Author: shootahdcpassion

44 yrs. old, employed by the Federal Government. I have four grown children and eleven grandchildren, whom I love very much. This blog will be used to help me deal with Bipolar, which I was diagnosed with in 2000.

151 Days… God I need You now… More than ever before 💖

I actually feel better today, and have enough energy to get some exercise in 😜… It’s been said that exercise is more than just beneficial for weight loss and heart health, but it also releases much needed dopamine into the brain… Now, that sounds like a winner 🥰… Because I’m determined to come out of this stupor unscathed and victorious… I’m down to try all methods of any and everything 🅿️ositive. I started my cigarette cessation 3 days ago and it’s hard, but I’m determined 🅿️eriod… In order for me to see the good in life, I must look towards a new way of living in total. No, 151 Days don’t seem like much, but with God “All things are possible“… I’m even purposely eating healthy lol 😂… I know my neighbors think I’m crazy smh 🤦🏽‍♀️… Watching all the Amazon Fresh deliveries come over the past couple of days. But, I want my family to know that I understood the assignment 😘… Should worse come to worst and I lose my battle with ideation and this whole thing comes to fruition… They will not be able to say I went out weak… The proof will be in the pudding… That I listened attentively and put forth the BEST fight I had inside of me… Now, all I need is God’s help, to push me across the winning finish line “I can do all things through Christ Who strengthens me”… Let’s go 😍

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6 Things I Was Unprepared For After My Mother Committed Suicide

14 years ago, my mother committed suicide. These are the 6 things I was unprepared for after that fact & how I coped with it.

6 Things I Was Unprepared For After My Mother Committed Suicide

I’m so glad I found this post, from a child who lost a mother to suicide, so that I could obtain some insight on how my ultimate decision may affect my own children. #thingsthatmakeyougohmm 🤔

Here, the author talks candidly about the relationship between them and their mom and they honestly state that there were arguments and grudges… That’s to be expected, and part of the reason I feel the way I do nowadays. All throughout life, even as a child, when it’s time to reminisce about any vacation or family celebration… I’ve noticed it’s all laughs and smiles, until we collectively remember that I ended up messing everything up, by hurting someone’s feelings smh 🤦🏽‍♀️. I tell my family all the time… Not to think that suicide ideation only exists in the minds of people, because they’re selfishly sad about what they don’t have or what others have done to them… No, there’s torment that I deal with regularly because of what I can’t give to family (gifts, financial help, advice) and also I hurt simply because I’ve hurt them over the years, with my stupid big mouth, and judgmental ways smh 🤦🏽‍♀️… Never knowing when to just STFU 😩

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Ways to Get More Self Care into Your Life

Ensuring that you are getting the right level of self-care is essential to your overall sense of happiness and well-being. By doing this, not only …

Ways to Get More Self Care into Your Life

Hmm… Knowing this and being able to partake in any of it lately is obviously two different things unfortunately. That’s the main reason I’m in this horrible rut 😩… Yesssss, I know quite well what’s necessary for me to feel better both physically and mentally… It’s just getting my limbs to line up with my thought processes. I purposely keep track of how much time I exercise, just to see if it’s panning out to be beneficial; not only regarding losing weight, but basically for my overall health. Well, the log is so small now till I feel like it’d be pointless to even start back up a regular daily regimen, because I haphazardly lost sight of the goal that I was working towards smh 🤦🏽‍♀️… There’s gotta be a better way 😤

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Quotes on Mental Illness Stigma

Stigma is a big deal for those of us dealing with mental health issues. I’ve written about it in my latest book, A Brief History of Stigma, but there…

Quotes on Mental Illness Stigma

Taking a step towards healing is not for me to isolate myself, as before, and block out the very thoughts of what’s really going on inside me. Read as much as possible, exercise daily and Pray like crazy. Time is ticking and I gotta find somebody, anybody… Who’s not ashamed of what I’m going through… To please help me at least get back to the place where I’m in control again… Cause right now… I’m numb and stagnated smh 🤦🏽‍♀️

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Can’t sleep 😩

So frustrated smh 🤦🏽‍♀️ … Then to add insult to injury… There’s nuttin to watch on TV. Imma basket case, this has gotta stop dammit 😤

This insomnia is starting to affect the way I look, which has a detrimental impact on my ideation… Gotta pull myself together, but I’m clueless about the anecdote or remedy needed #notincontrol #outtacontrol #outofcontrol #desperate #please

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152 Days… Jesus take the wheel 😩

Today I’m so down in the dumps. I honestly thought I was over actual suicide attempts smh 🤦🏽‍♀️. Yes, I constantly suffer with ideation, but things feel different lately. Family is so busy, with their own affairs, which I respect; don’t get me wrong. However this right here –>> Family member desperately crying out for help Should have never happen.

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#RonnieMcNutt #Suicide 😭

https://www.instagram.com/tv/CE0X11xBNgB/?igshid=1bc5o3cjs35jr
#RonnieMcNutt #Suicide

#manshootshimself #livesuicide #WEGOTTADOBETTER #loveyourfamily #praydaily

If this don’t change the hearts and minds of the people, I honestly and earnestly don’t know what will! This man talks about errybody that failed him, right before taking his own life. Then, the audacity of the ONLY caller, who actually got through; amongst the many who attempted. Whatever they said to him, was the straw that broke the camel’s back. He had just said to send a particular officer to his home, and he’d go get treatment smh. Why take his cry for #help so lightly? Please believe anyone who’s experiencing suicide ideation, and run to them as fast as possible, even if there’s several false alarms; who cares! #bettersafethansorry

Always keep spare keys to your love ones home. Follow/Friend them on every social media platform, so that you’re privy to mood changes, self isolation, behavior differences. Let them know daily that they’re loved, needed, wanted, special and important to you.

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