New VLog starting today regarding the 7 types of loves I feel so bad I’ve been gone so long… Inconsistent and inconsiderate… Please forgive me and stay tuned!!!
“No worries ” is the continual message playing in my head. God keeps reminding me of WHO I am to Him and who’s I am, and that knowledge alone gives me an inner Peace.
Some days I wish I had plenty of friends to text, call and visit with, so that I won’t feel so sad. Then, I look to the hills, from where my help comes from and realize I’m fine just as I am… Sanctified and moving toward righteousness totally.
This New Years at 12 am instead of partying and getting wasted, I settled for staying in and resting up for a seven straight days workload, and believe it or not, it was very relaxing and I was content. Not to mention the fact that I was outta harms way… Bullets don’t have eyes! To add, my grown children didn’t have much to brag about, fun just ain’t what it use to be, now that I’m praying for transformation in their lives… None of the illicit drugs or alcohol that they indulge in will have the same effect lol 🙂
I’m determined that all my family will be sold out for Christ in 2015, I won’t have it no other way… Besides, there’s so much talent, gifts, wisdom, and creativity stored up in each of us, and it’s time we get busy allowing God to use us as the vessels He intended for us to be. So, if being in solitude, while I listen for God’s whispers causes this lost feeling… So be it!!!
Long as I know it’s in no way equated to failure or being a complete loser, I’m fine with every second of it. At the end of the day, only what we do for God will last anyway. Therefore, have Your way Daddy, building me into a WINNER, like only You can, and turn all my past troubles into bright sparkling TROPHIES 🙂
God is AWESOME, I mean I sit in awe of how HE shows up and shows out for me, and Fam believe me… HE can and will do the same for you.
ALL day I’ve been smiling, and I know my son MUST think I have special powers lol. Nope, I JUST have a POWERFUL connection with my father, who controls everything earthly, and surprisingly sped up the process on NOT one thing, but HE speedily delivered several things to US in record times. NOW tell me HE ain’t tight!!!
Normally, I’d have to sit on hold with my insurance company, and maybe get transferred to like eight DIFFERENT people before my PROBLEM would be resolved… NOT anymore, my DADDY has me at the forefront, like I’m Obama’s daughter or somebody of real importance… that lady answered the phone, hit a few buttons and wallah… documents transmitted way across town, to alleviate my predicament… Ohhhhh yoppington 🙂 🙂 🙂
My condo had my money tied up… supposedly, the hold wouldn’t drop off for seven to fourteen days… NOT for me, the conference call took perhaps 17 minutes at most… and what do you know… you’ll Neeeeeevvvveeerr guess… I’ll tell you… RELEASED!!! Imma child of the most high God… Noooooooooo good thing shall EVER be withheld from me…
Normally, when I have to go do bills each month, I dread the wait time at the post office… honey, let me tell ya… Ms Thang must’ve had her Wheaties this morning… because she whipped through at least ELEVEN of us in a matter of 23 minutes… when I walked in, faces were sour, people looking intermittently at their watches, and shaking their heads in frustration… but my PRESENCE; all filled with the marvelous Holy Spirit… the atmosphere changed for the BETTER, and things got cracking… that’s HOW my DADDY twerks!!!
I JUST love God, because I see things looking up for me, in MORE ways than one… This is off subject, but a MUST tell… I see a therapist EVERY week… the same lady each time… let me tell you HOW my DADDY fixes situations in OUR lives… the therapist has to come to the lobby to take you BACK to her office. She steps out, calls my name, I walk towards her, she extends her hand and introduces herself… weird but intriguing… with a shocked look I said to her… Uhhhhh, we’ve met, it’s me Paulette… She nearly hit the floor… I looked Soooooo good, she couldn’t believe it. Now I’m NOT tooting my own horn… instead giving Praises to God for IMMEDIATE healing and transformation.
Fam, this testimonial TODAY is for ALL to see the goodness of God flowing EVER so graciously IN my LIFE… and guess what… IT JUST gets BETTER WITH time.
Don’t be too deep when pondering on my next statement, because it shouldn’t be taken to heart, in a literal sense so to say… But, do keep in mind that God delights in OUR brokenness… And please allow me to quickly elaborate, because I would NEVER purposely write anything that stirs controversy or confuses any.
Like with OUR earthly parents, when problems arise in OUR lives, and OUR hearts get heavy, it’s human instinct for us to seek out comfort from those seasoned individuals who reared us up and made every attempt to shelter us from ALL heartache that would/could EVER come nigh our dwellings. It’s common for us to either call our parents on the phone or even run to their destination just to get a hug and lay on their shoulders and cry out, in agony, while WE express our discomforts, and like clockwork… they give US the reassurance and encouraging words WE need to make it through.
In the same way, God wants US to run to Him and lay it ALL out for Him, so He can kick into action on OUR behalf. The nurturing nature bestowed upon OUR parents came from God. Therefore, it’s evident that He obviously BETTER knows how to maneuver US through the ups and downs of life that we’ll surely face.
On a day to day basis, WE will have situations that feel like they’re going to break US down to the lowest degree, and I know firsthand that worry and stressing will be OUR initial reaction. But, we MUST train ourselves to beat the clock… start each day fresh… by entering into God’s PRESENCE as soon as you open your eyes… For me, I make EVERY effort to acknowledge Him before my feet hit the ground, and I start out thanking Him for waking me up and for keeping my FAMILY safe as well. Then, I go right into surrender mode… inviting Him in, to control ALL my interactions of the day. To make sure that I don’t offend NO one, and that I don’t overly take offense to anything someone may say or do to me; that would normally cause me to get outta character.
Not to downplay God’s abilities to properly cover us. But, the enemy may find a way to sneak up on, and bring us bad news (death of a love one, life deterring ailment, loss of a job, infidelity in OUR marriages, eviction, and food deprivation) to name a few… I mean the list of tormenting and disheartening events can go on and on. Nevertheless, God is deftly OUR go to in EVERY aspect.
That’s what I was referring to in my earlier statement, about God delighting in OUR brokenness… once these predicaments arise in OUR lives, and we show Him that we’re TOTALLY dependent on Him… believe me, He jumps right on it, in ways unimaginable, and before long you’ll notice that YOUR upset slowly subsides.
Your scares, fears and tears without a shadow of doubt brings God nearer to you, if you take the time to call on Him. Don’t suffer alone… God is forever on the THRONE, waiting to intervene like ONLY He can.
I can’t lie and say I didn’t get a lil shook up, as the time ticked closer to my scheduled appointment… But, having my Zude right by my side, encouraging me along the way made things much BETTER. Nonetheless, they couldn’t find what they thought they’d see, and that’s because I’m a child of the most high.
Soooooo, they wanna monitor me EVERY six months… Imma comply, simply because they’re professionals, and in the natural sciences reveal that I’m in need of further treatment. However, the God I know declares by Jesus’ stripes I’m healed.
Got a big day tomorrow… I’m gon sleep peacefully tonight and walk in the building with my head held high, and ultimately go on to work later with NO worries.