Month: January 2015

Because I STOOD… God’s up to something GOOD

It’s always surprised me that I have more war wounds, arrests, and hard times than my only brother and all of the males in my extended family… I’ve Neeeeeevvvveeerr come to grips with why I was so rambunctious, angry and mean… Something in my childhood obviously caused the hideous behavior, and it’s purely the Grace of God that kept my standing and living through it all SMH!

Beat for seven hours, in the interim, loss conscious, I STOOD

Jumped by eight humongous women, while an acquaintance of their stood watch with a pump shotgun I STOOD

Car flipped three times on highway, unexplainably I STOOD

Head and face split wide open, with 40 oz. beer bottle, skull exposed I STOOD

Mother’s Day – should’ve been haaaappppyyyy… Assaulted, with unknown object, entire face bloodied, four front (permanent) teeth gone I STOOD

And the list goes on and on, of the terrible things I endured before knowing Christ as I do now… “Any man be in Christ is a NEW creature, old things are past away, behold all things are made Nnnnnneeeeeeewwwwwww” and I had to emphasize (new) to show just how excited I am about my future.

The devil really tried to take my life on many occasions… But God!!! Until your purpose for God is fulfilled on earth, Nooooooo worries, the enemy can’t take you out, and I’m just getting started… So, look out satan. I mean, he succeeded in roughing me up and giving me a few lifelong scars, but I’m still standing, and those scars are simply reminders of the chaotic days he had me running ramped, with Nooooooo regard for human life SMH.

Those days are gone, God snatched me up, and told me to run on; this race set before, and that’s the best thing that ever could’ve happen for me… Today, I’m drug and alcohol free. I don’t do clubs or house parties, I work daily and come home. NO MORE fighting and craziness… I live my life for Christ and thus shall reap all the benefits… And I patiently wait, knowing He’s up to something GOOD 🙂 🙂 🙂

Follow me as I allow Christ to LEAD!!!

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R.I.P. Paulette “Passion” Williams-Murphy

Normally, this would be a time of sadness, mourning, grieving, and a lot of tears being shed. On the contrary, I’ll tell you firsthand… Let any tears that flow be ones of JOY, for this is a glorious time for anyone who experiences this type of death (DYING TO SELF). Where you take on the John 3:3-7 type of death and burial, which totally denounces the flesh and all its wicked desires all together.

Believe me, I’m haaaappppyyyy as a Lark, for I know it’s all uphill from here… Nooooooo good thing will God withhold from me now, because I took the initiative to put Him first and at the forefront of my life, and teach me how to Walk in newness, and I’m excited to proclaim the effects of the Holy Spirit living within and controlling my everyday activities is purely evident.

Thursday, I went to the nail salon, for beautification purposes, and my eldest daughter later joined me, and it was amazing to her how good I was doing upon her arrival and the farewell before leaving… Her jaws dropped, and she just had to say something, which made me even happier about my transformation… Her words were  “wow, I can’t believe what I just saw, maaaaannnnnnn you’re doing good lately, you’ve really changed”!!! That’s how it should be, I don’t have to run around hollering (I’m a Christian)… No indeed, it should be apparent, when people watch you, that God is working out your Salvation, and removing EVERYTHING that could ever inadvertently hinder your Walk.

See, she was use to me coming home with stories about me cursing an artist out, boutta fight somebody, or totally getting banned from the establishment… ” NO MORE “ all those negative attributes, characteristics, and ill personalities are finished… Just like Jesus himself declared as He took His last breath!!!

Ain’t Nooooooo stopping me now. Long lines in grocery stores can’t get me upset, hideous traffic no longer upsets me, people backbiting and gossiping about me can’t get me to respond… That old person, with all those chaotic ways is DDDDEEEEAAAADDDD!!!

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The llliiiitttttttllllleeeee engine that COULD!!!

I think I can, I think I can, I think I can… I KNOW I CAN 🙂 🙂 🙂

If God be for me, He’s more than all the hurt, pain, malice, strife and agony that could ever come against me.

Therefore, of course I can… I’ve made it nearly through my entire shift and I’ll be here every day of the week to come. I decree and declare that I’m strong in Christ who died on the cross for the remission of my sins… How do I look allowing anything or anybody to cause me this much grief???

I’m not, and won’t think ordinary… With God only extraordinary things of excellence can become of me and to me… I’m determined to make it, and if it means I’ll have to remove the rearview mirror from my vehicle then so be it… Because there’s Nooooooo lookin BBBBAAAAACCCCCKKKKK.

This whole idiocy has only thrusts me closer to God and caused Him to draw me nearer… “Touch not my anointed, and do my prophets Nooooooo harm”!

Daddy, I love You for even bringing us through messes we place ourselves in… Yes, I brought this all on myself… But, God!!! That’s when His mercies are new and everlasting in my life… Thank You Jesus for being a friend to me, who sticks closer than a brother… My tears have been minimal to none… That’s God or nah???

Follow me as I allow Christ to LEAD!!!

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Avoid LONELINESS and settle for utter DISRESPECT

Not!!! I just gotta keep myself busy… Maaaaannnnnnn, I thought surely by today at least I’d be feeling a llliiiitttttttllllleeeee bit stronger geeeesssssshhhhh :-(:-(:-(:-(:-(

Then, I thought about firing back up my Tagged and Kik accounts, perhaps that’ll keep me occupied. But, that’s simply a temporary cure, in a place where I need a permanent healing… Daddy, I need You!!! This is one of them times where I could use a great big fatherly hug, and lay my head on His shoulder and cry for a few ticks (((((((TEARS)))))))

Nonetheless, before I’ll save myself from the broken feelings and bring him back, only for me to risk another broken heart in two to three weeks… Nooooooo, I won’t even put myself through the agony. I know all too well that he’ll Neeeeeevvvveeerr change! So, let me stop allowing him to take me down on a monthly basis… With no remorse each time. Of course, he does his whimpering, just to get his foot back in the door. But, obviously it’s not sincere or it wouldn’t be a repetitive norm for us… I’m fed up to the max!!!

Therefore, self you had better snap outta this craziness, of even considering to let him come back into your life, to destroy you over and over again! Where’s your self worth? That inkling that says to you… “Girl, you’re beautiful, and any real man, in his right mind, would love to have you, and treat you like the Queen God intended”

As long as I keep settling, why should he change, if nothing forces him to??? There’s never no repercussions for this unfair treatment, he’s just out of the house for a couple days, then brought right back, to get all the rewards a good husband deserves, and I’m sure he laughs deep within; like “look at this retard, I can do anything to her, and she’ll keep taking me back” and that helps him think I have low self esteem, and accept his mess, because I believe I can’t do any better than him… Lies you tell!!! And I’ll show you this time around… Trust me, I’ll be strong before you know it, and I will move on for sure :-):-):-)

No lookin BBBBAAAAACCCCCKKKKK, I’m gone Mr Maaaaannnnnnn… You lost out, and that’s not a threat, but a promise!!! One man’s trash will be another man’s treasure… Don’t believe me… Just WATCH :-):-):-)

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Question:

When God said forgive seventy times seven… Was adultery included?

Does forgiveness mean allow him to come home?

Note: keep in mind this ain’t something later found out about, this gentleman really pulled an all nighter with the other female!!!

Follow me as I allow Christ to LEAD!!!

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Da UGLY Ducklin feels BEAUTIFUL

Words couldn’t convey the awesomeness I feel within… I mean my walk is different, my head is up opposed to always lookin down and somber… If I wasn’t sure I was filled with the Holy Spirit before… I’m beyond convinced now!!!

Nothing or nobody could ever grant me such overwhelming peace, joy, happiness, and assurance… It’s definitely God, without a shadow of doubt, all over me… And I can’t stop smiling. I bet it’s all the encouragement I received just today, from all of you right here on WordPress… Thank you guys sooooooo much :-):-):-)

Of course, what’s noticeable now has been there all along, but I was too bogged down to allow it all to fester… But God!!! He won’t let you wallow in no mess for too long, it makes Him look bad. Sooooooo, he picked me up and put a new spark in my step, now I can finish this race set before me, knowing imma friend of God and He’s got my back… Nooooooo question!!!

Follow me as I allow Christ to LEAD!!!

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Just what do you do when you have Nooooooo clue… SMH

Complaining coupled with depression… Is not pleasing to God at all!!! But, I’m a mess right now 😦

I’m trapped in this thick black fog, and see Nooooooo waaaaaayyyyyyy out, but I know it’s minutely a trick of the enemy, and he WON’T win! I will bounce BBBBAAAAACCCCCKKKKK, and snap out of this disgusting place.

I’m more than a conqueror, I’m Blessed and highly favored 🙂 I’m a child of God… An heir of God and a joint heir with Christ Jesus.

Nooooooo good thing will God ever withhold from me. I shall muster the strength to work BOTH jobs that God has given me. My bills are covered in the blood, and therefore PAID in full. My children and grand children have all they need, and are walking upright before God. My social life is sufficient, and anything outta place shall diminish quickly… God won’t allow nothing to stagnate me and cause me dismay.

Lucifer, you’re ddddeeeeaaaadddd, I took you out some two weeks ago. Sooooooo, what attempts you’re making to place me in a long term stupor is downtrodden… I won’t be moved… I’m fine, and you’re simply a figment of my imagination.

Haaaappppyyyy again :-):-):-):-):-):-)

Follow me as I allow Christ to LEAD!!!

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