952/


http://www.legacy.com/obituaries/deseretnews/obituary.aspx?n=jason-mark-ainsworth&pid=156091670

Jason Mark Ainsworth

http://www.findagrave.com/cgi-bin/fg.cgi?page=gr&GRid=85735259


http://www.newsargus.com/obituaries/archives/2007/04/15/nathan_lynn_ford/

Nathan Ford

http://nathan-ford.virtual-memorials.com/

Be ANGRY but sin NOT…

I could only be furious with myself right now, because I’m the one who made the dumb mistake, and it’s so ironic, because I’m a stickler for checking everything twice.

Knowing that what God gave me is for a worthy cause and much needed, I really looked to see if the many individuals who viewed and liked the post had in fact taken the initiative to give a donation, only to find out the link was faulty SMH.

Do, I get frustrated and denounce the entire VISION due to one set back, merely on day 1 of implementation… Lord Nooooooo!!! I’m no quitter and the race is not giving to the swift, but rather to those who’ll ENDURE till the end.

That just means I have to do extra work to gain back the number of supporters who temporarily missed the opportunity to assist. Plllleeeeeaaaaassssseeee forgive me ggggrrrrrrhhhhhh!!!

Nevertheless, here’s the correct link http://e.gofund.me/h2r43w

Also, I’ve added a few stories to the gofundme page, just to enlighten all on the many families who have collectively been affected by the stigma of suicide. Some without warning, thus no perpetration or chance to help at all.

That’s why this app is so important. We’ll be right at the hurting party’s fingertips. Pain and anguish can strike at any giving time of the day or night. And Alone No More will be readily available at everyone’s beckoning.

BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

Alone No More (Gofundme) info

I have no clue how to write proposals. So, I’ll raise money to hire someone to do that. Then, prayerfully get grant money to move forward with the app, website and team of helpers.

I know it’s gon be expensive and I’ll need energy to work two jobs and bring this all together. But, God is gonna give me His strength when I feel weak or bogged down.

http://e.gofund.me/h2r43w

Please at least pass that link around… It could be someone close to you next… Don’t overlook or criticize because it hasn’t hit home yet, and prayerfully it Neeeeeevvvveeerr does. Nonetheless, help in any way you can Plllleeeeeaaaaassssseeee.

BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

Write the VISION and make it plain!!!

Well, reality just kicked in that this will be harder than I thought. But, if it’d be easy I wouldn’t need Jesus to see it through!!!

I refuse to get upset and angry, because obstacles seem to be too much for me. God gives VISIONS and He’ll also bring about provision. Rome wasn’t built overnight… Likewise, this well needed ministry will take time to come together.

There’s a lot I didn’t factor in. The most important factor is that hurting people are all around the globe and I’m just one person in one state ggggrrrrrrhhhhhh. I thought in terms of using the worldwide web to see this through. But, some feedback I just got has changed my train of thought!!!

Then, he/she is right, who could I possibly pay enough money, to sit by the phone late hours waiting on calls??? My only thoughts is to stop suicide at any cost… And unless you’ve been affected by it in one way or another you probably won’t be as sensitive to it and apt to jump in and lend a hand.

I don’t even care to profit from this… I just want it working sooooooo badly SMH. Once again I want my magic wand or I go back to if only I were rich!!! If so, I’d hire people and pay them large amounts to save hurting people. I’ve been in that same place twelve miserable disgusting times. And while I’m at a stable place in my life I wanna do what I see to be necessary to help. I reiterate, the system don’t have a working plan trust me… I’ve been in several institutions and you’re just sitting there day to day, wasting away… Taking ridiculous medications, drawing or coloring… How is that fixing your issue??????? Come on people… Help me pull this together… I need you like Neeeeeevvvveeerr before.

Da UGLY Ducklin -IN DA LIFE OF PASSION

After experiences with suicidal thoughts firsthand, then seeing how prevalent it is with celebrities and others who one would think are established and shouldn’t even be experiencing such problems that’ll ever make them feel worthless, hopeless or inadequate. But, that further proves that suicidal tendencies has nuttin to do with how much money you have nor does popularity make a difference. Hurting people are everywhere… And I wanna HHHEEEELLLLPPPP!!!

Alone No More

Is a non profit organization I wanna structure, that will operate 24 hrs a day and have an app attached to it, do that none will have to waste time dialing numbers to get help. What if they’ve already taken the pills or injured themselves, but have a change of heart, and too weak to dial out. This app will stay on the home screen (widget) and instantly a live counselor pops up and will be able to…

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Write the VISION and make it plain!!!

After experiences with suicidal thoughts firsthand, then seeing how prevalent it is with celebrities and others who one would think are established and shouldn’t even be experiencing such problems that’ll ever make them feel worthless, hopeless or inadequate; further proves that suicidal tendencies has nuttin to do with how much money you have nor does popularity make a difference. Hurting people are everywhere… And I wanna HHHEEEELLLLPPPP!!!

Alone No More

Is a non profit organization I wanna structure, that will operate 24 hrs a day and have an app attached to it, so that none will have to waste time dialing numbers to get help. What if they’ve already taken the pills or injured themselves, but have a change of heart, and too weak to dial out. This app will stay on the home screen (widget) and instantly a live counselor pops up and will be able to get your exact location, so long as GPS and location are both engaged on your device.

Also, with the app, say for instance you’re merely in the beginning phase of your plan, and you’re maybe able to just talk to someone and perhaps get to feeling better altogether. The counselor will either spend the needed time with you themselves or get someone local to respond to your location, in case you prefer face to face interactions.

Alone No More

Will have 24 hrs private prayer closets throughout the cities, for anyone to drop in as needed whenever, and they can choose whether they’d like for someone to pray with/for them or they want to spend time with God alone. Yes, we can pray anywhere. But, some people feel better in places that’s dedicated to/for the primary purpose of prayer.

Alone No More

Will either be staffed (on standby) at hospitals and and psychiatric associations, because everybody don’t just need to be medicated and locked on a ward, left alone to still think about your problems. Rather, talking it through is more helpful. Every time I’ve been committed the actual facility I was in did nuttin beneficial for me, aside from food, arts and crafts, an abundance of snacks and tons of mind altering drugs. The crazy thing is you end up lying, and saying your issue has diminished, just so you can finally get home. But, the problem just goes right with you. Instead, Alone No More will take the time to get to the root of your issue, and help you with therapy that surpasses sitting on a couch, going over family history and all the shenanigans. The time together will be spent doing whatever you enjoy, yet while still rectifying your problem. You’ll gain a new helpful friend.

However, this VISION will be expensive and time consuming. I need help writing proposals and staff to work with, ideas on how to turn these thoughts into reality. I can’t do this by myself, although I can see exactly how it should be structured. It’s gon take a committed team of US to pull this together. Come along and let’s put an end to suicide as best we know how… Giving the love that’s needed one click of the app at a time.

BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

Stranger Danger… Ruuunnnnn >>>>>>>

All eleven of my grand babies know this term Ohhhhh tooooooo well. And Nooooooo doubt they take it serious and are always on guard and constant alert. In the same, children and adolescents are taught about this all the more, as they are allowed to enter the cyber world, with the remembrance of the many disgusting predators lurking to devour them.

Growing up, in my era, it was nuttin for young ladies who were either tooooooo lazy to walk or had Nooooooo money for public transportation, to take rides from whom ever offered. But, that quickly died down, when it actually panned out that we were in fact in danger by taking what was supposed to be a generous ride from a stranger turned deadly. Men and even young boys started taking advantage of the opportunity to over power random females and not only kidnap and rape them. But, kill them too SMH!!!

Thank God times have changed and surfing the web has its perks and benefits. And I learned to appreciate it all the more in 2006, when I was too downtrodden to even pull myself outta the bed to seek help for my troubled mind and broken heart. Instead I took to Google, in search of “Online support groups”. That was an amazing experience for me… Although I didn’t particularly find exactly what I needed using those search terms, all was still well. Because God helped me use my wits and HCUMABH was formed, and within months it was flooded with member requests… People were then and still are hurting geeeesssssshhhhh!!! I’m not alone after all 🙂

Nonetheless, my real reason for posting on this topic arose simply from the love, encouragement and support I receive on my new site Da Ugly Ducklin which is connected to WordPress. They’re Nooooooo strangers at all!!! Our interactions are more interpersonal and they always take the bold stance of using their personal testimonies to make me feel better, thus showing me you’re not suffering by yourself… We’re going through the exact same or similar issue as you, and together we’ll conquer these obstacles. I love it!!! What do you call so called strangers, who care like they do, with sooooooo much concern and compassion for your well being???

I know Nooooooo better than to call them FRIEND… Who cares about distance, class, race or demographical background. People like that deserve awards, especially because the acts of generosity is genuine… Let me tell each of you firsthand… I love and appreciate you all, and I hate that it sounds sooooooo cliché. But, just know that it comes from waaaaaayyyyyyy deep down in my heart… And remember Heaven smiles upon you and yours for the good works you do here… Keep up the GOOD work 🙂

BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

Post from HCUMABH 2/19/14

I felt compelled to share with you what horrific experience I endured last week, and some of you may have watched it all unfold, yet while other’s will read about it for the first time tonight.

I went through a break up on the 14th that sent me for a loop, and what made it different than any other is the fact that coupled with the overwhelms of emotions, I attempted suicide for the umpteenth time, and it also panned out way far different than before. And as I continue, you’ll understand better where I’m going with this. But, as I write this to you I’m shaking like I suffer from Parkinson’s disease, but it’s merely the affects of the medicine they pumped me up with and the drugs I consumed in my dumb attempt.

I keep asking God why I have to always be lonely, and His reply, one that I’ll finally accept is plainly “you’re not alone, you’re just being savored for Me”. People, I’m 43, and have always been domineering, Soooooo for me to find myself begging for my mommy, while strapped to a hospital bed gave me the biggest wake up call ever. I quickly realized I was no longer in control, and had to be subjected to whatever they did to me… scared me out of my wits.

Point at hand, in God revealing to me that I’m His, I came to the conclusion that all the creativity within shall be used for His purposes, and I was taking back to the very day I started this group, even then it was adamant for me to be doing what God wanted, but I was running.

NO MORE, or I won’t have to take my own life, He’ll do the work for me, and more than likely without warning, and I probably won’t be ready. My problem with surrendering was the fear that I’d live a boring life… as it is now, who cares! I say yes to His will hands down. Trust me, I won’t be missing anything, but the drama that was Neeeeeevvvveeerr good for me from the start.

I’m mad at myself for all the promises I’ve made in this group, but failed to fulfill… please forgive me. Starting tonight, that will change, the power moves that I’ll make for God will integrate the group. While locked away, I seen just how needed this group really is, but not in its dead state, that’s why I must get myself together, Soooooo this group will be what it’s intended to be.

BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

Post from HCUMABH 12/2/13

Update: 5/16/15 We’re together and doing marvelous… Prayer deftly changes things!!!

I think my biggest hurt comes because I don’t have discernment, and I was totally wrong thinking that him coming back into my life after a ten years gap was a divine miracle, but this morning proves I was only fooling myself. I wanted it to work so bad I just didn’t care about any of the signs that showed me it wasn’t of God… I was just tired of being lonely.

I almost feel like being angry with God, even though I don’t walk upright before Him as regularly as I should, doesn’t mean I need to suffer like this… it’s embarrassing. I have my room door locked, so I know my family thinks I’ve been sleeping peaceful all night… but Lil do they know, this pain is probably one of the worst ones I’ve ever had to endure… narcotics couldn’t even knock me out.

The crazy thing though, I have friends and family members who can stay in relationships for years on end, and they won’t even attempt to seek the face of God… but I have Him at the forefront of my life, and repetitive break ups is my destiny.

Back when I was going through those years of suicide attempts, when I first started this group, trust me, it wasn’t because I was weak… because I know my worth, and I realize I CAN make it without a man financially… but that’s not the case… the point is I don’t want to!!! It’s hard going from watching t.v. with someone, cuddled up in their arms… y’all cracking your sides at the same time to the funny parts, or you both get teary eyed simultaneously… once that significant other is gone, t.v. is now a thing you hate… which causes a domino effect to occur, because now depression is working its way into your realm… SMH!!!

But, this is the kicker… although the problems were on and off between he and I, I purposely would over look them because I honestly believed our connection to be of God, since we married the first time in 1998, then again in 2000… calling ourselves renewing our vows, in an effort to have a new slate… in June 2003, God blessed me with a good job, that not only paid good, but it was interesting enough to aide in me being able to wean myself off of him, and there was absolutely no contact until March 2013, when I used this exact venue that I’m posting to right now to track him down, and the rest is self explanatory I guess!!!

Nevertheless, I still have to believe that God has a plan even in this pain I’m going through.

BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

Post from HCUMABH 2/26/14

GM Heartmenders 🙂

Prayerfully all is well with each of you, as for me, life couldn’t be better. NO, everything’s not perfect, but it don’t look like it use to and I have great expectations for the days to come. Starting today, I’ve decided to wholeheartedly TRUST God with my entire life, more than I did in the past. Before, I somewhat gave Him my all, but it was too easy for me to stray. This time around, I’m SOLD OUT, NO turning back, and my desire is to take each one of you with me, as I journey through life in peace and harmony… secure in my mind that God and the heavenly bodies are with me and won’t allow any of US to dash/gash our foot against a stone.

Am I promising you a problem free life going forward? No indeed!!! In fact, I’ll honestly tell you that trials are destined to occur. But, know that is the evidence that we’re walking the straight and narrow… just be sure NOT to deviate. Yes, temptations will rise and you may FALL short, it’s normal my love, just don’t waller in it… immediately get back up, REPENT, and grab our Father’s hand and proceed on.

Each day, before your feet touch the ground, make it a habit to Thhhaaannnkkk God for new life, invite Him into your day, and ask Him to guide and guard every part of your being, and place a covering over your love ones. Then, move into action, allowing Him to have his way with you, of course, follow your routine as normal, taking care of your hygiene and diet, still exercise if you always did, make all your same phone calls and go on to work. The only difference is your quiet conversations with God, that helps you with decision making. For me, I have a spending problem, that arises even more so when I’m bored or sunken… that changes today, as I walk in any store from now on, my prayer will be “Daddy, You know what I need, anything is of no importance, so don’t let me spend unnecessarily”. Likewise, ask Him to aide in your life, in whatever area you struggle. To add, find a point when you open up to be used by Him, for His purpose… just say “Daddy, You’ve been Soooooo good to me and mine, now direct me to do something for You; it’s my pleasure to serve”.

Fam, I know I never finished the series I started about intriguing your man… my bad!!! But, who knows if that was the correct message for me to convey, maybe God will take us back to it or He may lead us somewhere else totally… just be patient with me and enjoy the ride… as always, I love you all to pieces 🙂

BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

Post from HCUMABH 1/19/14

I’m back… at work and can only write during breaks, so bear with me.

Nonetheless, back to what I was conveying earlier; before I jump back to it, I wanna give you some history.

When this group evolved some nearly five years ago, I was probably worse off than I am now and surely didn’t think I’d live to see myself be the supportive individual that God allowed me to soon become, and I say soon, because we (HCYMABH) are about to excel.

Back on the very day I sat at my computer and formulated this group, I had no idea what I was doing, and just how it would even turn out, and even with all my slack, I can proudly say we’re 2k strong, and I look forward to us growing in leaps.

However, the day I spoke about was the day I was released from a mental institution, and actually my first time ever attempting suicide, I couldn’t believe that was the route I took, considering I always thought I could conquer anything. The way I was living my life, back then, you would’ve thought I was in jail for homicide vs me being the victim.

Long story short, after leaving, I still wasn’t feeling up to par, so I looked for support groups in my area to help me cope, but nothing was local, so I searched online to no avail. Then God dropped it in my spirit to start my own… I did and here we are. Except I haven’t been faithful to the group, and that’s none other than a trick of the enemy, who caused me to get sidetracked, by sending temporary relationships my way, to keep me from ever getting the good news out to everyone. But, all that’s out the window now… I’m back focused. But, I’ll have to come back later again, breaks over… but do keep a look out for the following posts, because it’s bout to get juicy… stay tuned.

BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

Post from HCUMABH 6/28/14

ATTENTION: If you have a friend or loved one who suffers from a mental illness, make it your business to implement a plan of action for the time when you notice that they’re in a stupor.

Which means you need to dedicate time now to figuring them out through and through, and Plleeeaaaasssseeee don’t have the attitude(s) “That’s their problem, they better deal with it, and stop being weak.” Or “Bless their lil heart, I’ll be Praying for em.” Or here’s a good one… “I’m not feeding into them, they just want attention.” Duhhhhh, that’s exactly what WE long for and NEED.

Trust me, the illness is real, and NOT something that should be taken lightly, and this goes for both parties (the ill and the should be help mate). Especially when thoughts of suicide have EVER come in to play, if not treated correctly, the attempt will eventually turn into a well thought out success, and that’s going to be detrimental TRUST me.

For me, at this moment, my mind is clear, and I’m realizing that my situation can be used to help others, just by conducting prominent research and collectively keeping this page updated with cases of people who struggled for years, without getting proper love, attention, medication and guidance, and ultimately ended their lives… SMH.

You are OUR brothers/sisters keeper, and those who can’t help themselves needs you… be there for them.

BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

Post from HCUMABH 6/9/14

GE HCYMABH MEMBERS,

No doubt, I’m ok with allowing God to mend my broken heart, because I know He’ll be genuine in His acts towards me, Neeeeeevvvveeerr wavering in kindness and support and the sadness some people make me feel at times wouldn’t EVER occur with Him. However, what gets me angry, upset and confused is the fact that I’m not able to treat the hurtful people the way they treat me… The flesh side of me wants to be like Rick Ross (God forgives but I don’t) but I’m too afraid of God’s wrath.

He helped me realize FFFFIIIIIRRRSSSSTTTT that I shouldn’t retaliate against the people, because it’s NOT actually them who’s treating me unkind, but rather the adversary is working through them, in an effort to keep me sidetracked from ALL the things I’ve been called to do for Him… see the dumb devil knows it’s about to go down, and many, once again, will change their wicked ways, and come to Christ wholeheartedly, JUST by keeping in close proximity to me… Soooooo, he thinks by reaping havoc unnecessarily between us will complicate OUR relationship to the point that my witness will be of NO effect… NOT!!! Dumb is ya Lucifer 🙂

That just makes me PRAY harder, and the more I seek God on the issue, the faster chains are BROKEN, generational curses diminish, pain and heartache disappear, and family orientation is strengthened… dummy, you’re on notice, TODAY, I am a child of God and always will be, NO MORE falling by the wayside… I’m grounded and rooted… And everything God has for me and mine shall come to pass!!!

How can I mend my broken heart… easy, through continual Prayer and supplication… you have no place here… therefore, return to the pits of hell, WHERE you belong… while Weeeeeeeee move forward in total Salvation… (((TOODLES)))

BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

Permeate me √√√√√√√

Daddy, I continually surrender my ALL to You and Your Work. I want You to live in and through me, to the point where my words, actions, ways, responses and thoughts surprise me.

True, we have free will! But, I relinquish ALL to You. I keep messing up being myself, following after the lusts and desires of this crazy and chaotic world, and always letting this filthy flesh win. I’m completely sick of it. My primary reason for breathing is to please You in EVERY aspect of my life.

Yes, we have every right to repent, and You do forgive instantly, and that’s MUCH appreciated. But, I just wanna be transformed and renewed to the point where my mess-ups are minimal to none at all!!! You’re sooooooo wonderful to me, BETTER to me than I am even to myself. So, I wanna express my gratitude by being a Good and Faithful servant… I too wanna hear the words “Well done!!!”

Just like Paul said… The things I’m supposed to do I don’t do. But, ALL the things I shouldn’t do; I end up doing ggggrrrrrrhhhhhh 😦 😦 😦 I’m tired of playing tag with the adversary… NOOOOOOO MORE!!!

Father, I’m totally and completely sold out for You… Have Your way in my life, and use me till You use me up!!! Help me to be humble, meek, compassionate, loving, caring and considerate to ALL, even if they’ve hurt me. And it takes dying to my flesh to be able to look past the hurt that others have intentionally caused me, and still love them just as Christ loves the Church… That’s why I beg of You to purge me with hyssop and wash me white as snow.

BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

Post from HCUMABH 9/1/12

At one point, I would spend countless hours analyzing myself, trying to figure out what was wrong internally, that caused constant problems in my relationships.

I will admitt, I like all others have flaws, and I can tend to be a bit dominate at times. But, to repeatedly meet with disappointment is ridiculous, and I haven’t a clue what the issue is.

While reflecting on myself, I considered my physique to be the primary culprit. So, I got my weight in tact, and happiness re-kindled. But, before long he was gone again. Then, I assumed it had to be my overbearing demeanor. So, I took on the back-seat occupant role of the relationship for a while, and I let my mate drive us for some eight miserable months; to no avail. Let me tell you, that obnoxious ordeal was short lived, and I eventually found myself by myself, and really contemplating suicide.

After a while, I began asking God if He ultimately wanted me alone, because He had other plans for my life. But, I can’t see that being the predicament, because He made woman from and for man… Which indicates that there IS somebody out here for me. I’m just missing the mark somehow.

To sum it all up, I’m not living in this realm of confusion by my lonesome, and I’m asking for input, so that we, who are hurt, can come out of our emotional bondage, and find TRUE happiness. Don’t be shy, we can all benefit from each others testimonies.

#TEAMHOWTOMENDMYBROKENHEART

BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

Cry me a river (((((TEARS)))))

I hate moments like this, when I see my baby trying sooooooo hard to win a contest, in pursuit of his dream. I just wish I had the magic wand, so I could zap him into the place of success that he desires.

As mothers, we always wanna kiss our baby’s ouchies, encourage them when they’re down, nourish them back to health when they’re under the weather… But, this endeavor right here is beyond my reach, and it crushes me.

He’s my ONLY boy, and has Neeeeeevvvveeerr given me any trouble… In fact, he lifted the weight off me, as a single struggling Mom, rather early, by 14 years old he was totally providing for himself, and has kept the same momentum up to this very day.

Generally, anything he sets out to accomplish he drops jaws in amazement. But, this industry that he’s embarking upon ain’t very friendly and easy to tap into. There’s something we just ain’t doing quite so right or shall I say what we were doing… As of today, I give it ALL over to Christ, and watch Him direct our paths.

I was reluctant all these years because my son’s music choice falls within the lines of secular entertainment, and I didn’t feel apt to Pray on his behalf because of it. Then I realized, God loves and knows us ALL!!! The skills, talents and gifts my son possesses came from Him. Of course, I believe things would move much quicker if he were glorifying God with his music. Nonetheless, it’s my child, and I’m determined to Pray his strength, believe in and support him.

God knows better than me 🙂

BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

My journey

In 1993 I first learned of God in a way that would truly be beneficial to me, opposed to what I was accustomed to as a child, at my Grandma Toads’ house, having the missionaries come over every Sunday morning, to teach the household how to live right.

Then, I was way too young for any of the teachings to take root, and change my sinful ways. All I did was watch the clock, waiting for the lady to leave, so I could get to play outside. Although the atmosphere was always structured, and the lessons placed before me contained pertinent tips that could have saved me from most of the heartache I endured after becoming an adolescent, I never forced myself to listen, thus reaping havoc in every arena of my life thereafter.

Today, I’m determined to get it right, and seek Gods’ face like never before. I know firsthand that He’s a keeper, and He rewards anyone who diligently pursues Him. I can bear witness to Him being GREAT, because I had a chance, for a couple of years to have Him working closely with me, once I surrendered my all to Him, and asked Him to lead, guide and direct me. However, I took the wheel again, and it wasn’t until a couple of months ago that I realized I absolutely need Him at the forefront of my life or I’ll either end up in hell or a jail cell, and neither of them are an option for me. I have eleven (11) wonderful grandbabies that not only depend on their parents for moral support, and look for a positive role model. But, also they definitely expect me, the overseer of the entire clan, to have myself in order, so they’ll know how to conduct themselves.

Back in the day, I use to attend these cell groups, that were so helpful and conducive for me but I can’t find them in existence any more… SMH!!! They were a plus, because each new comer was teamed up with a seasoned member, and the two would schedule Prayer allotments and we would also meet for mid-week Bible studies at one or the other’s home, and that getting together like that always carried me over until Sunday morning worship service. Thinking about those days makes me laugh, because my children would be so angry, because I was so thirsty for Christ that we basically lived in church. Twice on Sundays (AM & PM) services, choir rehearsal on Tuesdays, Bible Study on Wednesday, and the cell groups took place every other Friday… I miss that… It sure did me some good. But, I unfortunately allowed my flesh to take over, and I backslid. Nonetheless, I’m happy to know I serve a God that shows forth Grace and Mercy to every one of us. He knows we can’t keep ourselves, and our flesh craves after the ungodly things of the world… But, it’s our responsibility to remain GROUNDED and ROOTED in the Word, so that we’ll have the power to fight against temptations as they rise.

Tonight, I take the initiative to reconstruct the old workable cell groups again. So, if there’s any God fearing women, who feel just like me… You have a desire to do right, but you need that extra push, let’s team up together and PUSH each other into Heaven’s gates. It’s important that we Pray without ceasing and read God’s Word, and we can make it happen as long as we have FAITH the size of a mustard seed… I’m waiting, inbox me please 🙂

BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

What’s next???????

I’m sooooooo numb, but not suicidal!!! I’m waiting to see just what God is going to do in the upcoming seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, and years. I’m simply standing on His promises.

My mother’s day ended horrific, and I blame my actions on my inability to refrain from alcohol. I have this misconception that I can’t be friendly and fun unless I’m under the influence… Totally inaccurate!!!

Two days have passed, and I just apologized, but I wasn’t even the initial aggressor. Nonetheless, if I expect anything from God, I gotta ALWAYS be the bigger person, and it don’t seem fair at all… However, obedience is deftly better than sacrifice.

Besides all that, I need a focal point for my life or I run the risk of repetitive altercations. I need some substance, and I know it’ll start once I get wholeheartedly connected with a devout group of believers. But, the obstacles are surmountable and it’s driving me insane… Sort of like a catch 22… I have to work two jobs, in order to make ends meet. But, that impedes on my ability to get grounded and rooted the way I need to ggggrrrrrrhhhhhh… SMH.

Actually, going to services would cause sleep deprivation, because of my chaotic hours at my full-time. Then, trying to do, on my own, in what spare time I force pans out under non beneficial, because in the same way, one cannot teach themselves academically, likewise I’m not able to fully grasp the Holy Word, and know what I should be doing alone.

I’m a runner by nature (when the going gets tough/rough I get going) and my life appears so pointless and inadequate in the DMV, and I feel as though I need new scenery and different opportunities!!! There’s sooooooo much inside me, both good and bad… But, I keep telling myself once I find a new spot and implement a new way of living, thinking and acting… All the overflowing good will absolutely outweigh the bad.

I get daily emails from Rick Warren and Joel Osteen, and lately I’ve been urged to find out exactly what it is that God has for me to do, and I have some ideas. But, I quickly dismiss them, because they all require time, money, energy, and/or support that I don’t possess. Low and behold, I refuse to give up, no more getting so frustrated that I result to taking my life, because I’m confused and angry!!! That’s simply the trick of the enemy.

I’m determined to wait on God… He’s got something BIG planned, and I gotta be ready for it. But, without the flare ups, at the least bit of disturbance in my life. Every day won’t be perfect, and problems WILL arise. So, I’ll stay away from liquor, which makes me react incorrectly, and keep a sober, Prayed up mind… That will allow me to go through chaos calmly, thus passing my test, and eventually moving on with God, in the realm of emotions necessary for the Blessings He had stored up for me and mine.

BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

Seek HIS Face Saturday

Passions’ Pottery:

http://bible.com/111/mat.7.7.niv

“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.

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God can do ALL things but lie. Now, some may feel, “I’m not too sure about that, I’ve asked, sought and knocked, with no rebecausee” Worry not, be not dismayed! Either that particular thing you desired IS coming or something totally BETTER is deftly on its way. Very important: my texts can only hold ten people, and when God gave me this task I thought it was for the masses and I’d have to forward it multiple times, in order to reach ALL who’d listen or those who’d be interested, and low and behold I Only have seven committed and dedicated individuals, and trust that if you’re really into this your rewards are on their way. Remember, God sees ALL and will react the same towards you as you do Him. It’s better for you to say remove me from the group then to allow the correspondences to lie dormant or out and out plainly delete them upon receipt. Sure, we all get busy, and some just don’t like reading altogether. Trust it’ll pan out beneficial for you to take a few mins each day, not to only read the Messages, and I purposely capitalized Messages, because they’re specifically from and of God. Also, don’t feel as though ” I’m not going the whole nine yards wit God, so my interactions via text are obsolete and will never amount to nuttin ” Wrong!!! I’ve been saved since 1994 and have never been exactly where I wanna be or where I FEEL God wants me to be. But, He deftly still loves and Blesses me regularly. In fact, I was reluctant about moving forward with this group because I felt inadequate… Nope, those are all tricks of the enemy. Regardless of Church affiliation or the lack thereof, if we, like many WHO won’t at all, spend at least 15 mins with God a day… He’s obliged TRUST ME. Nuttin happens by chance, the chosen vessels who are here; are here because God knows that we’ll grasp the value within and do what’s right.

BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

Free Your Mind Frrrrriiiidddddaaaaayyyyy

Passions’ Pottery:

Itttttt’sssssss Frrrrriiiidddddaaaaayyyyy!!! And the day to totally unwind and relax. Even if you must work today, go to school or handle some business that would otherwise be stressful/overwhelming…Don’t allow it! You’re in control of your actions and reactions today. So, every time you feel your adrenaline negatively being impacted… ❎🚫 ⛔ STOP, and remain 🆒 and 🕧 count to ten… Then, smile and realize you’re too BLESSED TO BE STRESSED. with that in mind, carry on with your business at hand, in a peaceful and conducive manner. Purposely think about a vacation you’d love to be on RIGHT NOW and actually allow the very scenery to overtake you, to the point that it feels like an out of body experience, and you really feel the sun beaten down on your shoulders and the sand between your toes, as you slowly approach the fresh blue water ur getting ready to enjoy for a few ticks… Once in the water, and your body has become acclimated… It’s curtains… Nuttin can aggravate nor irritate now… You’re in your zone! Str8 relaxation. FYI if your phone ain’t waterproof don’t even imagine yourself chillin wit Pandora and headphones… Your expensive device hittin that water would ruin the excitement you just built yourself up to lol.    http://bible.com/97/dan.12.13.msg “And you? Go about your business without fretting or worrying. Relax. When it’s all over, you will be on your feet to receive your reward.”
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BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

Thank HIM Thursday

Passions’ Pottery:

Sooooooo, thanking God for His goodness can become so cliché. Don’t let it!!! We know how we do when we’re rushing “Father God, I thank You for waking me up, thank You for food, a car to drive and shelter… Amen” Ohhhhh nah, we’s not boutta keep short changing Him… Commit to 7 measly mins of pure and genuine Thanksgiving. For He inhabits the Praises of His people. Go off by yourself and use your headphones, in case you be all embarrassed about interacting wit God. But, go to Pandora and put on VaShawn Mitchell – Nobody greater and start by clapping your hands and audibly saying Hallelujah… Who cares if you look dumb lol. The rewards thereafter will be surmountable. And some may have instant things to thank God for, yet while others may need the Holy Spirit within to intercede on your behalf. Either way, just the mere fact that you obediently took the initiative, Heaven’s gonna cry out. Now, we all know how Pandora works, that specific song may not immediately populate. Nonetheless, go for it, whilst allowing two songs to play through… Hey, if the Spirit takes over, and you find yourself on the floor some hours later, deftly come back to dis link for a Praise report. http://bible.com/97/psa.136.1-3.msg Thank God ! He deserves your thanks. His love never quits. Thank the God of all gods, His love never quits. Thank the Lord of all lords. His love never quits.
Bible.com/app love each of you to pieces!!!

BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

We Can Do It Wednesday

Passions’ Pottery:

Still need three more… But, two of my loves have said yes, and joined us!!! http://bible.com/111/php.4.13.niv I can do all this through Him who gives me strength.
Bible.com/app Today is a new day, different than yesterday, and presenting different opportunities for Peace. Disregard any and all things you endured and focus your thoughts on our Father above, Who has within His realm of control all that’s necessary to make matters better. But, we MUST ask. It only takes 10-15 mins to get in His presence and 1) Thank Him for life 2) Repent regardless of your knowledge of apparent sin 3) Ask for the strength needed to conquer any endeavor you’re facing, going to face or simply for emotional, physical, mental, financial or knowledgeable… He’ll deftly do it… He just needs us to come!!!

BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

Amber Rose Blames The Alcohol For Her Airing Out Of Kanye West

I’m sooooooo haaaappppyyyy for dis post Right here!!! Sum like what I was saying earlier, in regards to others delightfully accepting help, in the industry, to build and/or mold their image. This is confirmation that it’s been going on, and not only with Kanye… So, my point remains that Amber made herself look like a complete fool, trynna go on da “nigga she use to fu¢£”… Straight from da horse’s mouth… Not tooooooo classy Amber… Shitfaced or nah!!!

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Tipsy Amber Rose reveals Kanye West’s ghostwriter

You’re sooooooo right, you couldn’t have said it Nooooooo better… STFU, because it was so random and uncalled for, in my opinion!!! But, I believe it was all a quest for attention, that didn’t pan out in her favor. So, now she wants to blame it on da al al al al uhhhhhh al alcohol. #JamieFoxx lyrics lol.

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Amber Rose Accuses Kanye Of Hiring Ghost Writers!

Wow, just woooooowwwwwwww is all I can say, until I continue to follow this stunt, and figure out her plight!!! If I’m not mistaken, there’s absolutely nuttin wrong with artists having others write for them. We’re all given certain talents… Some have the ability to come up with lyrics that they just can’t bring to the forefront, yet while others can hit dat stage and kill it. Unbeknownst to many I know of two renowned mega preachers who deftly hire ghostwriters all the time, apparently because they’re too busy with other work for God. To add, I wholeheartedly believe it’s OK to grab collections from others, and ghostwriters normally use your thoughts and aspirations to build the collection on your behalf.

Get a life Amber and get back to Mommy hood… Who cares frfr where his work comes from… His fans are through da roof. So, fallback my love.

(BnfEnT CEO Son Son – DMV’s infamous rap artist) Up next √√√

https://youtu.be/B1aUWAtjNBA

Our Bass Addiction

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Attention-chasing fame-whore Amber Rose has just come out an accused good ol’ Kanye of hiring ghost writers to write his lyrics. It’s been hottly rumoured for some time that Kanye’s a fan of getting others to do the work for him before taking credit and attributing it to his super genius but now we have it straight from some horse’s mouth.

One of Kanye’s tracks was playing at the Supperclub in L.A when the delightful Ms Rose subjected the DJ and other club goers to the following rant;

“Stop playing n*ggas I used to f*ck,” she demanded. “Why don’t we play the n*gga who writes his songs for the other n*gga: Travis Scott. Let’s go.”

Classy…

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Madonna On Drake Kiss: “I Kissed A Girl, And I Liked It”. It Gets Worse…

FOH… you real got rats, not mice in your house and you have the audacity to talk ish bout my mans and nem… Dats dat lar 4 ur a$$… What’s da chances that Ben (da rat) would choose to run ramped, right while you’re taping yourself fake go on da next maaaaannnnnnn… Lol, yous a fool for dis one my love… Karma’s a b!+¢π https://youtu.be/KCI9Ao_RM0g

Nevertheless, (BnfEnT CEO Son Son – DMV’s infamous rap artist) is mos def UP NEXT √√√

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=z5MVPaQCASY

Ben and Siya Blog Shit

Not gonna lie, this interview format is kinda fresh. Madonna took to her webcam with nothing but a bottle of wine, cheese pizza, and a drastic shortage of phucks to give.

You asked the million dollar question. I kissed a girl and I liked it.”, on Drake’s kissing abilities.

Yes, I’d like to collaborate with Barack Obama“, on who she’d like to collaborate with (in music? O_o).

As if that wasn’t bad enough, material girl took more questions from her young (?) fans, and snapped open an umbrella of the coldest shade upon Drizzy Drake Rogers.  With the presumable pinot pourin, as if to say “fuck it, I’m On One!”… When asked “what advice would you give to your younger self, knowing what you know now?” The Rebel Heart bled:

aaand the closest Swagga to the timeless Kanye Shrug goes to:

Madonna pizza wine

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Beyonce’s Mom Tina Knowles Lawson Pens Heartwarming Mother’s Day Letter

Awwwwww, that’s the beauty of moms. RIP Mommy… Without doubt, I know if you were here you would’ve expressed the same love to each of your daughters. I must say you done a fine job with the six beautiful daughters you created and molded into prosperous, hard working, prestigious women. We all miiiiisssssssssss you sooooooo much.

Most of all, around these times of the year, we miss the lovin times we spent together, whilst enjoying that marvelous meal prepared by yours truly… Much appreciated!!!

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3 Relationship Lessons We Learned From Ciara That Ciara Should Follow

Lesson #1 disagreement for two reasons 1.) She’s actively in the process of making “I bet” come to life… Remember, she told Future he gon start lovin her, soon as he SEE her wit someone else; better than him. So, how else would she successfully anger him, and have him running back, unless she publicized her interactions wit her new pawn… I just feel sorry for the Zude, who’ll ultimately be dismayed sooner than later. 2.) Regardless of them opening up by their rendezvous… Once the paparazzi got wind of it, it’d been out anyways… They plays no games, they be on it!!! Lurking and hiding in bushes lol… Sometimes I wonder if they even eat, if they’re posted up for hours on end, trynna get the juiciest story turn HEADLINE rotmfblmbao… A hot mess SMH. They anything frfr!!!

Lesson #2 disagreement… Shhhiiiidddd, call a spade a spade my nigga!!! Although, I still think the whole “Awesome” statement was just another way to make Future run home quicker… Nooooooo maaaaannnnnnn wants to even think another has his honey bunch wooed and they’re treating them in any such way, that’ll have them overjoyed, to the point where they consider them AWESOME… Hmmmmm, good job Ciara… Pretty clever, if I do say so myself.

Lesson #3 disagreement are you freekin kiddin me… Sky is the limit!!! We’re talkin bout Ciara here… How she look doing ordinary ish… Ain’t nuttin merely ordinary bout Shorty… She’s immaculate and flawless, in my opinion, and fit right in at that dinner through and through… I wish I could’ve been a fly on the wall, to see if she had pure pizzazz, because everything else about her speaks for itself. But, she had better walked fierce, and any time she had to stand still she’d better stood with confidence and assurance that she’s dat b!√¢π!!!

Nonetheless, (BnfEnT CEO Son Son – DMV’s infamous rap artist) is Up next √√√

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=z5MVPaQCASY

Boom 103.9 Philly

Ciara, 50 Cent, Future, Bow Wow, Russell Wilson Source: Michael Buckner/ Jason LaVeris /Thaddaeus McAdams /Michael Loccisano / Getty
We love almost everything about Ciara. Her sculpted bod serves as our inspiration to hit the gym and her dance moves keep us two-steps ahead when our favorite song comes on in the club. She also makes great love songs (?Promise? will always be a favorite.) However, we?ve watched the ?Body Party? singer?s love life take more blows than Pacquiao in a Mayweather fight. Bow Wow, 50 Cent and Future are just some the failed relationships we know about. But this is another reason why we love Ci Ci ? we?ve had our fair share of bad breakups and douche bags ourselves (all from whom we?ve learned a great deal of lessons.)

Ciara is back in the headlines with a new album, ?Jackie? and blossoming relationship with NFL star Russell Wilson. While we?re happy the singer…

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“In Other News” Top 5 Richest Rappers!!!

Uncertain future SMH… Dats dat lar Birdman!!! Shoulda known not to eff wit Tune. Therefore, you’s boutta be a non factor Rotmfblmbao. Stop being greedy and manipulative dammit!!! You already holdin dat bag in sooooooo many arenas. So, what was your point of trynna ish on Mr Carter? You disgust me. Then, I forgot to go on Dre, keep lying bout being a freekin billionaire… Have several seats sir, because they just keep exposing y’all wanna bes… A crying shame SMH… Making yourself look like a straight clown… FOH 🙂

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=B1aUWAtjNBA

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district4life

Forbes just released their annual update of the top 5 richest rappers in hip hop. Although this is actually not important in hiphop it’s always good to stay current on these issues (or so “they” say). going from top to bottom, at #1 we have mr Sean “Puff Daddy” or “P-Diddy” if your nasty Combs at $735 million. #2 we have Dr Dre coming in at a close $700 million. Although, as we all know from the viral video that was posted by the Aftermath camp showing Dre saying ‘he is the first “Billionaire” hip hop artist ever’ due to the recent sale of his beats by Dre headphones to apple. He only actually landed about $500 million after the percentage cut and taxes taken out, still nothing to frown at but definitely not the $3.2 billion that was promoted. at #3 we have “HOV” Jay-Z at an estimated $550…

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BALLIN’!! And Your Wealthiest Artists in Hip-Hop For 2015 Are…

Paying users??? Jay Z, you sicken me my nigga frfr!!! You’re freekin rich, but you real charging for Tidal… Geeeesssssshhhhh, what will you people ever just effin give away, and not for no dang tax write off either. Diddy, thank God for the other things you’re doing to continue to hold that top spot on da Forbes list, because Ciroc is ish for nuttin my dude… Comparable to notty head, nah let me retract dat… Notty head put your overpriced head bangah to shame dude. My mans and nem 50 boutta straight do dat to ya wit dat Effen vodka… Will he steal da show and snatch dat spot… Enquiring minds wanna know!!! Dre, SMH… Son you gotta be kiddin me!!! You ain’t embarrassed??? They just exploited da ish outta you my maaaaannnnnnn… Lol, at your nonperformance headphones… Don’t just get da bread, without any concern for ur consumers… Snatch dem ishes off da shelf, get em right my nigg, then try try again… You know, if at first you don’t succeed rotmfflmfbo!!!

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=B1aUWAtjNBA

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Z 107.9

Diddy And Ciroc Vodka Tour Stops At Fontainebleau Miami
Some things don’t change. Forbes released its annual list of highest paid hip-hop figures, and Diddy is still the No. 1 mogul with a net worth of $735 million. The man born Sean Combs is still standing strong atop of an empire that includes a TV station, a clothing line, Ciroc and an infamous record label, among others.

Dr. Dre is gaining up on Diddy, though. Although the Beats Music streaming service is underperforming, the brand is still standing strong. After his claim of being hip-hop’s first billionaire turned out to be false (thanks taxes), Dr. Dre stands at $700 million.

Jay Z is No. 3 with $550 million, and that could change quickly depending on if TIDAL picks up ground. 50 Cent and Birdman follows with $155 million and $150 million, respectively.

Hip-hop will have its first billionaire soon enough. But for now, Diddy is the king with nine…

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2 Chainz x $10,000 Bong [Most Expensivest Shit]

Ridiculous and absolutely irritating!!! I could care less what it’s made out of (hand crafted) or no… $10,000 on something so mundane is terribly ludacris. I’m sooooooo angry about this. Yes, it’s his money and he can deftly spend it how he like. Likewise, my thoughts are mine as well, and I can certainly speak my mind, and if I was within arms reach, I’d go a step further and slap his face repetitively, until he was blue and purple for being so irresponsible. Ok… Rant over 🙂

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=B1aUWAtjNBA

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#GeekgangHigh

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The Game Threatened Young Thug Last Night, Sides with Lil Wayne

You gotta be kiddin me, and I actually watched his show regularly, excited about his change, and really thinking I’d Neeeeeevvvveeerr see him act this way… Not to mention the fact that he has children… What will he do, live a double standard?

Teach them one way at home, then transform in da streets, and threaten to smoke a nigga… Disgusting!!!

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https://m.soundcloud.com/vincent-ceo-irving/ceosonson-young-thug-check-remix

Young Thug Declares War on The Game! [Breaking]

Just look at this… A crying shame ggggrrrrrrhhhhhh. Y’all not even considering your fans while y’all acting like complete idiots. What’s the point of making it as far as you did, to still hold on to the chaotic parts of your being??? Change MUST take place for success!!!

https://m.soundcloud.com/vincent-ceo-irving/ceosonson-young-thug-check-remix

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97.9 The Beat

It’s not a wise decision for Young Thug to start beefs with the OG’s of the rap game. We know he’s got his ongoing situation with Weezy and now it seems he’s going after The Game! He posted a message to Game on Instagram a short while ago accusing him of switching sides, being a male stripper and even taunts him with a gun flash! (WARNING: LOTS OF PROFANITY!)

Not one who shies away from controversy, The Game claps back with his own threats:

This can’t end well. What do you think of this latest rap quarrel? Join the conversation on Facebook!

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The Game vs. Young Thug: Gangstas, strippers, guns, and threats [Vine, video]

Deftly sad to see stuff like this occurring, especially since these are established professional rap artist, with many fans, some adolescents, who they should be doing their best to be upstanding individuals in front of… Totally sickening!!!

https://m.soundcloud.com/vincent-ceo-irving/ceosonson-young-thug-check-remix

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The Game Throws Shots At Young Thug In New Orleans; Young Thug Reponds

When will the beefin stop all the way round the board SMH… Waaaaaayyyyyyy too old for da cray cray dese days kill!!!

https://m.soundcloud.com/vincent-ceo-irving/ceosonson-young-thug-check-remix

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Power 107.5

The Game at "The Documentary" 10th Anniversary Party And Concert Source: Chelsea Lauren / Getty
While performing in Lil Wayne’s hometown of New Orleans last night (May 5), The Game took aim at Young Thug in light of Thugger’s ongoing feud with the Young Money frontman.

Footage captured by Baller Alert shows The Game angrily going in on Young Thug, saying he will “f*ck [him] up.”

“My n*gga Tune ain’t never been Hollywood, he’s just been Hollygrove, n*gga,” The Game yells into the mic. “You know what the f*ck it is, n*gga. Westside in this mother*cker. Anybody f*cking with Tune got a problem with me. I will f*ck Young Thug up on Piru, n*gga. Westside, n*gga.

“Now come to California.” The Game adds. “Do that shit. I dare you. I dare a p*ssy n*gga to walk through California and say ‘F*ck Wayne.’ I’mma do a n*gga like I did 40 Glocc. And if a n*gga wanna problem, that n*gga…

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