I can’t lie and say I didn’t get a lil shook up, as the time ticked closer to my scheduled appointment… But, having my Zude right by my side, encouraging me along the way made things much BETTER. Nonetheless, they couldn’t find what they thought they’d see, and that’s because I’m a child of the most high.
Soooooo, they wanna monitor me EVERY six months… Imma comply, simply because they’re professionals, and in the natural sciences reveal that I’m in need of further treatment. However, the God I know declares by Jesus’ stripes I’m healed.
Got a big day tomorrow… I’m gon sleep peacefully tonight and walk in the building with my head held high, and ultimately go on to work later with NO worries.
Well, at least that’s what lucifer wants us to believe… NOT! As long as I walk upright before God… NO good thing will He EVER withhold from me.
When me and my zude first reunited I was gun hoe, because he was a homebody, and that helped cure my insecurities, that the enemy had built up in me over the years. Well, here lately, he’s been leaving early mornings, and returning late night… In the natural, that’s ALL the tell tell signs of cheating… NOPE, I’ve opted in to a NEW supernatural form of looking at everything surrounding my relationship, and I simply give US to God daily, and allow Him to have His way… with this, I can’t go wrong. But, I must NOT give stupid satan even a minute of fun in my mind, causing me to worry, even if he shows me worldly clues like (Him not calling me, him coming straight in, and immediately hopping in the shower or me calling him, and getting purposely sent to the voicemail)… mmmmhhhhhh!!! The OLD carnal side of me would go ballistic. But, that’s ALL a part of passing test. For the enemy to cause chaos in your life, and give you credible/valid reasons to kirk out, but you look to God instead, and calmly hold your PEACE… Boy does he get angry!!! Ohhhh well, his times of playing mind games with me, and causing me to miss out on God sent Blessings is OVER… I’m convinced, without a shadow of doubt, that God indeed rejoined my husband and I together. Therefore, all I have to do is show Him, that I’m appreciative, and I TRUST Him, to make sure NO infidelity takes place… and with that, we’ll live happily ever after; in HOLY matrimony… Musiq PREACH
Nonetheless, the devil never quits! He sees that his ridiculous plots against my husband and me don’t work. So, he moves to my children, trying to reap havoc between us, and I must say he almost has me won over… It’s been times I’ve literally been in tears; vowing to NOT only refrain from helping them anymore… But, I’ve actually ALMOST been tricked into cutting them OUTTA my life ALL together… satan, have SEVERAL seats, those are MY babies… I would NEVER, in a trillion years turn my back on them, not for NO reason… minus outlandish blasphemy against MY Holy Spirit… No doubt, God’s Word states that’d be the ONLY thing to separate US from Him. Sooooo, likewise I’d have to FOLLOW suit… Hey, “For me and my house, we WILL serve the Lord” and even though we’re not physically under the same roof… My standards for them NEVER has or will change… I command/demand respect for OUR Trinity… Point blank PERIOD… No exceptions nor deviations from the RULE.
What got me through the MANY disheartening altercations, disagreements, and let downs with MY babies, is the fact that I gradually obtained the understanding that I had to take on the mindset of Christ, in placing others before self, and not looking for them to return favors or be nice to me, just because I’d bent over backwards for them, on several occasions… and TRUST me it’s hard to feel as though you’re blatantly being mistreated, but become the underdog in the situation… But, OBEDIENCE is better than sacrifice… God says DO it, and from there, NO further questions are asked, and definitely I won’t mummer or complain. Ohhhh yeah, I ain’t gon lie… I silently pitch a fit, because I feel as though they’re getting off EASY… But, in reality we BOTH win. God sees my humility, and rewards me accordingly, and they ultimately recognize my meekness, and know that I’ve been changed; EXACTLY what God wants… “Be NOT conformed to this world, but be ye transformed by the RENEWING of your mind… Once you do this… The DOGGY Dog world, as you USE to perceive it, takes on a different form, and you’ll be able to deal with people in a NEW light… The things that, at one point in life, would have you hating your love ones or holding grudges, will roll off your back, and you won’t even feed into it… Negativity only leads to MISERY… Choose the HIGH road instead, and love ALL in spite of… and you’ll hear God say “This is My son/daughter, in whom I’m WELL pleased.”
Now remember I said… that form of Godliness (LONGSUFFERING) will ONLY get easier, after transformation takes place in your life, and you’ve been anointed with your HELPER (Holy Spirit)… Therefore, SURRENDER all to God… Withholding NOTHING… G’nite MY loves… It just gets BETTER with time… Love you all 🙂 🙂 🙂
Since beginning a devout relationship with Christ, I’ve constantly been a stickler of speaking things into existence; opposed to just wishing for my desires to stumble upon me. Well, in 1994 I got my tubes tied, clipped and burned, and in the natural, that suggests that I’ll NEVER conceive again, and it’s claimed to be true thus far. However, the absence of my baby girl/boy does nothing in deterring my Faith, when I go back in memory, and recollect ALL the miraculous deeds He’s already performed in my life. One incident that comes to the forefront of my mind occurred in 2003, when my only son surprised me for my birthday, with tickets to MEGAFEST, which was hosted and headed by renowned Bishop TD Jakes, in Atlanta, Georgia. I was ecstatic, and determined to get from Tennessee, where we were residing at the time, to Georgia Dome, in time for the event. Needless to say, in the natural, it APPEARED that all the odds were against me. I had no reliable transportation, and no lodging upon arrival, to accommodate my three day birthday gift. But, whatever the cost, I knew I had to get there, and NOTHING would stop me!!! Nonetheless, in knowing the condition of my car, my son refused to allow me to chance the long drive alone. So, he hired my niece to accompany me, for emergency reasons. After throwing some things in my overnight bag, and rushing my baby girls to the sitter, off we went. Long story short, just as fleshly predicted, the car broke down on us, on the side of the road… Although we were closer to home, turning around WAS NOT an option. As I was taught by a previous Pastor, when new to the walk, I always carried anointing oil with me. My niece of course LAUGHED at me, as I grabbed the oil, jumped out the car, and went around and around that car, anointing it, and pleading the BLOOD of Jesus over it, and before getting back in the car, I demanded satan and ALL his imps to flee from me… And what do you know, I turned the key, the car started, and we proceeded on down the road, with NO MORE issues. Let me not forget to tell you, God not only worked out the transportation situation, but He also had my other niece put us up for our entire stay… Talking bout an ON TIME God… I never doubted His abilities to see us through, and I MUST admit, the function was MARVELOUS… I even received a BIRTHDAY Prayer shawl from Prophetess Juanita Bynum… That’s why I love my Daddy… He will NEVER leave us nor forsake us… No disappointments whatsoever 🙂
But, back to why this post came to be. Remember I mentioned the whole tubal ligation in 1994? Well, yesterday two of my daughters were visiting with me, and we were going through my calendar, pointing out important family dates… Months ago, in FAITH I wrote PREGNANT, above the month of July, signifying that I’m believing God to give me another baby in THIS month. Because what I wrote wasn’t something we were directly focusing on, I verbally stated the birthdays in THIS month and attempted to turn the page… SMH, my middle daughter caught a glimpse of it, and yelled out “Who’s PREGNANT???” I quickly said me. But, I purposely didn’t elaborate on the fact that it was written in an act of FAITH, in fear of the downplay I may have received. Well, their reaction was even worse… They LAUGHED as hard as they could, because they’re aware of the doctor’s ruling, that once a female undergoes the surgery I did, PREGNANCY is NO LONGER possible.
To rap it up… Let me say this, “Faith is the substance of things HOPED for and the evidence of things NOT seen… No, if I relied on what the doctors say, in the natural, I’ll NEVER be PREGNANT… But, that’s exactly why THEY MUST KNOW… “Without Faith, it’s impossible to please God!”
Their LAUGHTER did nothing to make me disbelieve what God can do… In fact, what it did do is make me that much more pressured into living upright before God, so that He can show up and SHOW OUT in my life, and they’ll too be converted believers. Really, if they were old enough to recall the time God did something AWESOME for us, again involving a transportation predicament, they’d already be won over. But, I guess age obscured their remembrance of the time we ran out of gas, and I taught them how to Pray, Praise and Worship God, right in my backseat, and we made it another 50 – to 75 miles on total E… Tell me My God don’t perform MIRACLES… It’s all in your level of FAITH… And for me, I have FAITH huger than the size of a mustard seed… So, I’m believing, decreeing and declaring that EVERYTHING I’m trusting God for in 2014 IS on its way…
God inhabits the PRAISES of His people… When Praises go up – Blessings undoubtedly come down. Get into the practice of being RADICAL for Christ… No matter if you feel like a fool or even if people around you LAUGH. Don’t let it move you!!! Instead, hold fast to your belief and expectations, and trust me it WILL be rewarding. God is a God that CAN’T and WON’T lie, if He sees you going all out, to get His attention and Favor… He’s destined to perform on your behalf, not only to, but especially to put your naysayers to shame.
In closing, even if my PREGNANCY don’t take place in July 2014… know that I won’t give up Hope, and that’s encouragement to each of you. Whatever you’re believing God for, write the vision, and make it plain… Be specific in your asking, and He’ll be sure to give you the desires of your heart, and tell ALL those who LAUGH… “IT IS WRITTEN” just as Jesus stated to satan, during His time of temptation. (((TOODLES)))
PS, after my God works His mojo… we’ll see who LAUGHS last 🙂 🙂 🙂
This song right here thrusts me into the very PRESENCE of God, where I can receive from Him.
Before, I use to only hear members at church proclaiming how they spent time with God, and was Blessed with revelation knowledge about different things they were experiencing, and I was skeptical for MANY years, only because I hadn’t had the pleasure of making acquaintance with Him in the same realm.
But, as of yesterday I am no longer a skeptic… the Spirit of God was ALL over me, anointing me with MORE wisdom & understanding. I mean it was a Glorious experience that I wouldn’t trade for the world.
I was ushered before His THRONE, only for Him to continually make me aware of how much He loves me, in spite of my procrastination. My eyes kept filling with tears, but I was sitting at my desk, so I couldn’t Worship in the manner I wanted to. Had I been in my secret place, I’d stretched out prostrate before Him, and thanked Him for ALL the MANY blessings that He’s bestowed upon me and my babies.
On too MANY occasions, He’s made ways outta NO way for us, and just the mere thoughts of it had me on cloud nine. TRUST me, it’s nuttin like spending time with your heavenly father, NOT to beg for things. But, rather to express gratitude for what He’s already done.
God is AWESOME in how HE shows forth bouts of Mercy and Grace in our lives, even when we barely appreciate His Goodness… Sad, to say! But, most of the time, God becomes OUR spare tire, so to say. We ONLY look to Him in times of desperation… Soooooo UNFAIR!!! We definitely MUST do BETTER… He loves US, and will NEVER turn His back on us. However, He deserves reciprocation… make it your priority to thank Him daily, and ask for guidance on how you can assist… once you do this, it opens up the doors for you to be the vessel He’ll use to make His impact on this chaotic world. Salvation is essential, and so MANY of us are strays… that crushes God. It’s Neeeeeevvvveeerr been in His plan for OUR lives, to have us living any other way then TOTALLY at PEACE and successful. Allow Him in, and watch the difference evolve.
I can’t stress much MORE, the importance of giving yourself wholeheartedly away to God, for Him to use you and for your service you’ll surely receive unthinkable benefits… love you ALL. I’m excited about OUR new found transformation, and I speak in FAITH that you’ll take heed to my writings, and walk with me, as I follow Him.
If you’re single and you’re a follower of Jesus Christ, then I can assure you, God is extremely interested in your choice of a marriage partner. He wants to reveal the person He has chosen for you, but it’s important to go slowly and carefully into that decision. Next to committing your life to Jesus Christ, it’s the most important decision you’ll ever make.
God’s first desire for everyone, married or single, is a total commitment to Jesus Christ. As followers of Christ, we must be willing to accept God’s will, even if it’s contrary to ours (Matthew 16:24). However, we need to realize an important truth about God’s will: His will is good because He is good (Psalm 34:8). Some people are afraid of God’s will. They fear that once they submit to God’s plans, He will force them to do something miserable. That’s a warped concept of God…
This is a very difficult subject. For one thing it is controversial. For another, there can be a huge amount of emotion and pain bound up in it. There are few things more painful and more damaging than the break-up of a marriage. There is the pain of rejection; the hurt of perhaps having been treated badly; and maybe guilt and regrets. That pain might well be made worse by then being treated as a second-class citizen by other Christians. And yet, Christians want to uphold the sanctity of marriage and not be too comfortable with divorce. It is a tight-rope.
In the Sermon on the Mount, Matthew records only 2 verses of Jesus’ words on this topic but there is fuller teaching in chapter 19. READ Matt 19:3-12
If you look at your footnotes, you will see that Jesus quoted Deuteronomy 24:1 and, in fact, it looks as if…
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