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Dauglyducklin.org presents Naked & UNAFRAID (4/22/19 – 2)

Oh how I wish… If only… Well, maybe if I… Should I??? πŸ‘€ πŸ‘€ πŸ‘€ 😰 😰 😰 βŒ›β³β°β±οΈβ²οΈπŸ•°οΈπŸ•› Discernment: Perception in the absence of judgment, with a view to obtaining Spiritual Guidance and Understanding. I’ve said YES, I’ve laid Prostrate, I’m CRYING OUT, but yet, I’m still so so so so so so so so confused πŸ˜•. I’d give my life, to be rid of mental illnesses, irony huh 😲 😲 😲??? My mind is haphazardly, too cloudy, for me to be able to get right straight to the core of God’s Plan and Will for my life, and I just Graciously follow suit, and begin to move therein smh. There’s no doubt #PERIODTT, that I want this, and running ramped anymore, is a for sure for sure thing of the past. But, I’m clueless about what my next move should be, as if I’m a pawn, on a chessboard, with all the optional moves stacked against me, simply because I’m fearful of Fellowship, in a Congregation, of people, who have the potential to crush my already torn, scarred and bruised heart. The crazy thing though, is this: I could really be doing my ownself a disservice, by refraining from joining a Church, outta fear… When the whole time, it’s simply my mental illnesses, that cause me to misconstrue everything I’ve ever experienced and disliked about “Saved Folk”… What if??? It’s all in lucifer’s disgusting plan, to make me continue to reflect on the, so called, bad that’s happened to me, in Church, just so I’ll miss out on serving God, full throttle?!?!? Ohhhhhh, how I desire to be NORMAL, where there’s no wondering, constantly, about should I do this, should I do that, should I go there, should I stay away, is he/she loyal, should I trust him/her πŸ˜₯😲😭πŸ˜₯😲😭πŸ˜₯😲😭… These roller coaster emotions, and seesaw doubts got my head spinning, and I’m beyond sick and tired of being sick and tired #StayTuned

PSA: Nothing crushes the heart more than realizing that you were played played, for no less than 14 years, and you only get a glimpse of it, when you’re ending your IG LIVE, where you’re in total despair and anguish, and you happen to see that person you gave your ALL to, I mean bent over backwards for… Popped in, said 2 words and skkkkrrrrrtttt… How could you be so cold hearted and callous??? Nonetheless, I still wish nothing but the best for you, and I’ll still hold you down, as before, till I tap out πŸ‘πŸ’–πŸ’—πŸ™πŸ’•β€οΈπŸ˜œπŸ’‹πŸ‘Œ

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Put UR Yes God Into ACTION

Hey P-Duds,

Always remember, nothing beats a failure but a TRY!!! I just keep finding myself giving up on trying to VLog, because I can’t for the life of me seem to get it right 😒😒😒😲😲😲😡😡😡😭😭😭 But, THIS TIME, I’m determined not to fall away grrrrhhhh… Even this video πŸ“Ή πŸ“ΈπŸ“·πŸŽžοΈπŸ“½οΈ I’m boutta upload, the dang music 🎢 🎡🎀🎼is too freekin loud πŸ”ŠπŸ”ŠπŸ”ŠπŸŽ§πŸŽ§πŸŽ§ again, and I’m like God do I keep giving Your people crappy work, just to feel as though I’m being obedient or should I just wait until I get the funds necessary to hire a professional smh… Decisions DECISIONS πŸ‘ŠπŸΏπŸ‘ŠπŸΏπŸ‘ŠπŸΏ

I be thinking I have discernment, but that can’t be, if I’m still wrestling within. But, enough murmuring… In the video, I make mention of Miracle Man, a highly anointed man of God, who my children and I had the pleasure of meeting, and was Blessed with his testimony… There’s no doubt that God’s Word says “We’re overcome by our testimonies” and His intentions are for us to transparently reveal the things that we went through, and give Him the Praise for how He brought us through… I get that, and I’m honestly and earnestly all in for the long haul… I’m just upset that it’s not quality QUALITY 😞😞😞