Permeate me √√√√√√√

Daddy, I continually surrender my ALL to You and Your Work. I want You to live in and through me, to the point where my words, actions, ways, responses and thoughts surprise me.

True, we have free will! But, I relinquish ALL to You. I keep messing up being myself, following after the lusts and desires of this crazy and chaotic world, and always letting this filthy flesh win. I’m completely sick of it. My primary reason for breathing is to please You in EVERY aspect of my life.

Yes, we have every right to repent, and You do forgive instantly, and that’s MUCH appreciated. But, I just wanna be transformed and renewed to the point where my mess-ups are minimal to none at all!!! You’re sooooooo wonderful to me, BETTER to me than I am even to myself. So, I wanna express my gratitude by being a Good and Faithful servant… I too wanna hear the words “Well done!!!”

Just like Paul said… The things I’m supposed to do I don’t do. But, ALL the things I shouldn’t do; I end up doing ggggrrrrrrhhhhhh 😦 😦 😦 I’m tired of playing tag with the adversary… NOOOOOOO MORE!!!

Father, I’m totally and completely sold out for You… Have Your way in my life, and use me till You use me up!!! Help me to be humble, meek, compassionate, loving, caring and considerate to ALL, even if they’ve hurt me. And it takes dying to my flesh to be able to look past the hurt that others have intentionally caused me, and still love them just as Christ loves the Church… That’s why I beg of You to purge me with hyssop and wash me white as snow.

BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

Post from HCUMABH 9/1/12

At one point, I would spend countless hours analyzing myself, trying to figure out what was wrong internally, that caused constant problems in my relationships.

I will admitt, I like all others have flaws, and I can tend to be a bit dominate at times. But, to repeatedly meet with disappointment is ridiculous, and I haven’t a clue what the issue is.

While reflecting on myself, I considered my physique to be the primary culprit. So, I got my weight in tact, and happiness re-kindled. But, before long he was gone again. Then, I assumed it had to be my overbearing demeanor. So, I took on the back-seat occupant role of the relationship for a while, and I let my mate drive us for some eight miserable months; to no avail. Let me tell you, that obnoxious ordeal was short lived, and I eventually found myself by myself, and really contemplating suicide.

After a while, I began asking God if He ultimately wanted me alone, because He had other plans for my life. But, I can’t see that being the predicament, because He made woman from and for man… Which indicates that there IS somebody out here for me. I’m just missing the mark somehow.

To sum it all up, I’m not living in this realm of confusion by my lonesome, and I’m asking for input, so that we, who are hurt, can come out of our emotional bondage, and find TRUE happiness. Don’t be shy, we can all benefit from each others testimonies.

#TEAMHOWTOMENDMYBROKENHEART

BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

My journey

In 1993 I first learned of God in a way that would truly be beneficial to me, opposed to what I was accustomed to as a child, at my Grandma Toads’ house, having the missionaries come over every Sunday morning, to teach the household how to live right.

Then, I was way too young for any of the teachings to take root, and change my sinful ways. All I did was watch the clock, waiting for the lady to leave, so I could get to play outside. Although the atmosphere was always structured, and the lessons placed before me contained pertinent tips that could have saved me from most of the heartache I endured after becoming an adolescent, I never forced myself to listen, thus reaping havoc in every arena of my life thereafter.

Today, I’m determined to get it right, and seek Gods’ face like never before. I know firsthand that He’s a keeper, and He rewards anyone who diligently pursues Him. I can bear witness to Him being GREAT, because I had a chance, for a couple of years to have Him working closely with me, once I surrendered my all to Him, and asked Him to lead, guide and direct me. However, I took the wheel again, and it wasn’t until a couple of months ago that I realized I absolutely need Him at the forefront of my life or I’ll either end up in hell or a jail cell, and neither of them are an option for me. I have eleven (11) wonderful grandbabies that not only depend on their parents for moral support, and look for a positive role model. But, also they definitely expect me, the overseer of the entire clan, to have myself in order, so they’ll know how to conduct themselves.

Back in the day, I use to attend these cell groups, that were so helpful and conducive for me but I can’t find them in existence any more… SMH!!! They were a plus, because each new comer was teamed up with a seasoned member, and the two would schedule Prayer allotments and we would also meet for mid-week Bible studies at one or the other’s home, and that getting together like that always carried me over until Sunday morning worship service. Thinking about those days makes me laugh, because my children would be so angry, because I was so thirsty for Christ that we basically lived in church. Twice on Sundays (AM & PM) services, choir rehearsal on Tuesdays, Bible Study on Wednesday, and the cell groups took place every other Friday… I miss that… It sure did me some good. But, I unfortunately allowed my flesh to take over, and I backslid. Nonetheless, I’m happy to know I serve a God that shows forth Grace and Mercy to every one of us. He knows we can’t keep ourselves, and our flesh craves after the ungodly things of the world… But, it’s our responsibility to remain GROUNDED and ROOTED in the Word, so that we’ll have the power to fight against temptations as they rise.

Tonight, I take the initiative to reconstruct the old workable cell groups again. So, if there’s any God fearing women, who feel just like me… You have a desire to do right, but you need that extra push, let’s team up together and PUSH each other into Heaven’s gates. It’s important that we Pray without ceasing and read God’s Word, and we can make it happen as long as we have FAITH the size of a mustard seed… I’m waiting, inbox me please 🙂

BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

Seek HIS Face Saturday

Passions’ Pottery:

http://bible.com/111/mat.7.7.niv

“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.

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God can do ALL things but lie. Now, some may feel, “I’m not too sure about that, I’ve asked, sought and knocked, with no rebecausee” Worry not, be not dismayed! Either that particular thing you desired IS coming or something totally BETTER is deftly on its way. Very important: my texts can only hold ten people, and when God gave me this task I thought it was for the masses and I’d have to forward it multiple times, in order to reach ALL who’d listen or those who’d be interested, and low and behold I Only have seven committed and dedicated individuals, and trust that if you’re really into this your rewards are on their way. Remember, God sees ALL and will react the same towards you as you do Him. It’s better for you to say remove me from the group then to allow the correspondences to lie dormant or out and out plainly delete them upon receipt. Sure, we all get busy, and some just don’t like reading altogether. Trust it’ll pan out beneficial for you to take a few mins each day, not to only read the Messages, and I purposely capitalized Messages, because they’re specifically from and of God. Also, don’t feel as though ” I’m not going the whole nine yards wit God, so my interactions via text are obsolete and will never amount to nuttin ” Wrong!!! I’ve been saved since 1994 and have never been exactly where I wanna be or where I FEEL God wants me to be. But, He deftly still loves and Blesses me regularly. In fact, I was reluctant about moving forward with this group because I felt inadequate… Nope, those are all tricks of the enemy. Regardless of Church affiliation or the lack thereof, if we, like many WHO won’t at all, spend at least 15 mins with God a day… He’s obliged TRUST ME. Nuttin happens by chance, the chosen vessels who are here; are here because God knows that we’ll grasp the value within and do what’s right.

BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)

Free Your Mind Frrrrriiiidddddaaaaayyyyy

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Itttttt’sssssss Frrrrriiiidddddaaaaayyyyy!!! And the day to totally unwind and relax. Even if you must work today, go to school or handle some business that would otherwise be stressful/overwhelming…Don’t allow it! You’re in control of your actions and reactions today. So, every time you feel your adrenaline negatively being impacted… ❎🚫 ⛔ STOP, and remain 🆒 and 🕧 count to ten… Then, smile and realize you’re too BLESSED TO BE STRESSED. with that in mind, carry on with your business at hand, in a peaceful and conducive manner. Purposely think about a vacation you’d love to be on RIGHT NOW and actually allow the very scenery to overtake you, to the point that it feels like an out of body experience, and you really feel the sun beaten down on your shoulders and the sand between your toes, as you slowly approach the fresh blue water ur getting ready to enjoy for a few ticks… Once in the water, and your body has become acclimated… It’s curtains… Nuttin can aggravate nor irritate now… You’re in your zone! Str8 relaxation. FYI if your phone ain’t waterproof don’t even imagine yourself chillin wit Pandora and headphones… Your expensive device hittin that water would ruin the excitement you just built yourself up to lol.    http://bible.com/97/dan.12.13.msg “And you? Go about your business without fretting or worrying. Relax. When it’s all over, you will be on your feet to receive your reward.”
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Thank HIM Thursday

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Sooooooo, thanking God for His goodness can become so cliché. Don’t let it!!! We know how we do when we’re rushing “Father God, I thank You for waking me up, thank You for food, a car to drive and shelter… Amen” Ohhhhh nah, we’s not boutta keep short changing Him… Commit to 7 measly mins of pure and genuine Thanksgiving. For He inhabits the Praises of His people. Go off by yourself and use your headphones, in case you be all embarrassed about interacting wit God. But, go to Pandora and put on VaShawn Mitchell – Nobody greater and start by clapping your hands and audibly saying Hallelujah… Who cares if you look dumb lol. The rewards thereafter will be surmountable. And some may have instant things to thank God for, yet while others may need the Holy Spirit within to intercede on your behalf. Either way, just the mere fact that you obediently took the initiative, Heaven’s gonna cry out. Now, we all know how Pandora works, that specific song may not immediately populate. Nonetheless, go for it, whilst allowing two songs to play through… Hey, if the Spirit takes over, and you find yourself on the floor some hours later, deftly come back to dis link for a Praise report. http://bible.com/97/psa.136.1-3.msg Thank God ! He deserves your thanks. His love never quits. Thank the God of all gods, His love never quits. Thank the Lord of all lords. His love never quits.
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BnfEnT (CEO Son Son – DMV)