Tag: bitter

Aunt Diane (Documentary)

This here show made me appreciate God more, simply because I have been delivered from alcohol and drugs. The events that played out in this documentary took me back to some miserable places in my life, and the tears I shed weren’t sad ones, but rather for the joyous fact that I’ll Neeeeeevvvveeerr undergo nor put myself through turmoil anymore.

Multiple DUI’s didn’t make me stop drinking and driving, and I could’ve killed one of my loving grand babies in 2010, driving erratically, at speeds reaching 91mph, I was a mess, and had no regard for human life whatsoever during this time. That’s why I can’t Praise God enough, I could be locked away for awhile or even ddddeeeeaaaadddd SMH… God is AWESOME, and He’s better to us then we are to ourselves.

Not to mention the marijuana addiction, I caused my baby daughter significant development delays at birth, but once again all Praise to God… Today she’s gainfully employed, out on her own and you wouldn’t even know she literally lived in a long term care facility for the first sixteen months if her life.

Back to the documentary… Without speculating about what actually happen that day and whether Diane intentionally took her life… One more again I have to PRAISE God for bringing me through 12 unsuccessful suicide attempts and fixing my life to the point where suicide will Neeeeeevvvveeerr be a thought that crosses my mind again. To add, there’s accusations that Daniel (her husband) was having an affair, and that led to her actions that day… God, You’re amazing, because I’ve dealt with and no longer bogged down with infidelity and adultery occurring in my marriage anymore… Daddy, You’re absolutely THE BEST!!!

But, we must seek His face and allow Him full reign in our lives, then all the issues we face He’ll handle shonuff!

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From suicide to HOMICIDE… Lucifer flat lined

Keep calm crime scene investigators… Dusting for prints NOT necessary! No need for forensics, ballistics nor toxicology reports… I plea NO CONTEST… I’m guilty as charged with this massive 187. This slaying tops David and Goliath and is well overdue!!!

I could claim self-defense, since he’s been nitpicking and attempting to destroy my life for umpteen years. Anyone in their right mind would agree I’m justified for this massacre 🙂

All the obnoxious suicide attempts you caused, how does it feel, now that the shoe is on the other feet, and you’re bogged down, with Nooooooo control? You feel helpless right??? Do you feel like everything you’ve lived for and tried to build has been snatched out from under you… Good! What goes around comes around jerk… Karma’s a b!+©π huh???

All the sleepless nights, swollen eyes, war wounds, adultery, punches, kicks, spit in my face, sexual abuse, jail terms, loose living (sexually) and poverty I endured, because you had me brainwashed SMH!!! Nooooooo MORE 🙂 The same grave you dug for me on several failed occasions you’ll rest in starting TODAY.

You’re through being my puppet master; stringing me along into every sin imaginable. And I’m extra careful to make sure you’ll Neeeeeevvvveeerr get a chance to wreck my grand children’s lives, that’s why killing you off all together is a MUST! No more making me feel inferior, and telling me my crazed and deranged way of acting was Ok… Just blame it on bipolar. Nope, I’ll never settle for mediocrity. Jail cells and mental institutions look nuttin like the mansion my Daddy has for me.

I could go on listing all the chaotic mess you once had me indulging in, but it’s pointless and gives you too much credit, that you’re in no way worthy of… You’re merely the scum beneath my shoe. So take this death sentence and leave me, my family, my finances, my health, my job and relationships alone for GOOD!!!

I’m in control now sucka lol… My Daddy gave me power over you; to trample you underfoot, and with that being said… Ssssqqqqquuuuaaaasssshhhh – you’re gone!!! (((TOODLES)))

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Dysfunctional family… Be NOT bitter or dismayed

 

1 Peter 2:9-10

9 “But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. 10 Once you were not a people, but now you are the people of God; once you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy.”

No doubt, living in or being a product of a dysfunctional family can definitely be overwhelming. But, what matters most is your attitude, actions, reactions and responses. Make it a daily habit to remind yourself that you’re not in this alone. God placed you there for a purpose, and He’s surely with you through it all.

In most cases, your charge is to become that beacon of light and set apart from the rest. So that you may lead the lost ones to Salvation. Hard I know, but not impossible! Determination and repetition is imperative, and not you merely giving lip service, about what everyone else needs to do. Rather, you are to be the model they can follow and appreciate… Live a righteous life of example before them, and before you know it conversion will run through each person like a domino effect.

You may be thinking “Things are too bad here, nothing will ever change the course of this household”. Not true, God already knows about the drug usage, verbal & mental abuse, theft, lies, gossip, backbiting and slander; to say the least, that you endure regularly, and He wants you to know He’s well pleased with your staying abilities. Moreover, your breakthrough is near, and He’s about to turn every test you’ve passed into TESTIMONIES.

You did well in refraining from murmuring and complaining… Never considering yourself to be a victim. Instead, you remained strong as a VICTOR!!! Keep up the good work fam, everything is working in your favor. Look to see change very soon… But, you gotta believe. No matter how it looks, even if the enemy tries to show you reasons why God can’t possibly be on your side… Shut him up with your Faith, by exclaiming the goodness of God thus far.

Now, walk with pomp and circumstance, into your destiny, knowing that you’re more than a conqueror 🙂

The Winans Millions: http://youtu.be/So_LUItMFc8

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