What Is Suicide Ideation And How To Help Someone Who Is Contemplating Ending Their Life

Suicide is a topic no one discusses in casual conversation. Some may argue that suicide is just part of life and we must accept people who kill …

What Is Suicide Ideation And How To Help Someone Who Is Contemplating Ending Their Life

Most certainly another good read… I give this a 8/10… Well put together, and I most deftly appreciate all the links, the only bad thing is, I know from experience; 14 different attempts to be exact… That not only will the suffering individual not care to take the time to look for any help through clicking links in blogs… They will purposely avoid being able to call 911 for help as well. But, what’s messed up, is the mere fact that family and friends will miss helping their so called “love ones“… Due to embarrassment smh πŸ€¦πŸ½β€β™€οΈ. Each time that I’ve gone through this, I’ve been surrounded by plenty of family who was so rapped up into the fun time that was going on wherever we were, to the point where I was seconds from being saved, only because someone’s bladder was about to explode and they needed the bathroom I had escaped into. At the beginning of this year, I moved nearly 4k miles away from all my family, and nobody knows the address… If it’s meant to happen this year I’ll know, because it’ll happen without fail 😩… Although I use to be so mad after I would wake up in the hospital, because I felt like my family just wanted me to continue to suffer and they were selfish asf. But, when good things were happening for me, I was undoubtedly thankful for them being able to save my life after all. #151daysleft #JesusTakeTheWheel

#shootahdcpassion #CertifiedSTEPPAH #putemonnashirt4Passion #pluckemoff4passion #pressemout4passion

Chasing Happiness

Today I am thinking about happiness and some thoughts come to mind. Over the years I have known a great many souls chasing after happiness, trying so…

Chasing Happiness

Wow 😱 😳 πŸ™„ 😩… Just woooowwwww, to think I’ve had it wrong all along; if I judge my unhappiness by this author’s perspective #thingsthatmakeyougohmm… Unbelievable, I mean I’m absolutely flabbergasted, because all of my life I’ve actually always only tried to range my level of happiness, based on whether or not I had a mate, things were going well with myself and my family or whether my career was intact and up to par… Thus, in all actuality none of those things are important frfr. Smh πŸ€¦πŸ½β€β™€οΈ… I’m boutta really go workout this time I promise lol πŸ˜‚… I keep trying to put my phone down and head to the equipment, but I stumble upon another very good post and become captivated πŸ˜€… But, in order to take back control, I have to listen to the lil voice inside, that’s telling me “Uhhhhhhhh these posts will be here after your session“… Now chop chop… Get to it πŸ’–πŸ€©πŸ₯°

#shootahdcpassion #CertifiedSTEPPAH #putemonnashirt4Passion #pluckemoff4passion #pressemout4passion

Can’t sleep 😩

So frustrated smh πŸ€¦πŸ½β€β™€οΈ … Then to add insult to injury… There’s nuttin to watch on TV. Imma basket case, this has gotta stop dammit 😀

This insomnia is starting to affect the way I look, which has a detrimental impact on my ideation… Gotta pull myself together, but I’m clueless about the anecdote or remedy needed #notincontrol #outtacontrol #outofcontrol #desperate #please

#shootahdcpassion #CertifiedSTEPPAH #putemonnashirt4Passion #pluckemoff4passion #pressemout4passion

152 Days… Jesus take the wheel πŸ˜©

Today I’m so down in the dumps. I honestly thought I was over actual suicide attempts smh πŸ€¦πŸ½β€β™€οΈ. Yes, I constantly suffer with ideation, but things feel different lately. Family is so busy, with their own affairs, which I respect; don’t get me wrong. However this right here –>> Family member desperately crying out for help Should have never happen.

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Watch “KILL SUICIDE NOT YOURSELF… SEEK HELP… PLEASE TALK TO SOMEONE… GOD GOT US… YOU ARE NOT ALONE” on YouTube

KILL SUICIDE NOT YOURSELF

Hey P-Duds,

Sooooo, I’m back again with another video πŸ“Ή πŸ“ΈπŸ“·πŸ“½οΈπŸŽžοΈ where I’ve fused together a couple of my beginning videos, from nearly 4 years ago, where I was introducing to you guys the PASSIONS that God laid on my heart, whilst showing me how He intends to use everything I’ve ever experienced in life, that I thought to be overly horrific, for His good. Now, I’m no professional at this editing thing smh, so you’ll see that the transitions are not as good as Warner Brothers and Paramount lol πŸ˜‚ πŸ˜‚ πŸ˜‚πŸ˜΅πŸ˜΅πŸ˜΅ 😲 😲 😲 but don’t judge me πŸ‘ŠπŸΏπŸ‘ŠπŸΏπŸ‘ŠπŸΏ#PERIODTT

In the videos, I’m discussing the app that I wanna some day implement, where one would actually be able to click into a live session with a Prayer Warrior, who’ll deter them from the final mistake of suicide and get their mind back on the right track, and help them realize that life actually IS worth living after all, because that’s exactly how I always feel days, weeks or months later, after an attempt, and I’m happily amongst family and enjoying every single ounce of everything different, that each one of them has to bring to my life, from the crazy dances that all my grandchildren do, to the funny clapbacks that show forth in hellah large family group texts, right on down to my oldest daughter, who everybody knows to be the most hilarious of us all #nocap, and her capabilities to mimic anybody on the face of this earth, and keep the entire room falling outta their chairs cracking their sides… Sometimes literally ⚰️⚰️⚰️⚱️⚱️⚱️nah, I’m just kidding, but Sus most certainly got dis comedian thing down pact.

But, more importantly, is the text I received about the 2 mothers, who both threw their babies from high places and then jumped themselves… That thing ran all through me and it just shows that suicide awareness and prevention is definitely necessary, and I gotta stop procrastinating, and get into gear, doing whatever I can to build Alone NO MORE, so that we’re readily available for all that’s in need.

Angry @ Myself

​I’m almost scared to write this. But, I can’t shake it til it’s totally outta MY system.

Nonetheless, I’m trynna figure out JUST what type of person I am that makes EVERY aspect of my life sooooo unbearable SMH.

I can’t keep friends, because I ALWAYS seem to be standoffish; afraid of being HURT. So, I purposely fail to give it my ALL grrrrrrrhhhhhhh.

Honestly, I believe I do the same thing when it comes to potential significant others as well, and if this same obnoxious pattern continues I’ll unnecessarily go to MY grave a disheartened loner (((TEARS))).

At a certain point in my life I came to grips with the fact that the only people I’m comfortable allowing close to me is my children and grandchildren, and I was OK with that until they all got grown and NOW have children, careers, mates and friends of their own, meaning time spent with me is little to none DAMMIT!!!

What do I DO now??? My career is secure and for the most part of 5-6 days in each week I’m steady working hard and the predicament don’t have room to bother me. But, the evening comes, just as it always will, and I find myself in a downtrodden stupor… Jesus please take the wheel!!!

I never knew what it was like to be jealous over somebody else stealing your friend from you and you inadvertently hating that person until my last babygurl became her own woman and I could NO longer force her to be my confidant. The very thing I long for… Attention, affection, CARE, concern, sympathy, empathy and Love.

My family has long life spans and I give myself at least another 48 years here, and I’m going to have to figure out ways to be happy with the fact that my babies are now happy with others geeeesssshhhhh!!!

In need of HELP

Hello,

My name is Paulette Williams and I work daily for USPS and have my own means of transportation. However, as of May 31, 2016 my husband and I will need a place to stay. I can’t afford much, but I’m willing to pay our way. We will take a basement, single room, RV, or even a shed.