GET RID OF BILL COLLECTAHZ 4EVAH #okkkkrrrrttt #paydatshityourfuckinself #MINDYOURFUCKINBIZNESS #leavemedafuqalone #putemonnashirt4Passion #pluckemoff4Passion #pressemout4Passion #wipeanigganose #savagemode #shootahdcpassion #staywoke
Oh how I wish… If only… Well, maybe if I… Should I??? 👀 👀 👀 😰 😰 😰 ⌛⏳⏰⏱️⏲️🕰️🕛 Discernment: Perception in the absence of judgment, with a view to obtaining Spiritual Guidance and Understanding. I’ve said YES, I’ve laid Prostrate, I’m CRYING OUT, but yet, I’m still so so so so so so so so confused 😕. I’d give my life, to be rid of mental illnesses, irony huh 😲 😲 😲??? My mind is haphazardly, too cloudy, for me to be able to get right straight to the core of God’s Plan and Will for my life, and I just Graciously follow suit, and begin to move therein smh. There’s no doubt #PERIODTT, that I want this, and running ramped anymore, is a for sure for sure thing of the past. But, I’m clueless about what my next move should be, as if I’m a pawn, on a chessboard, with all the optional moves stacked against me, simply because I’m fearful of Fellowship, in a Congregation, of people, who have the potential to crush my already torn, scarred and bruised heart. The crazy thing though, is this: I could really be doing my ownself a disservice, by refraining from joining a Church, outta fear… When the whole time, it’s simply my mental illnesses, that cause me to misconstrue everything I’ve ever experienced and disliked about “Saved Folk”… What if??? It’s all in lucifer’s disgusting plan, to make me continue to reflect on the, so called, bad that’s happened to me, in Church, just so I’ll miss out on serving God, full throttle?!?!? Ohhhhhh, how I desire to be NORMAL, where there’s no wondering, constantly, about should I do this, should I do that, should I go there, should I stay away, is he/she loyal, should I trust him/her 😥😲😭😥😲😭😥😲😭… These roller coaster emotions, and seesaw doubts got my head spinning, and I’m beyond sick and tired of being sick and tired #StayTuned
PSA: Nothing crushes the heart more than realizing that you were played played, for no less than 14 years, and you only get a glimpse of it, when you’re ending your IG LIVE, where you’re in total despair and anguish, and you happen to see that person you gave your ALL to, I mean bent over backwards for… Popped in, said 2 words and skkkkrrrrrtttt… How could you be so cold hearted and callous??? Nonetheless, I still wish nothing but the best for you, and I’ll still hold you down, as before, till I tap out 👍💖💗🙏💕❤️😜💋👌
Sooooo, I’m back again with another video 📹 📸📷📽️🎞️ where I’ve fused together a couple of my beginning videos, from nearly 4 years ago, where I was introducing to you guys the PASSIONS that God laid on my heart, whilst showing me how He intends to use everything I’ve ever experienced in life, that I thought to be overly horrific, for His good. Now, I’m no professional at this editing thing smh, so you’ll see that the transitions are not as good as Warner Brothers and Paramount lol 😂 😂 😂😵😵😵 😲 😲 😲 but don’t judge me 👊🏿👊🏿👊🏿#PERIODTT
In the videos, I’m discussing the app that I wanna some day implement, where one would actually be able to click into a live session with a Prayer Warrior, who’ll deter them from the final mistake of suicide and get their mind back on the right track, and help them realize that life actually IS worth living after all, because that’s exactly how I always feel days, weeks or months later, after an attempt, and I’m happily amongst family and enjoying every single ounce of everything different, that each one of them has to bring to my life, from the crazy dances that all my grandchildren do, to the funny clapbacks that show forth in hellah large family group texts, right on down to my oldest daughter, who everybody knows to be the most hilarious of us all #nocap, and her capabilities to mimic anybody on the face of this earth, and keep the entire room falling outta their chairs cracking their sides… Sometimes literally ⚰️⚰️⚰️⚱️⚱️⚱️nah, I’m just kidding, but Sus most certainly got dis comedian thing down pact.
But, more importantly, is the text I received about the 2 mothers, who both threw their babies from high places and then jumped themselves… That thing ran all through me and it just shows that suicide awareness and prevention is definitely necessary, and I gotta stop procrastinating, and get into gear, doing whatever I can to build Alone NO MORE, so that we’re readily available for all that’s in need.