Day: January 18, 2015

The llliiiitttttttllllleeeee engine that COULD!!!

I think I can, I think I can, I think I can… I KNOW I CAN 🙂 🙂 🙂

If God be for me, He’s more than all the hurt, pain, malice, strife and agony that could ever come against me.

Therefore, of course I can… I’ve made it nearly through my entire shift and I’ll be here every day of the week to come. I decree and declare that I’m strong in Christ who died on the cross for the remission of my sins… How do I look allowing anything or anybody to cause me this much grief???

I’m not, and won’t think ordinary… With God only extraordinary things of excellence can become of me and to me… I’m determined to make it, and if it means I’ll have to remove the rearview mirror from my vehicle then so be it… Because there’s Nooooooo lookin BBBBAAAAACCCCCKKKKK.

This whole idiocy has only thrusts me closer to God and caused Him to draw me nearer… “Touch not my anointed, and do my prophets Nooooooo harm”!

Daddy, I love You for even bringing us through messes we place ourselves in… Yes, I brought this all on myself… But, God!!! That’s when His mercies are new and everlasting in my life… Thank You Jesus for being a friend to me, who sticks closer than a brother… My tears have been minimal to none… That’s God or nah???

Follow me as I allow Christ to LEAD!!!

by shootahdcpassion

Avoid LONELINESS and settle for utter DISRESPECT

Not!!! I just gotta keep myself busy… Maaaaannnnnnn, I thought surely by today at least I’d be feeling a llliiiitttttttllllleeeee bit stronger geeeesssssshhhhh :-(:-(:-(:-(:-(

Then, I thought about firing back up my Tagged and Kik accounts, perhaps that’ll keep me occupied. But, that’s simply a temporary cure, in a place where I need a permanent healing… Daddy, I need You!!! This is one of them times where I could use a great big fatherly hug, and lay my head on His shoulder and cry for a few ticks (((((((TEARS)))))))

Nonetheless, before I’ll save myself from the broken feelings and bring him back, only for me to risk another broken heart in two to three weeks… Nooooooo, I won’t even put myself through the agony. I know all too well that he’ll Neeeeeevvvveeerr change! So, let me stop allowing him to take me down on a monthly basis… With no remorse each time. Of course, he does his whimpering, just to get his foot back in the door. But, obviously it’s not sincere or it wouldn’t be a repetitive norm for us… I’m fed up to the max!!!

Therefore, self you had better snap outta this craziness, of even considering to let him come back into your life, to destroy you over and over again! Where’s your self worth? That inkling that says to you… “Girl, you’re beautiful, and any real man, in his right mind, would love to have you, and treat you like the Queen God intended”

As long as I keep settling, why should he change, if nothing forces him to??? There’s never no repercussions for this unfair treatment, he’s just out of the house for a couple days, then brought right back, to get all the rewards a good husband deserves, and I’m sure he laughs deep within; like “look at this retard, I can do anything to her, and she’ll keep taking me back” and that helps him think I have low self esteem, and accept his mess, because I believe I can’t do any better than him… Lies you tell!!! And I’ll show you this time around… Trust me, I’ll be strong before you know it, and I will move on for sure :-):-):-)

No lookin BBBBAAAAACCCCCKKKKK, I’m gone Mr Maaaaannnnnnn… You lost out, and that’s not a threat, but a promise!!! One man’s trash will be another man’s treasure… Don’t believe me… Just WATCH :-):-):-)

by shootahdcpassion