Category: Surrender

Holding on to Heaven while YOUR husband goes THROUGH hell!

I purposely added emphasis to the word THROUGH to show that I indeed have FAITH that he’ll eventually come out of this craziness that he’s bogged down with, and OUR marriage shall be harmonious.

I will say this though, it’s NOT as bad as before. There were years of blatant in-your-face disrespect occurring, with different women and infidelity, and I was Soooooo blindly in love that I excepted ANY and everything he put me THROUGH. After some time, I did grow wiser and I ultimately ended the relationship altogether. But, it is obvious that God wants US together. I mean WE spent ten years away from each other, and both of us married other people. Nonetheless, here WE are… BACK IN STRIDE AGAIN 🙂 🙂 🙂

No doubt, I PRAY and long for God to send me a man who has already converted… I know things WILL be Soooooo much BETTER… we can PRAY and fellowship TOGETHER, I won’t have to worry about HIM cheating, because the conviction within will tear him ALL to pieces. Reading the Bible as one would be POWERFUL, because God delights in marriage. Therefore, the revelation knowledge from on high would be mind boggling… But, I’d ENJOY every second of it 🙂 🙂 🙂

In fact, God’s word says “How can two walk TOGETHER unless they agree” and I always think about that passage of scripture whenever problems arise with US, and I honestly consider breaking it off with HIM at times… But, sum always pulls me BACK. But, for ANY grasping advice from this post… I’d rather you wait on marriage until you’re both genuinely walking upright before God, so that He can lead, guide and direct the both of you on HOW to treat one another.

It’s MORE to marriage then mere intimacy… God WILL show you how to enjoy each other on dates, vacations or JUST sitting around the house play fighting, cuddling while watching a movie, board games, and most importantly dating MUST Neeeeeevvvveeerr cease… it don’t matter that you’ve been together for umpteen years… spending quality alone time TOGETHER outside the bedroom is essential to healthy marriages.

Then, we have the issue of HIM indulging in elicit drugs… my therapist and one of my girlfriends thinks that’s a numero uno deal breaker… I beg to differ, as crazy as it may seem… actually he’s at his best when he’s euphoric… I become his queen literally. I get my food brought to me at bedside, the entire house gets thoroughly cleaned, and his personality is way calmer and KEEPS us at PEACE. And he makes a good point, doctors, lawyers, police and even congressmen smoke… I have NO clue of the validity in that statement, but for ALL it’s worth, him being HIGH don’t affect me and he’s NOT sabotaging things in and around OUR house… so, I don’t trip too bad 🙂 🙂 🙂

Nevertheless, once Jesus gets a grip on Him, ALL that’s gone FALL off. I didn’t do drugs, but I was a terrible alcoholic before, I’m talking violent and chaotic… unbearable to even be around, and God TOTALLY delivered me… Soooooo, I’m convinced my husband is soon to come THROUGH this mess the enemy is using to deter him from what’s Godly right for HIM. I just continue to let my light shine before HIM and eventually he’ll notice my good works and glorify OUR father IN heaven… God got US, HE promised NEVER to put MORE on US than WE can bear… And I reiterate, as long as ALL is well with me and my babies, then I CAN stick in here WITH him until his day of salvation.

Jesus saves!!!

by shootahdcpassion

U say “IMPOSSIBLE”… God says it’s on its way!!!

It’s NOT about what you know… But, rather WHO you know, and I repetitively decree and declare that Imma child of God, an heir of God and a joint heir with Christ Jesus 🙂 🙂 🙂 Noooooooooo good thing shall EVER be withheld from me.

Daily my DADDY is teaching me how to walk in this newness, I mean everything about you MUST convert WHEN you give YOUR life to Christ wholeheartedly. God WILL show you how NOT to settle for functioning in dysfunction… before, I was a total wreck, worrying about this, and trynna fix that… “NO MORE” God says to me, instead I am to worry about nothing and PRAY about everything 🙂 🙂 🙂

God is showing me that His Favor is ALL over me, and Blessings are IN deed tracking me down. ALL God needs from me besides my sanctification and righteousness, is for me to be transparent with HIM about my desires… HE says “write the vision and MAKE it plain!” Because I’m destined for wealth, healthy living and success… God gives me the opportunity to let HIM know exactly how I WANT my mansion to look… even down to the furniture, curtains, nick nacks and artwork.

Fam, if you’ve given YOUR life to Christ and you’re confident that you’re at least trying YOUR hardest to walk upright before HIM, then TRUST and believe that you’re fearfully and wonderfully made, and NO good thing shall EVER be withheld from you either… what God does for one of His, He’ll DO for ALL. Day by day God is shedding low self esteem, negative thinking, problems, hate, envy, strife and jealousy from me… It’s NOT of HIM… therefore, it has NO place in me 🙂 🙂 🙂

My DADDY determines I shall live an abundant, prosperous and FAITH filled LIFE, and Noooooooooo weapon formed against me shall prosper. Kinda cliche right??? “NO MORE” living average or in poverty… feeling like JUST making it is ok… mediocrity isn’t in my DNA… My DADDY owns the cattle on a thousand hills… and what father don’t WANT the best for his child???

Fam, monitor the way you think… tell YOUR children and yourself constantly ALL good things are ahead… KEEP YOUR mind stayed on God, and He’ll KEEP you in perfect PEACE… Neeeeeevvvveeerr forget, an idle mind is the devil’s playground… and he’s NOT to get one second to be lackadaisical in OUR quarters point blank period!!! Adhere to the words I speak, and know that what Blessings I receive is stored up for you as well… JUST give YOUR life to Christ and He’ll MAKE it alright.

Jesus saves!!!

by shootahdcpassion

With is GOOD… But, in is BETTER… It’s time!!!

Practical relationships pertain to those whom we’re WITH at any giving point (siblings, co workers, physician, mate, child, friend or even strangers on public transportation or individuals you pass while shopping). However, phantom on what it’s like, to have the goodness of the Holy Spirit living within you. Boy oh boy, what a relief it is 🙂 🙂 🙂

Change is adamant and evident… the places you use to go start to disgust you, when you ride by the same club you once frequented, and see the beautiful ladies with their revealing attire on, you may have the audacity to turn up your nose at them, and shake your head in utter disbelief, that any female would EVER dare to carry herself in that manner… shame on her!!! Giiiiirrrrrrrlllllll, how soon Weeeeeeeee forget. If it weren’t for Grace, you’d be in line with, before or after her… MORE than likely, looking much skankier… Soooooo, PRAY for your sister “NEVER look down on a man/woman, unless you’re picking them up… don’t get it twisted. God loves ALL alike 🙂 🙂 🙂

But, let me NOT act like those wonderful PRAYER instincts kick in normally… Lawd Noooooooooo, humans are naturally judgmental, unless you’ve been converted and filled with the marvelous Holy Spirit I interjected earlier… He brings about the difference in US… Him flowing through US unctions US to change OUR actions, reactions, responses and remarks.

Being changed wholeheartedly causes you to care more about others and their wellbeing. So, when you cross paths with anyone who suffers from or struggles with what you were delivered from, your heart will go out to them, in ways that wants them to have the good life you NOW experience.

Remember the individuals WE live WITH, trust me we’ll NEED the Holy Spirit daily, in dealing with them, JUST to help us cope. Take for instance siblings… the mass majority of us either gossip together or about one another… That’s Ohhhhh Soooooo wrong, get that out you quick… it’s NOT godly nor healthy. So, cut it off at the root.

Co workers, jealousy may be an issue here… “for real, Bonquisha got a promotion, hmmmm she MUST be sleeping with somebody”… don’t do that, slander is horrible and can mess up people’s reputation. Mind your business, PRAY and ask God for your increase, and Thhhaaannnkkk God for blessing Bonquisha, and you’ll be NEXT.

Children, uh Ohhhhh… them lil rascals drive you to drink… too bad, you gotta love em and encourage them… be careful not to curse at em, take misplaced anger out on them, and Neeeeeevvvveeerr downgrade them… rather build them up, tell em they’re attractive, smart and destined for success… and I reiterate, this won’t be easy tasks, if attempted alone… NO way, you deftly NEED the Holy Spirit living within you, in order for you to refrain from fleshy ways.

Common people in the streets… they gon test you… That’s life, but HOW you respond makes ALL the difference. You can choose to fly off the handle, and risk possibly going to jail unnecessarily or you can allow the Holy Spirit to have His way in the matter, and KEEP the PEACE. Of course, we weren’t raised to be punks, and that’s fine and understandable. But, avoiding chaos doesn’t suggest that you’re less than; actually it proves YOUR growth and level of maturity.

Fam, I can’t emphasize enough, the fact that I know this sudden transformation and humble approach to life’s tests WILL be hard… But, know that it’s proven to be rewarding for me… NOW follow me as I allow the Holy Spirit to lead.

Jesus saves!!!

by shootahdcpassion

It’s a DOGGY Dog World… gggggrrrrrrhhhhh!!!

Well, at least that’s what lucifer wants us to believe… NOT! As long as I walk upright before God… NO good thing will He EVER withhold from me.

When me and my zude first reunited I was gun hoe, because he was a homebody, and that helped cure my insecurities, that the enemy had built up in me over the years. Well, here lately, he’s been leaving early mornings, and returning late night… In the natural, that’s ALL the tell tell signs of cheating… NOPE, I’ve opted in to a NEW supernatural form of looking at everything surrounding my relationship, and I simply give US to God daily, and allow Him to have His way… with this, I can’t go wrong. But, I must NOT give stupid satan even a minute of fun in my mind, causing me to worry, even if he shows me worldly clues like (Him not calling me, him coming straight in, and immediately hopping in the shower or me calling him, and getting purposely sent to the voicemail)… mmmmhhhhhh!!! The OLD carnal side of me would go ballistic. But, that’s ALL a part of passing test. For the enemy to cause chaos in your life, and give you credible/valid reasons to kirk out, but you look to God instead, and calmly hold your PEACE… Boy does he get angry!!! Ohhhh well, his times of playing mind games with me, and causing me to miss out on God sent Blessings is OVER… I’m convinced, without a shadow of doubt, that God indeed rejoined my husband and I together. Therefore, all I have to do is show Him, that I’m appreciative, and I TRUST Him, to make sure NO infidelity takes place… and with that, we’ll live happily ever after; in HOLY matrimony… Musiq PREACH

Nonetheless, the devil never quits! He sees that his ridiculous plots against my husband and me don’t work. So, he moves to my children, trying to reap havoc between us, and I must say he almost has me won over… It’s been times I’ve literally been in tears; vowing to NOT only refrain from helping them anymore… But, I’ve actually ALMOST been tricked into cutting them OUTTA my life ALL together… satan, have SEVERAL seats, those are MY babies… I would NEVER, in a trillion years turn my back on them, not for NO reason… minus outlandish blasphemy against MY Holy Spirit… No doubt, God’s Word states that’d be the ONLY thing to separate US from Him. Sooooo, likewise I’d have to FOLLOW suit… Hey, “For me and my house, we WILL serve the Lord” and even though we’re not physically under the same roof… My standards for them NEVER has or will change… I command/demand respect for OUR Trinity… Point blank PERIOD… No exceptions nor deviations from the RULE.

What got me through the MANY disheartening altercations, disagreements, and let downs with MY babies, is the fact that I gradually obtained the understanding that I had to take on the mindset of Christ, in placing others before self, and not looking for them to return favors or be nice to me, just because I’d bent over backwards for them, on several occasions… and TRUST me it’s hard to feel as though you’re blatantly being mistreated, but become the underdog in the situation… But, OBEDIENCE is better than sacrifice… God says DO it, and from there, NO further questions are asked, and definitely I won’t mummer or complain. Ohhhh yeah, I ain’t gon lie… I silently pitch a fit, because I feel as though they’re getting off EASY… But, in reality we BOTH win. God sees my humility, and rewards me accordingly, and they ultimately recognize my meekness, and know that I’ve been changed; EXACTLY what God wants… “Be NOT conformed to this world, but be ye transformed by the RENEWING of your mind… Once you do this… The DOGGY Dog world, as you USE to perceive it, takes on a different form, and you’ll be able to deal with people in a NEW light… The things that, at one point in life, would have you hating your love ones or holding grudges, will roll off your back, and you won’t even feed into it… Negativity only leads to MISERY… Choose the HIGH road instead, and love ALL in spite of… and you’ll hear God say “This is My son/daughter, in whom I’m WELL pleased.”

Now remember I said… that form of Godliness (LONGSUFFERING) will ONLY get easier, after transformation takes place in your life, and you’ve been anointed with your HELPER (Holy Spirit)… Therefore, SURRENDER all to God… Withholding NOTHING… G’nite MY loves… It just gets BETTER with time… Love you all 🙂 🙂 🙂

by shootahdcpassion