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Things Dat Make You Go… πŸ€” 2

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“BnF Ent presents CeoSonSon’s HOOD 2 HOOD VLogs(5)”

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BnF Ent presents CeoSonSon’s HOOD 2 HOOD VLogs

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BnF Ent CeoSonSon VLog 4

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“BnF Ent presents CeoSonSon’s HOOD 2 HOOD VLogs(6)”

BnF Ent CeoSonSon VLog 6

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“BnF Ent presents CeoSonSon’s HOOD 2 HOOD VLogs(1)”

BnF Ent CeoSonSon VLog 1

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BnF Ent – CeoSonSon VLog 7

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Vincent Romel Irving Jr., better known by his stage name CeoSonSon, is an unsigned HipHop/Rap artist from Washington, DC. Tired of living the street life, that would only lead him to a predictable future; in 2015 he began to reevaluate his life. This allowed him to start focusing his time and money into his creative passion, and over the past 4 years he has turned his dream into a reality, branding not only himself, but also his Independent label, Back-N-Forth Entertainment (BnF. Ent.). In October 2015, CeoSonSon officially released 2 records, “Been Ballin” and “Early Age”, which were fortunate enough to be recognized and aired on Sirius XM, Shade45 and HipHop Nation. His mixtape entitled “1 Year Later” was released on January 20, 2016 and hosted by DJ Holiday. Then in early 2017 he shocked the world with “Trenches” (ft. DC’s own Lightshow) and flowed right into “Nonsense” (ft. XXL Freshman G Herbo). On 7/17/17 he dropped his radical single “I GOT ISSUES”, that’s expected to do CRAZY numbers on the charts nationwide. With his heart in his music, and a drive to inspire the world, CeoSonSon is sure to become an influential member to the HipHop/Rap scene for many generations to come.

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Oh how I wish… If only… Well, maybe if I… Should I??? πŸ‘€ πŸ‘€ πŸ‘€ 😰 😰 😰 βŒ›β³β°β±οΈβ²οΈπŸ•°οΈπŸ•› Discernment: Perception in the absence of judgment, with a view to obtaining Spiritual Guidance and Understanding. I’ve said YES, I’ve laid Prostrate, I’m CRYING OUT, but yet, I’m still so so so so so so so so confused πŸ˜•. I’d give my life, to be rid of mental illnesses, irony huh 😲 😲 😲??? My mind is haphazardly, too cloudy, for me to be able to get right straight to the core of God’s Plan and Will for my life, and I just Graciously follow suit, and begin to move therein smh. There’s no doubt #PERIODTT, that I want this, and running ramped anymore, is a for sure for sure thing of the past. But, I’m clueless about what my next move should be, as if I’m a pawn, on a chessboard, with all the optional moves stacked against me, simply because I’m fearful of Fellowship, in a Congregation, of people, who have the potential to crush my already torn, scarred and bruised heart. The crazy thing though, is this: I could really be doing my ownself a disservice, by refraining from joining a Church, outta fear… When the whole time, it’s simply my mental illnesses, that cause me to misconstrue everything I’ve ever experienced and disliked about “Saved Folk”… What if??? It’s all in lucifer’s disgusting plan, to make me continue to reflect on the, so called, bad that’s happened to me, in Church, just so I’ll miss out on serving God, full throttle?!?!? Ohhhhhh, how I desire to be NORMAL, where there’s no wondering, constantly, about should I do this, should I do that, should I go there, should I stay away, is he/she loyal, should I trust him/her πŸ˜₯😲😭πŸ˜₯😲😭πŸ˜₯😲😭… These roller coaster emotions, and seesaw doubts got my head spinning, and I’m beyond sick and tired of being sick and tired #StayTuned

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Thinking back, allowing myself to be isolated, like I have been for the past week, would have driven me bonkers. But God!!! There’s a huge important difference, between isolation and CONSECRATION, and I pick the latter, for 200 Steve πŸ‘ŒπŸ’—πŸ’žπŸ™πŸ’‹πŸ’–πŸ™ŒπŸ’•β€οΈπŸ‘

It’s now or never, point blank #PERIODTT, and I wholeheartedly say Yes Lord, have Your way in, through and with me, for all else has failed, and I’m finally convinced, that You are, the Way, Truth and the Light, and no man shall make it to the Father, but by You.

NO MORE running, I surrender my everything to You, and I’m readily available, to be used as Your vessel, just lead, guide and direct me, according to Your Righteous plan for my life. Wash me, and make me whole, purge me with hissop, and I shall be clean, bridle my tongue, and go into the inner most parts of me, and REMOVE any and everything, that’s not right and like You!!!

No, it won’t be an overnight transition, and I may fall 1,000 more times, before I’ll get it right, but just know, that it’s my earnest desire, to walk upright before You, and turn from my wicked ways. I’m beyond thankful, for Your Grace and Mercy, which are both new for me each day, and I come now, with a repented heart and a made up mind, to please You, from here on out, in all that I do and say… Please take now, and keep total control, of my entire being, and direct me, down Your path, that leads to eternal Peace, Love, Happiness and Joy… Hallelujah and Amen πŸ’―πŸ’―πŸ’―

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Child assaulted by her teacher

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Child abuse… INNOCENT CHILDREN ASSAULTED

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Unbelievable, can you believe my sister shared this yesterday, way before I even posted my granddaughter’s story… I’m dying inside smh grrrrhhhh 😭😭😭😭😭😭😩😭😩😩😩πŸ˜₯πŸ˜₯πŸ˜₯

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So, I was going to go about this way different, and actually give the school board a chance to perform their investigation, and take the proper steps, to make sure that the teacher was relieved of her duties and arrested, since her horrible actions, on more than one occasion, with my granddaughter alone, shows that she does not at all take pride in what she does for a living, and has the potential to physically harm a child, very bad, if allowed to remain a part of the educational faculty.

But, after listening to the conversation, between the principal and my daughter, I can see that she has no intentions on assisting us, in prosecuting nor reprimanding her colleague period. Instead of quickly placing Xoe in another classroom, which she definitely has the power to do, she feels that the best course of action, during the investigation, is to have my daughter pick up packets of school work intermittently, and the baby, who’s actually the victim here, be forced outta school, for an unknown length of time, which is highly obnoxious to me.

Remember, I mentioned that there was talk, in the beginning of the school year, before the teacher even had a good enough time to work well with Xoe, she was already bent on retaining her, and I told my daughter that she needed to contact the principal immediately, because something just didn’t sit right with me. Come to find out, the principal did “look into it”, and she stated yesterday, that the real reason for holding Xoe back, is due to multiple absences, whilst the family was dealing with a very sick family member, and then subsequently mourning their untimely death. Well, that takes me back to my frustrations about her basically expelling Xoe, for her being assaulted, twisted fate huh?!?!? As an education professional, who notices, early on, that a child is at risk of being held back, for staying home too much, and the thought process is that the child has missed too many important lessons, and couldn’t possibly be able to test out, shouldn’t you be leaning more towards figuring out ways to keep that child in class, opposed to putting them out of school??? Surely, you’ll be able to hold her back now, and rightfully back up your decision, with the school rolls; when really, on the flip side, your crazed impromptu solution, made the baby stay home.

Please share this across every platform with us. So, that we’ll be able to successfully bring awareness, to the wrongs that officials commit, while on duty, and because of formulated cliques, it’s merely swept under a rug. It’s always been said, that you never notice a silver Cadillac coupe, until you purchase one, and haphazardly, that appears to be the only car riding along the side of you. A family member, friend or even yourself, gets diagnosed with an illness, that you’ve never heard of before, but when you Google it, you find that it’s running rampant all around you, and your next door neighbors Auntie, on her grandparents sister in law’s baby daddys’ side just contracted it as well, and now she’s morbid, and weeks away from expiring. That’s how I was feeling about my granddaughter being assaulted, it was the furthest thing away from reality to me, and I was stunned, by the news of it. Yes, I’ve heard about and can actually picture an unruly teenager, getting into a real stand up knock down fight with their teacher, and life goes on. But, a baby, being assaulted by an adult, no way shape, form or fashion could I believe it. So, I did, as always, and Googled “elementary teacher twists student’s arm”, the results brought tears to my eyes… How could you??? Operation TAKE CHARGE & MAKE CHANGES… Let’s GO!!! The boat stops here.

Allow Xoe to return to school immediately, instead of creating double jeapordy for her. Charge her former teacher, Ms. Brown, criminally and terminate her; before another African American child enrolls in that school, and gets assaulted by her, just as Xoe unfortunately did.

Paulette A. Y. Williams & Anthonya L. Moon
PO Box 2127
Merrifield, VA 22116-2127
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Friday, April 5, 2019

Re: Assault on child, Xoe S. L. Moon; by teacher, Ms. Brown

This is the letter that I plan to circulate, should proper recourse fall through. Choking back tears, I draft this, as I stand in, in my daughter’s stead, while she works. Honestly, I can’t even imagine how broken hearted, confused and angry she must be right now, because times have changed tremendously, from the era in which I was raising my four babies, where this type of cruelty was unthinkable. I never had to worry about any educational official even attempting to assault one of mine, because it was established straight out the gate, that I was something like a vigilante, and testing the waters wasn’t wise, even in the least bit. But, for good reasons, I suppose, my daughter is cut from a different cloth, and obviously responds to and resolves issues in a more calmed manner; perhaps this is when the paternal vs maternal parts of her takes a front seat, with all due respect.

Nevertheless, it saddens me that the one thing she always wondered about, has now been confirmed, but it had to derive in a way that caused her baby to end up with the short end of the stick, and she’ll more than likely be traumatized because of it, for only God knows how long, but I WILL NOT take this sitting down and neither with a grain of salt. Operation TAKE CHARGE & MAKE CHANGES commences immediately.

PTSD is one of the most horrific ailments to suffer from, and is a known cause of suicide, because the sufferers never take the initiative to assertively confront the fears, turmoil, doubt, anguish, hurt and outlandish confusion that so easily besets them following a traumatic experience of any magnitude. Instead, they withdraw and keep it all bottled within, which can be devastatingly overwhelming, if they have to regularly interact with the person that caused or is repetitively causing the negative emotions, and the wrongdoings are still at the forefront of the equation, then such things as isolation, bedwetting, misplaced anger, drugs and alcohol start to exist, all because the individual fails to gravitate towards and utilize better methods and mechanisms to alleviate the culprit.

In this case scenario, because the affected person is merely a baby, we have to be her liaison, and take those necessary steps for her, and my living declaration to this innocent child, is now and forever will be, that I can assure you that your pain will cease and I promise you that no other child, in years to come, will ever have to go through anything, like what you’ve endured, as long as there’s breathe in my body, and I get wind of it. Corporal punishment, in my opinion, is banned, outlawed and illegal. Thus, meaning Ms. Brown, a teacher at Jackson Elementary school, had absolutely no right to put her hands on my granddaughter, Xoe Moon, on April 4, 2019, in the state of Tennessee, and the city of Kingsport, which is in Sullivan County, and therefore needs to be charged criminally, terminated and barred from teaching period, regardless of whether or not she moves states, because she clearly don’t have the heart, patience or mindset, deemed necessary, for this sort of profession. Parents must be able to trust that you have their child’s best interest within you, for six long hours, of every week day, and that you wouldn’t even allow another facilitator nor stranger to harm them, make less, you being the abuser yourself.

Ever since the beginning of school, my daughter Anthonya Moon, has been updating me about her eerie feelings, concerning Xoe’s teacher, and after some time, I instructed her to begin the process of removing Xoe altogether, from the troubled environment, and put her in another school. She filled out and submitted the forms, which were giving to Jim Nash, who oversees the schools in that district, for him to complete the transition. In the interim, yesterday’s incident took place, before the move of schools could fully take place. In fact, I actually want him investigated as well, to thoroughly look into whether or not he even began the initial steps concerning Anthonya’s request, or did he purposely ignore it, and can also be held liable for Xoe’s horrific assault, that surely wouldn’t have occurred, had he adhered in a timely manner.

Earlier, I mentioned β€œbedwetting”, as a possible issue, that may be seen in a person who’s faced with continual unresolved bouts of verbal, physical or emotional harm. Xoe is only a couple of months away from being 7, and she’s still having problems with this, and I distinctly and specifically told my daughter to stress to the school board, our concerns, that she needs to be transferred immediately, as we earnestly believe that her mishaps are most certainly stemming from the ill treatment she’s receiving, every time she comes into close proximity of the horrible monster (Ms. Brown), because she does not have any bladder or kidney problems that could even remotely be a medical answer for why she is going through this abnormal phase, and it sickens me right now, to even think about someone being that heinous, to the point where your love one can’t even control their bodily fluids, due to extensive fear. Operation TAKE CHARGE & MAKE CHANGES… Let’s go!!!

From the start, Ms. Brown did, what we thought to be, trivial things to Xoe, such as expressing her desire to retain her, only after a few days or weeks of working with her. Although, I thought it to be odd, but not highly alarming, I still advised Anthonya to have the principal at Jackson Elementary intervene, with our alerts being that we can’t understand how and why that type of determination is even in to play and/or discussion so early in the school year. Next, the acts of her openly ostracizing Xoe caused my right antenna to sort of rise, and I told Anthonya right then and there, that bullying, in any form, never ends well, and suicide in younger children is on the rise all of a sudden, and even though it’s hard to fathom, I refused to play Russian Roulette with my lineage, point blank period, get her out of that school ASAP. No child should be subjected to, and left to deal with an adult, who was initially meant to help, guide and protect them, disgustingly doing sneaky conniving things to them for absolutely no apparent reason at all, minus pure racism. To have a bag of snacks, and out of 25 children, hypothetically, you only have enough for 24, and your reply is β€œOh, I really apologize, I miscounted β€œ. So, that left out child, has to watch the others enjoy, what they were evilly deprived of.

I’ve always been a stickler, against daily incentives, if any part of it, meant one or more babies would have to be without, because that sort of trickery does something terrible to the psyche, and not ethical at all. We’re not teaching our babies, according to Pavlov’s theory. These are human beings, with feelings, and watching everyone else around them, get rewards and praise, yet while they are singled out, can have long-term consequences for them, possibly leading to a downtrodden way of thinking and living. Then, to actually incite the other children, to join in on your forbidding acts, is utterly menacing and outrageous, but will not go without the proper reproach. To hear that little child conveying how she spent hours alone, trying to engage herself in activities, just tears me to pieces. I’m nearing 50, and have been in the Federal Government for umpteen years, and still to this day, I gravely feel that I’d go bonkers, if this were happening to me. Just envisage how torn up inside any child, not simply Xoe, has to be, waking up each day, in an atmosphere of love, care, concern and compassion, only to be forced into hell’s fury, so to say, and imperiled to agonizing torture, primarily because of truancy laws, and the failure of a district official (Mr. Nash), to do what was compulsory, to relieve you quickly.

Without further ado, please allow me to finally get to the core of my plight. Everything stated before was the outer layers, of information, that enlightens you on SOME of the things, that’s been taking place, behind the closed doors, of 1st grade teacher, Ms. Brown’s classroom. On 4/4/19, my daughter Anthonya arrived home, in the evening, after business hours, to find her daughter Xoe’s eyes noticeably swollen, as if she had been wailing at some point. Quite naturally, you’d think, something had to have transpired, perchance in the last couple of minutes, in order for her little eyes to be that engorged; surely this is not the remnants of an earlier episode. Well, low and behold, it essentially was, to her surprise, and nothing could have prepared for the information, that her baby girl was about to unload.

Xoe stated that it was β€œfree time”, and she was diddly daddlying around, ALONE, because remember, Ms. Brown has already successfully made her an outcast, and none of her peers won’t have anything to do with her. But, the gym teacher told her to sit down, another person, that I’d like to see investigated (relating to this assault). First, because if it was β€œfree time”, then why were you making her sit down. Nonetheless, at some point Ms. Brown comes around, and out the blue grabs Xoe by the wrist, and began to scold her, and the baby says that every time she’d beg for an explanation, the lady only twisted her arm that much harder and tighter… I’m back to trying to do everything in my power, not to cry, crocodile tears, while at work, merely from the thoughts of my grandbaby having to go through that abuse, at the hand of a person who they’re taught to trust and respect. How could you??? Not to suggest, that any of my grandbabies would be a better candidate for that ghastly quandary, because NO CHILD at all should ever be. But, in all honesty, even though I’d still be just as livid, I would be more apt to envision how my grandson, with known behavioral issues, could get a teacher that mad. But, not Xoe, and I’m not, in no way, attempting to sugarcoat her personality and characteristics, just because she’s my granddaughter. I’m a fair individual, and will always call a spade a spade, family or not.

Anthonya, never received a phone call about the incident, and understandably why not!!! How can you call a parent, and admit to touching their child at all, make less assaulting them. In order for that baby’s eyes to still be bulgy, yesterday evening, she had to be crying for an extensive period of time, and to think about how helpless and disconnected she had to be feeling, no way to reach out to her Mommy for comfort, and what happen throughout the remainder of the day? Did she hide our baby away somewhere, so as to not have any other adult inquire about her tears? I’m unequivocally baffled, and I don’t want to continue writing about it, because Xoe is bone of my bone, and flesh of my flesh, and I’m aching for her, some nearly 24 hours later, and it’s very important that we get the ball to rolling, towards resolve. Did the gym teacher stand by idly, and witness this assault, without whistleblowing? How many other students can attest to Xoe’s physical and mental pain, surrounding what happen yesterday? Please contact us as soon as possible, this is imperative. Thanking you in advance, for your promptness, in dealing with this matter.

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“TOO MUCH SWAGG ON ME’

So so so so HAPPY to be a true, loyal and committed #Sonniyoo… #CeoSonSon never ever ever ever disappoints, and all of his material is deftly well worth the wait… Gotta mention the fact that, from the outside lookin in, you’d think πŸ€” my mans and nem was signed to a major label, that’s helping him accomplish so much…. Uhhhhhhhh NOPE, on some #RNS it’s all him #independent and the Chief Executive Officer of #BnFEnt and I’m absolutely loving erry minute of his growth and development Vincent Irving keep doing what you doing Bob… On my Mama you got dis rap shit by da nuts, and don’t let up okkkkkrrrrrrtttttt, keep applying pressure #Sonniyoo wit your foot on dey neck #PERIODTT #getdastrap #thankchu #splattt #yadig #dc4life #dcornothing #dcstandup

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Put UR Yes God Into ACTION

Hey P-Duds,

Always remember, nothing beats a failure but a TRY!!! I just keep finding myself giving up on trying to VLog, because I can’t for the life of me seem to get it right 😒😒😒😲😲😲😡😡😡😭😭😭 But, THIS TIME, I’m determined not to fall away grrrrhhhh… Even this video πŸ“Ή πŸ“ΈπŸ“·πŸŽžοΈπŸ“½οΈ I’m boutta upload, the dang music 🎢 🎡🎀🎼is too freekin loud πŸ”ŠπŸ”ŠπŸ”ŠπŸŽ§πŸŽ§πŸŽ§ again, and I’m like God do I keep giving Your people crappy work, just to feel as though I’m being obedient or should I just wait until I get the funds necessary to hire a professional smh… Decisions DECISIONS πŸ‘ŠπŸΏπŸ‘ŠπŸΏπŸ‘ŠπŸΏ

I be thinking I have discernment, but that can’t be, if I’m still wrestling within. But, enough murmuring… In the video, I make mention of Miracle Man, a highly anointed man of God, who my children and I had the pleasure of meeting, and was Blessed with his testimony… There’s no doubt that God’s Word says “We’re overcome by our testimonies” and His intentions are for us to transparently reveal the things that we went through, and give Him the Praise for how He brought us through… I get that, and I’m honestly and earnestly all in for the long haul… I’m just upset that it’s not quality QUALITY 😞😞😞

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KILL SUICIDE NOT YOURSELF

Hey P-Duds,

Sooooo, I’m back again with another video πŸ“Ή πŸ“ΈπŸ“·πŸ“½οΈπŸŽžοΈ where I’ve fused together a couple of my beginning videos, from nearly 4 years ago, where I was introducing to you guys the PASSIONS that God laid on my heart, whilst showing me how He intends to use everything I’ve ever experienced in life, that I thought to be overly horrific, for His good. Now, I’m no professional at this editing thing smh, so you’ll see that the transitions are not as good as Warner Brothers and Paramount lol πŸ˜‚ πŸ˜‚ πŸ˜‚πŸ˜΅πŸ˜΅πŸ˜΅ 😲 😲 😲 but don’t judge me πŸ‘ŠπŸΏπŸ‘ŠπŸΏπŸ‘ŠπŸΏ#PERIODTT

In the videos, I’m discussing the app that I wanna some day implement, where one would actually be able to click into a live session with a Prayer Warrior, who’ll deter them from the final mistake of suicide and get their mind back on the right track, and help them realize that life actually IS worth living after all, because that’s exactly how I always feel days, weeks or months later, after an attempt, and I’m happily amongst family and enjoying every single ounce of everything different, that each one of them has to bring to my life, from the crazy dances that all my grandchildren do, to the funny clapbacks that show forth in hellah large family group texts, right on down to my oldest daughter, who everybody knows to be the most hilarious of us all #nocap, and her capabilities to mimic anybody on the face of this earth, and keep the entire room falling outta their chairs cracking their sides… Sometimes literally ⚰️⚰️⚰️⚱️⚱️⚱️nah, I’m just kidding, but Sus most certainly got dis comedian thing down pact.

But, more importantly, is the text I received about the 2 mothers, who both threw their babies from high places and then jumped themselves… That thing ran all through me and it just shows that suicide awareness and prevention is definitely necessary, and I gotta stop procrastinating, and get into gear, doing whatever I can to build Alone NO MORE, so that we’re readily available for all that’s in need.

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Being stole from, hands tied smh

Hey P-Duds,

I real DID NOT wanna do another video πŸ“Ή pertaining to this particular subject so fast, but people dafuq irri and be wit da shitz, boutta make a bitch spazz liiikkkkeee a muthah fuckah.. Why, just why do errybody keep trying dey hand? #nocap I’m truly at my breaking point. I really want yall to listen to dis shit and give your honest opinion… The fuckery is on overload #getdastrap. I don’t mind paying for anything that’s worth my πŸ’°πŸ’³πŸ—žοΈπŸ’² but for you to arbitrarily TAKE from me and think πŸ€” shit sweet ohhhhhh nah PASSION gon nut da fuck up and rightfully so, and I’m sure many of you will agree… Just listen to da specifics smh… I’m absolutely devastated bout how I’m being cold carried #PERIODTT

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Alone NO MORE 1

Hey P-Duds,

We’re finally tapping into one of the segments that fall under Da Ugly Ducklin that really really hits home with me, and will always be a subject/topic that is fragile, in my opinion, and I feel the need to cradle it, just as I did every single newborn I birthed.

Alone NO MORE is geared towards suicide prevention and awareness first and foremost, but of course you can’t just eat all the icing and throw away the cake; uhhhhhhhh it’s a package deal #nocap, and for that reason we’ll broadly integrate mental health issues, treatment and the likes as well

Please please please please please be on point guys, as it relates to friends and family members, who are suffering with any of the underlying problems, regardless of whether or not you feel that they just want attention… Of course they do duhhhhhhh #staywoke and do any and everything in your power to cater to their needs when and wherever they summons you… Their life depends on it #PERIODTT

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The Transparent ME 1

Hey P-Duds,

So, we’re on day 2, and as promised, I’m giving it to you RAW!!! This VLog takes us back to my website, dauglyducklin.org, and into the mind of PASSION, from 2014, when I transitioned from mere blogging to VLogging, and my first post was really short, on July 9, 2014, where I gave a verse, concerning God’s desire for marriage, and I added “So Into You” by Fabolous and Tamia. But, I am totally clueless as to what drove me to pick that song smh… Or exactly what my mind was focused on at that moment. Nevertheless, The Transparent ME is where we’ll go deep deep into the craziness that PASSION has endured for the past 19 years… To include, but most certainly not limited to dealing with the whirlwind of roller-coaster emotions and chaos, that’s a reflection of my suffering from multiple mental health issues, several bouts of homelessness, that my psychiatrist simply writes off as “THE NORM” for (people like me)… Dafuq?!?!? What is that supposed to mean… Okkkkkrrrrrrtttttt, doc Imma let that slide, sense you got all them lil cute degrees hanging up on that wall behind you, because frfr you’re more than likely right, now that I think πŸ€” about it grrrrrrhhhhh, I am a humdinger at times, and I’m almost positive I do da most, soooooo I probably had a few temper tantrums, that aided in my being unfortunately displaced #THANKCHU. Also, we’ll delve into my many near death experiences #getdastrap, my need for 3 reconstructive surgeries geeeesssshhhh and I’ll elaborate on my horrible war wounds and 14 suicide attempts. Strap your seat belts, sit back, and enjoy the ride, we’re in a caravan, on a mind blowing road trip, traveling down the path of unpaved tar of “The Life of PASSION”… Stay tuned and ENJOY πŸ‘ŒπŸ€£πŸ˜΅πŸ˜²πŸ™πŸ’—πŸ’žπŸ’‹πŸ’–πŸ‘

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HCYMABH 1

Hey P-Duds,

Please allow me to apologize for being inconsistent, that’s absolutely horrible and unacceptable on my part, and most certainly not the least bit OK, in the eyes of God, and I can assure you that I’m back, full throttle and for the long haul.

I’ve wasted so much time over the years, searching for MY niche, thinking of ways to make videos for you guys, with so many different topics, thinking that I’m finally adhering to His beckoning, not even realizing whole time, that none of this… My misery, pain, hurt, anger, anguish, trials, tribulations, setbacks, ministries, platforms, followers, the website, and so on and so on, was ever about me, and what I could gain nor recoup from it all. But, rather I’m just a mere conduit, servant frfr, that God desires to use, to get His Message out to His people.

Da Ugly Ducklin, The Transparent ME, H.U.T., TMOB, Alone NO MORE, Sister Sistah Connection, and neither HCYMABH all belong to God, and are only vehicles He’ll use, for me to carry out His Work, as it is and has always been ordained for me to do.

Today, I spent some quality time, looking back over, a few posts from 2009, on Facebook, in the group How Can You Mend A Brokenheart, and I was overly amazed and thankful for all the people who really interacted back then, and more excited about all those who’ve remained loyal, in spite of my lack, in keeping the group active and flourishing. Thanks guys… You mean the world to me and God, and I promise you once again, that I’m Back In Stride Again, and this time with a vengeance… Legggggoooo 🀣 πŸ’― πŸ˜‚ πŸ‘

Write My Life Story

I need somebody to write my life experiences in 3 phases… Past, present and future I have been through a lot and I believe that my experiences, tests, trials and tribulations hold a bigger purpose and the transparency of it all will help others who partake of it, to know what they should and should not do, in order to not have to struggle nor suffer as long and hard as I did. But, instead to use key factors of my life as tools for success. I have $800 cash right now, and I want to be able to approach publishing companies by April 24th… Don’t take on the project simply due to need, this is really important and special to me, and procrastination, unusual delay or any other milestone you face will not be tolerated nor acceptable… Within that set amount, I will need to do no less than 10 live, Skype, phone, email or text interviews with you, in order for us to chronologically perfect the autobiography.

The mind of Christ

From March 30, 2014

Before walking in to work, I was vexed in my spirit because the word “capsize” continued to maneuver through my brain. Instantly, I looked the word up, to obtain a better understanding of what, if anything, God was trynna show me, but the definition was disheartening and scary; so I prayed for EVERYONE then posted my Lil warning… Nonetheless, I still didn’t feel the settling within that I expected or shall I say like what normally occurs following intercession… That comfort that overcomes me, reassuring me that all is well. However, I proceeded on, setting up my work station, entrusting all to my Father… Then, a small still voice spoke “your life” I’m like huh??? Again, He reiterated “YOUR LIFE, and went on to express to me that my life is getting ready to flip for the better… Everything about me has to and will change… Not as time passes on… Ohhhhh no my dear, you don’t have that type of time… You have known about your calling since 1993 but never hearkened… No, I won’t force Myself upon you, for I’m a gentleman at best. But, know that I have work for you to do and it’s NOT optional”!!!

On any other day, this experience would have scared me outta my wits… But, God is a God of order, and disarray fits no where in His schema… Therefore, His omniscient powers already for seen this turn of events, and He had me prepared… For the past three days, there’s been no Drake, Sevyn Streeter nor Lil Wayne bumping through my Bluetooth, instead, I’ve been eating good from none other than Bishop T.D. Jakes, and his messages have all been flowing in the direction God needed me to trod.

Even writing about it now I can feel God’s presence and His fresh anointing is ever so near and comforting… I love You Daddy, and I thank You for Your patience, grace and mercy that’s always shown evident in my life… Even down to the generation that my grand babies are living out now… You talking bout AWESOME; there’s absolutely NONE like You, and most definitely, I say yes to Your will and way for our lives… All 16 of us… To include (My four and their eleven) πŸ’“

Da Ugly Ducklin – The Transparent Me 7/24/15 (DAY 5)

Da UGLY Ducklin -IN DA LIFE OF PASSION

Today is FREE YOUR MIND FRIDAY no matter what the enemy tries to throw your way DODGE it, and keep it movin. Show him he has NOOOOOOOOOOOO power or control,and will not keep you bogged down!

Chris Brown with the suicide rumors going around. I searched through several sites, only to find out the world is getting all worked up about what they’re considering to be a cryptic message on his instagram… and more can be read here http://sandrarose.com/2015/05/is-chris-brown-suicidal/ & http://sandrarose.com/2015/06/chris-brown-wont-be-around-next-year/

I Pray she’s wrong. But, I’m not too happy about the writings she wrote, and many others stated their feelings on her site.

My apologies for getting upset, after talking about the beating I received from my last husband, and not really doing well in the Vlog.

Family should always stick together and help one another out, especially during homelessness.

Parents Pray for your grown child or children who’s…

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Da APPLE don’t fall far from Da TREE

Da UGLY Ducklin -IN DA LIFE OF PASSION

Proverbs 22:6

6Β β€œTrain up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.”

Starting October 26, 1993, following this charge was imperative in my life, and I set out to do just that… In fact my children say they couldn’t wait to get grown, so I couldn’t FORCE them to go to Church any longer. I mean we attended service EVERY time the doors opened, I may have over did it! But, that was because of my lifestyle before transformation, and my believing that we needed extra cleansing, in order to be RIGHT with God. Nonetheless, the Word never lied, because my babies know the goodness of God, and He’s Who they depend on in the time of troubles. To add, they have dignity an integrity, due to the long hours we spent with God. Therefore, it panned out…

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Da UGLY Ducklin -IN DA LIFE OF PASSION

This man right here is so talented, I must say I’m very impressed, and that’s NOT ONLY because he’s my only Son… I’m loyally one to give credit where it’s due… to God be the Glory!!!

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Having a hard time dealing with a person who suffers from a narcissistic personality disorder and they’re constantly tearing down your self esteem??? GET IT TOGETHER!!! πŸ”« πŸ”« πŸ”« πŸ—‘ πŸ—‘οΈπŸ—‘οΈKNOW YOUR WORTH!!! YOU’RE #GORGEOUS, #HANDSOME, #BEAUTIFUL, #CUTE, #SWEET, #PRETTY

For those who think they’re in a relationship with this kind of sneaky mean person, don’t buy them nuttin else #point #blank #period they’re using you… You’re no item, they wouldn’t be seen in public with you, and surely have no intentions on marrying you πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ”“πŸš¦πŸ”«πŸ—‘οΈπŸ”«πŸ—‘οΈπŸ•˜βŒšπŸ”₯πŸ˜πŸ‘ŒπŸ”ŠπŸ’΅πŸ‘ΆπŸ‘­πŸ“ΉπŸŽ¬πŸ”­πŸŽ₯πŸš™πŸ’•πŸ’˜

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Is the Passion gone??? How’s your Romantic life??? Surely sex nowadays ain’t just part of your regular to do list πŸ“ƒ is it??? PLEASE tell me you’re still keeping it GROWN AND SEXY!!! He never has to deal with your hair flying North, East, South & West does he???

Remember PRETTY GIRLS πŸ‘­ ROCK!!! πŸ”ŠπŸ‘ŒπŸ†—πŸ’˜πŸ”₯πŸ”₯πŸ”₯πŸ˜πŸ˜πŸ˜πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’˜no time ⌚ πŸ•˜for relaxing when he’s still very much active, sleep too long and he’ll be so gone πŸƒπŸƒπŸƒπŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸŽ₯πŸ”­πŸŽ¬πŸ“ΉπŸ•ΈοΈπŸ’³πŸ’΅πŸ‘ΆπŸ‘­

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Can you love unconditionally, regardless of circumstances or disappointments??? If you’re anything like me, you’re honestly STILL PRAYING πŸ™ for God to Bless you with all the Wisdom, Knowledge and Understanding needed for you to be able to put aside the hurt you endured.

If you gotta do anything special or buy anything extraordinary in order for your mate to be able to show you unconditional love 😍, let em go immediately… They’re not right for you at all πŸƒrun like never BEFORE πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ’˜πŸ”₯πŸ•ΈοΈπŸ”ŠπŸ‘Œ

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Do not, I repeat DO NOT sit beside none of your best friends of the opposite sex, because there’s a slight chance of y’all bumping and grinding… Then it’ll be botua boop botua bang… STORGE LOVE IS IN THE AIR lol πŸ˜‚ πŸ˜‚ πŸ˜‚ ctfu rotmfflmbao lls!!! πŸŽ₯πŸ”­πŸŽ¬πŸ“ΉπŸ•ΈοΈπŸ”ŠπŸŽ­πŸ”’πŸ˜„πŸŽ¨πŸ”₯πŸ’˜πŸ’•

STORGE LOVE means don’t put your hands on nobody’s child please please please please.. That “it takes a village to raise a child πŸ‘Ά is from ancient times… Don’t do it #youvebeenwarned #lol #crazy #lls #ctfu

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Just how do you feel about arranged marriages and the thought of feeling like you’re not good enough for a certain crush, simply because you can’t add up to his/her parent’s standards… Doctors only marry doctors, lawyers only marry lawyers, politicians keep with the same idiotic mindset, and likewise with celebrities and athletes for the most part… #FOH Nobody’s better than the next, on some real nigga shit, that’s why when I was studying this shit, it was talking bout how couples eventually have to FORCE the dumb shit to work, they realize allowing sexual desires to first take the backseat was a bad idea, because they’re in no way compatible in that arena, now divorce is rearing its ugly head and they’re sleeping in separate quarters of the house 🏑, all because they are forcing themselves to be recognized as important…cut da jokes… Suzie better get herself a Ballin ass thug to tear dat thang up sum proper lol πŸ˜‚ πŸ˜‚ πŸ˜‚ ctfu rotmfflmbao lls πŸ’•β™₯οΈπŸ˜„πŸ”­πŸŽ¬πŸ“ΉπŸŽ₯Β©οΈπŸ”’πŸ”₯πŸŽ‚πŸŽˆπŸ•ΈοΈπŸ’³πŸ”ŠπŸŽ­πŸ€”πŸ‘Œ

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Do you love yourself??? There’s a huge difference in loving yourself and LOVING YOURSELF… Narcissus seen himself in a pool of water and fell in love with himself instantly, could that be you as well, do you know that you know that you know that you know that you’re handsome, pretty, cute and/or gorgeous and someone complimenting you is redundant… Please quit it!!! That’s so over the top, what should be done is reciprocation and move on right??? Yeeeesssssss, mmhhh mmhhh hhhhmm I know I’m right dammit, wit your lil cute self dammit lol πŸ˜‚ πŸ˜‚ πŸ˜‚ ctfu rotmfflmbao lls

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SERIOUS INQUIRIES ONLY

Back In Stride Again will be taking CENSORED calls … Yes censored, I’m no dummy, to just allow live calls on my show, which could be a disaster, every Sunday & Thursday starting at 3pm… Y’all went ballistic for Patti’s Pies, now how y’all gon act about da Chatty Whys???

Call (202) 270-2507 and ask any question about the 7 types of loves and the disclaimer is as such, once you call that number, you agree that your voice will be recorded your story will be aired on one of my 5 sites, you’re giving me permission to do this by calling me on my personal phone and engaging in conversation with me.

I have not promised to pay you anything for this participation, your participating is totally voluntary, and we better include the fact that in today’s world, and streaming technology capabilities, there is a chance that a total stranger could steal your story a leisure from one of my sites, and I WILL NOT BE HELD LIABLE. NOW AFTER READING ABOVE, IF YOU’RE STILL INTERESTED HIT MY HIP!!!

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Can I TRUST YOU?. Will you ever TRADE on me??? Will you hold firm to the #OMERTA street code of conduct??? Can I DEPEND on you in my time ⌚ of need, like I’m there for you when needed??? (Reciprocation is very IMPORTANT). PLEASE KNOW:. Our friendship is not merely about what I can give… As if there were Ludus feelings at the core, instead there’ll be us caring for each other on MUTUAL GROUNDS πŸ‘ŒπŸ’•πŸ€”πŸŽ­πŸŽΆβ™₯οΈπŸ”ŠπŸ”₯πŸ”’πŸ’³πŸ˜Š

Watch “LUDUS LOVE 1” on YouTube

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Ludus Love is the worst love I’ve ever encountered, when I first began researching it, I thought when it said “playful love” it was referring to giggling, face timing, playing board games and the sorts… Instead it’s about manipulative, narcissistic and conceited individuals, who are only in it to win it, stay away from them and if you’re that type… Shame on you!!! πŸ”« πŸ”« πŸ”«

Looking Back on 7/18 /15 cont.

My determination to do the Will of God regardless of the video keep stopping. Don’t sit on the things God’s impressing upon you to do. The things you’ve gone through and experienced are for a reason… Allow your tests to become your testimonies. HCYMABH by 7/18 /15 has been in existence since 2009… 6 years and even though it lies dormant people don’t fall away… That’s God!!! Alone No More and the need for the app and being able to video chat even when you’re feeling suicidal, and me being suicidal in February 2015 and getting hospitalized and not liking it at all. Continuum of care for Alone No More is very much needed and long term therapy sessions will be implemented. H. U. T. (HOLDING US TOGETHER) Family Togetherness Ministry – Wanting families to see each other 4 times a month if not that, at least once.

Looking back… 7/18 /15

Very first VLog introducing myself, explaining how I started How Can You Mend A Broken Heart in 2009 on Facebook. How I began the brand Da Ugly Ducklin, and why it was even coined its name from start. Discussing how I want Da Ugly Ducklin to expand into a 5 point organization, that integrates different outreach ministries, especially Alone No More, which is created for suicide prevention.

EROS LOVE 1 (10/17/17 Tuesday)

Keep the fire πŸ”₯ lit and never get caught looking a hot mess, the same way you looked the day you guys met is the same way you’re expected to look daily, never become complacent and start walking around the house for days with your Don King hair do, no shower, no pedicure… Come on now, we gotta do better ladies, and men, keep dat face and head shaped up and bathe regularly as well!!!

Get da flash drive, sexy lingerie and smell good oils and take each other to ecstasy… Next on the list is CLIMAX, THEN STRAIGHT BUMPING AND GRINDING πŸ‘ŒπŸ’£πŸ•’β³πŸ’―πŸŽ­πŸ˜°πŸ˜β˜’πŸ˜΄πŸ˜’πŸ˜¬πŸ”’πŸŽΆ

EROS LOVE 1 (CLICK HERE PLEASE)

Click LINK ABOVE to view the full video

AGAPE LOVE 1 (10/16/17 MONDAY)

Please give feedback about how well you do with this or on the contrary it’s something you struggle with like me… In that case still comment and let’s work together to get our issues under control to bring about change.

AGAPE LOVE 1

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Nothing beats insolvency but a TRY!!!

Because I love YOU

Grant it, we all goΒ “THROUGH” rough times, and understandably so, considering our Father own the cattle on a thousand hills!!! The devil BIG mad or little mad??? Without a shadow of doubt, know that He’s got the WHOLE world in His hands, and it ain’t but so much lucifer can do to us and keep us ostracized, bound, sad, hurt ad plenty more other bouts of emotions his wicked curve balls attempt to invoke once twirled.

The emphasis put on through shows that there’s a pot of gold at the end of EVERY RAINBOW, we just gotta remain steadfast and keep right on PUSHING… Love yall to pieces… Stay Encouraged and Prayed Up πŸ™‚

Da Ugly Ducklin – The Transparent Me 7/28/15 (DAY 9)

#FEEDBACK #YOUROPINION #YOURSTORY

Da UGLY Ducklin -IN DA LIFE OF PASSION

Today isΒ TALK ABOUT IT TUESDAYΒ initially intended for friends and family to discuss different sermons, scriptures or Godly topics that each came across on previous days, for the purposes of readying yourselves for Wednesday Bible Study, where you’ll Prayerfully be armed with plenty of questions.

However my day didn’t begin good, and I had to vent after a crying moment, because I was so upset with my children.

Please give your opinion about the situations I discussed.

Thank God I feel 100 % better now… God Bless each of you, and may Heaven continue to smile upon you and yours

Please subscribe to my YouTube channel, and follow me on every social network where we meet up, and I’ll surely do the same for you.

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Da Ugly Ducklin – The Transparent Me 7/25/15 (DAY 6)

The cycle of life is overwhelming… I did these videos and purposely put dates for reflection purposes, to see how things either got worse, BETTER or inadvertently stayed the same #HOLYSPIRITPLEASEFALLAFRESHUPONMEANDMINE

Da UGLY Ducklin -IN DA LIFE OF PASSION

Today is SEEK HIS FACE SATURDAY and make sure you read a scripture, Pray, Praise or Worship Him today.

Christian wife/ Muslim husband (How you interact) (Praying, Praising & Worshipping together impossible)

Me seeing the aftermath of my two sisters after getting brutally beating (Reason for my hostility toward men)

Women should stay in their place (We cannot beat NO man)

A mother’s job is NEVER done (Talk toΒ your grown child) (Help them identify and then succeed at their goals)

Feeling ostracized after alcohol cease (How to enjoy life when everyone else still indulges)

Family should never see each other homeless (Well to do family won’t help SMH)

Never seclude your mate because you have no friends or family to chill with.

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Da Ugly Ducklin – The Transparent Me 7/30/15 (DAY 11)

My my my, nearly two years ago and it seems as though things still haven’t changed for us uuugggghhhh!!! #FATHERGODINHEAVENWENEEDYOUOHSOBAD

Da UGLY Ducklin -IN DA LIFE OF PASSION

Today is THANK HIM THURSDAY

Shooting in my daughter’s house (Close call SMH)

Her trip to the Dominican Republic

TheΒ 8 hours beautification process (Oh how HAPPY I’ll be afterwards)

HCYMABH… Back up and active.

Alone No More… Lying dormant, which is a GOOD thing, because nobody’s suicidal.

H.U.T. My desires for an immediate family (Annual Reunion) on a Yacht, even though I’m terribly scared of water.

TMOB – The Mouth Of Babez (New Ministry) For youth 21 and under, to learn the importance of having a relationship with God and the POWER in Prayer. Taking our children to church ain’t at all the gist of it. They MUST know what’s expected of them and all the BENEFITS within. More important, we don’t want them embarrassed or fearful to Pray to or interact with God.

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Da Ugly Ducklin – The Transparent Me 8/3/15 (DAY 15)

To be or not be is the question #REALLYDONTKNOWWHOIAMANYMORE

Da UGLY Ducklin -IN DA LIFE OF PASSION

Today is MAKE EM SMILE MONDAY

Contradictory Vlog: Yesterday I stated we must love in spite of. Then, I turn right around and ditch my husband to sleep on the streets.

Ironically, I have every reason not to smile.

My daughter nearly died behind illicit drugs.

Misplaced anger towards my mother-in-law SMH.

The BREADWINNER can’t even get a decent meal???!!!

The effects of K2 on your marriage, family and life.

Get rid of your flesh, it destroys you and others you interact with.

Should you leave your spouse for indulging in drugs, simply because they’re irresponsibly still doing it, even after something bad has happened.

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Da Ugly Ducklin – The Transparent Me 8/7/15 (DAY 19)

Whirlwind of chaotic memories SMH #IWHOHAVENOTHING

Da UGLY Ducklin -IN DA LIFE OF PASSION

Today is FREE YOUR MIND FRIDAY

Woke up to car GONE… You talkin bout FURIOUS!!!

β€œI lost the carβ€œβ€¦ Are you serious???

How your mates choice to indulge in illicit drugs creates unnecessary problems for the both of you.

Telling your grown children to live one way, but you settle for the things you’re trynna save them from… DOUBLE STANDARD

If you choose to put up with your mate… Don’t bagger them thereafter

Living with others is hard… Food issues arise, and everyone not buying household supplies… NOT FAIR

How my family is all of a sudden going through simultaneously SMH

My son’s up and coming rap career… My feelings about the uneasy content

How I want my children to get and keep my grandbabies before the face of God

How bad I want God to fall upon me on a daily basis… to help me…

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Strong Bonds That Hurt (((TEARS)))

My name is Paulette Williams, and I’m reaching out to you on the behalf of my family.  The entire family is dysfunctional for real and I’d like to see a change in that, but that’d take some time understandingly so. Therefore, my primary focus right about now is my immediate family, which consists of my four children and their eleven children.

As it stands, my two youngest daughter​s have severed ties with me after a family vacation this past week turned rather ugly, and hidden ill feelings reared its ugly head, causing complete chaos. No one​ actually became physical, but the end result was the police having to be called to mediate certain situations to the best of their abilities, but still upholding the law, with advice to each of us to seek out legal help for many unresolved financial issues.

A little history: Since the age of 15 I began raising my children alone, with absolutely no help from their fathers, all four different, which was something I was always shameful about and another thing I constantly discouraged for my three daughters. I repetitively used my many mistakes as points of reference for the way I did not want them to follow, seeing as though my adolescent and beginning adult years was filled with several arrests, alcohol, drugs, mental illnesses, suicide attempts, multiple marriages and reconstructive surgeries, that came about because of my ways, attitude, disposition, actions and crazy reactions.

After my last jail stay, I took a good look at these new little faces joining our lineage (MY gorgeous grandbabies), and I vowed to myself to be a BETTER mother and grandmother (The expected Echelon/Matriarch) that I should’ve been from start. I took the initiative to go back to college and I finally received my certificate in Medical Assistance and I secured a prominent position for a wonderful OB/GYN and together we successfully ran both her offices at two of the best hospitals in Washington, DC, and this was my way of life and something positive being modeled in front of them for some time, until I came down with Sciatica and had to have emergency surgery, which inadvertently landed me on disability. In the interim I continued to profess my Faith in God and they too followed my lead, and I’m ever so thankful for that, because it kept my family strong and bonded.

Before long, SSI help became inadequate, as the cost of living increased from year to year. So, I obtained a Ticket to Work, and became gainfully employed by the United States Postal Service, where all three of my daughters followed my lead, but eventually resigned unadvisable, and it seems like things have been rough for all of us since then.

Speed forward: Due to all the time I wasted either from being incarcerated, in mental institutions, totally drunk or high, away from my babies I never was able to do anything nice for them. So, I bought us a timeshare, that we all could utilize either individually or as a family, and I own the eleventh week of each year, which happens to always fall in my second daughter’s birthday month, and it worked out perfect for the first year of her going down with her friends and family and my request was merely that the rest of us join sometime throughout the course of that week for a family gathering. I was ecstatic to give her this yearly gift, because she was one of my children who claimed to feel that she was the black sheep, and overlooked by me. Although I didn’t see this, I will attest to one thing. If it’s true that she’s been made to feel that way, in actuality it’s all deserving, seeing as she’s the one of my children that has always been outlandish and blatantly disrespectful to me and anyone else that tries to speak logic, rules, reality and constructive criticism to her.

Nonetheless, March 12, 2017 thru March 19, 2017 should’ve been a happy moment for our Lil family, but it was everything but that; it turned out to be a complete nightmare, with my baby daughter not even showing up, but sent her only daughter to me half packed, hair not done and in my opinion not properly fed, all for the sake of chasing a man who tried to kill her in her apartment bedroom, while her toddler baby lay asleep on the bed just steps away from the gunfire, not to mention he kidnapped her baby, torturing her by repetitively threatening that he was gonna kill her Mommy SMH. There was a stay away order in place between them, that my daughter illegally allowed him to break, by willingly letting him come back around her and her daughter, not even considering the fact that this man still indulges in illicit drugs and drinks regularly, which can cause him to snap again. Had me and my husband not been present to help her and the baby out of the unfortunate predicament, my thoughts are that they’d both probably be dead. Her reasons for “cutting me off” is because of my threats, (out of frustration), to report her to Child Protection, in an effort to forcefully get my granddaughter out of harm’s way. Perhaps I did appear to be mean by saying that, but I felt I was left with no other option, seeing as she’s 23 and totally disregarded my motherly advice to never see him again or at least not allow him anywhere around the baby. I had gotten her a rental car, because she now lives in Tennessee, and needed a better source of highway transportation to come to and from DC for visits. So, I thought about punishments that I use to implement when they were younger that worked and taking things from them that they really liked always got their attention, and brought about immediate change. So, I snatched the keys to the rental car, Praying that’d make her see how serious I was about her leaving that toxic man alone, but it caused her to hate me instead, and I come to find out that was because she no longer had her car, that’s been parked for five months, while she enjoyed the luxuries of the rentals, to resort to, because the prohibited man, during one of his many nights of rage flattened all four of her tires, and it’s gonna cost nearly $800 to get someone to professionally come to the car and remove each tire, change it from the rim, and reinstall them.

It would appear that she’d see all the things that this man has done to negatively impact her life and leave him on her own, but she turns the blind eye and deaf ears obviously. She has a permanent huge chunk missing from her abdomen, from where he bit her and ripped flesh away. On many occasions she has to be stuck for weeks leading into months with no phone, because he destroys them. After the mishap with her Post Office job, she went to school and was overjoyed at the fact that she secured her CNA license. After the shooting in her home and the terrible attack she endured, she had to be put on major medications to help get rid of flashbacks and nightmares, but she kept falling asleep while on patient watch, now once again she’s left jobless. I stressed to her to please see the culprit for all her downfalls to be this man, and do the right thing and separate herself from him at once. Lastly, about this particular daughter; I would hate for any before and after pics to be shown of her, with the comparison timeline being since the day she hooked up with him to present. It’d bring tears to your eyes, just as it does me being her mother and having to watch my babygirl self destruct; only because she’s reached the age of appropriation, and no longer has to abide by my rules. It crushes my heart to see how frail my child is now, face all sunken in, and her baby looks even worse, but every time I feel it’s my duty to get officials involved my two eldest children and other friends and family members say I’ll be doing the baby an injustice. Please help!!!

To add, back to the daughter I spoke about earlier, the one that felt a bit slighted by me years ago and still does now I’m sure, after this weeks horrible vacation. From a child all the way through to where we are today, she’s always been a very mean, rude, disloyal and obnoxious young lady, not only to me, but also to strangers, extended family and her own siblings, and she knows and apparently adores this about herself, even to the point that her nickname “Rudiist Bitch” was coined after her crudeness, something I hate with a passion and always tried to help her lose sight of to no avail.

But, the night things got blown out of proportion concerning my baby daughter, I made a statement that caused friction to transpire between us two, and I regret it, because she was actually trying to help me figure out a course of action for her younger sister. My oldest daughter asked a question about how I intended to handle the fact that I’d never be able to see or talk to my baby daughter and her child again, and my stupid reply was that I’d just start treating her as I had been doing my middle daughter “feeding her with a long handled spoon“. Instantly, my middle daughter went off, it was like a domino effect the entire night, even spilling over to my oldest daughter and my only son, who wasn’t even present. Certainly it was misplaced anger, that was definitely geared towards my baby daughter for how she left my granddaughter outside in the cold, to wait for her sister to bring her to me, while she rushed away back to this evil man she’s connected with, something she never would have done before meeting him.

But, my reasons for starting to deal with my middle daughter that way is because she was and still is involved in a way worse domestic violence relationship and she has four small babies who cringe at the sound of any raised voices, even if it’s in excitement during a sports game or we’re watching a boxing match. Her lip is disfigured and she has all types of permanent slits and cuts, that’s been stitched up from her crazed maniac. It’s nothing to walk in her home and find blood splatter everywhere and all the furniture flipped and broke. But, she never would adhere to my begging her to leave the unhealthy relationship, and even went a step further to simply tell me to mind my business, and just like with my baby daughter, I was encouraged not to contact the police, because the children may get the bitter end of the stick in the end. So, I just made up in my mind to stay away from them as much as possible. To her, that was the straw that broke the camel’s back, since she said she’d been trying to put a finger on why I’d been so distant. She decided if that was my initial thought pattern, let’s make it all the way official and indefinite. Not once did she consider the fact that I’m her mother and could NOT bare to see her face always bloody or her neck with deep scratches, knowing a young punk ass nigga was abusing her, and I was powerless to help.

As for my oldest daughter, even though she got dragged into it, she has never lost her ability to withhold verbal disrespect. So, she just disregarded the things that was brought up about her and continued to try to fix things happening with her two sisters. I will say this though about my oldest daughter, the two younger ones may be more verbally overbearing, but she and I have had three real bad fist fights, that left my pinky on my right hand deformed and she has put me out of her home, where I was helping with bills, to sleep on the streets four times. I’ll never EVER trust her in that aspect again. Usually three’s a charm. But, I got hurt for the fourth time believing in tainted family values. But, for the most part as long as I don’t have to depend on my oldest daughter for living arrangements we’re pretty cool. My son on the other hand is now and always has been very weird and disconnected from ALL of us girls, and to be honest it could very well be for all the right reasons. Too much Drama at every event. But, then too if that is the case, instead of standing on the outside looking in, maybe it’d behoove him to intervene and help us females iron out the many differences​ for the sake of the eleven babies coming behind us, which is my imperative reason for reaching out to you. Again I reiterate… Please help!!! Thanking you in advance​.

Strong Bonds​That HURT (((TEARS)))

My name is Paulette Williams, and I’m reaching out to you on the behalf of my family.Β  The entire family is dysfunctional for real and I’d like to see a change in that, but that’d take some time understandingly so. Therefore, my primary focus right about now is my immediate family, which consists of my four children and their eleven children.

As it stands, my two youngest daughters have severed ties with me after a family vacation this past week turned rather ugly, and hidden ill feelings reared its ugly head, causing complete chaos. No one actually became physical, but the end result was the police having to be called to mediate certain situations to the best of their abilities, but still upholding the law, with advice to each of us to seek out legal help for many unresolved financial issues.

A little history: Since the age of 15 I began raising my children alone, with absolutely no help from their fathers, all four different, which was something I was always shameful about and another thing I constantly discouraged for my three daughters. I repetitively used my many mistakes as points of reference for the way I did not want them to follow, seeing as though my adolescent and beginning adult years was filled with several arrests, alcohol, drugs, mental illnesses, suicide attempts, multiple marriages and reconstructive surgeries, that came about because of my ways, attitude, disposition, actions and crazy reactions.

After my last jail stay, I took a good look at these new little faces joining our lineage (MY gorgeous grandbabies), and I vowed to myself to be aΒ BETTERΒ mother and grandmother (The expected Echelon/Matriarch) that I should’ve been from start. I took the initiative to go back to college and I finally received my certificate in Medical Assistance and I secured a prominent position for a wonderful OB/GYN and together we successfully ran both her offices at two of the best hospitals in Washington, DC, and this was my way of life and something positive being modeled in front of them for some time, until I came down with Sciatica and had to have emergency surgery, which inadvertently landed me on disability. In the interim I continued to profess my Faith in God and they too followed my lead, and I’m ever so thankful for that, because it kept my family strong and bonded.

Before long, SSI help became inadequate, as the cost of living increased from year to year. So, I obtained a Ticket to Work, and became gainfully employed by the United States Postal Service, where all three of my daughters followed my lead, but eventually resigned unadvisable, and it seems like things have been rough for all of us since then.

Speed forward: Due to all the time I wasted either from being incarcerated, in mental institutions, totally drunk or high, away from my babies I never was able to do anything nice for them. So, I bought us a timeshare, that we all could utilize either individually or as a family, and I own the eleventh week of each year, which happens to always fall in my second daughter’s birthday month, and it worked out perfect for the first year of her going down with her friends and family and my request was merely that the rest of us join sometime throughout the course of that week for a family gathering. I was ecstatic to give her this yearly gift, because she was one of my children who claimed to feel that she was the black sheep, and overlooked by me. Although I didn’t see this, I will attest to one thing. If it’s true that she’s been made to feel that way, in actuality it’s all deserving, seeing as she’s the one of my children that has always been outlandish and blatantly disrespectful to me and anyone else that tries to speak logic, rules, reality and constructive criticism to her.

Nonetheless, March 12, 2017 thru March 19, 2017 should’ve been a happy moment for our Lil family, but it was everything but that; it turned out to be a complete nightmare, with my baby daughter not even showing up, but sent her only daughter to me half packed, hair not done and in my opinion not properly fed, all for the sake of chasing a man who tried to kill her in her apartment bedroom, while her toddler baby lay asleep on the bed just steps away from the gunfire, not to mention he kidnapped her baby, torturing her by repetitively threatening that he was gonna kill her Mommy SMH. There was a stay away order in place between them, that my daughter illegally allowed him to break, by willingly letting him come back around her and her daughter, not even considering the fact that this man still indulges in illicit drugs and drinks regularly, which can cause him to snap again. Had me and my husband not been present to help her and the baby out of the unfortunate predicament, my thoughts are that they’d both probably be dead. Her reasons for “cutting me off” is because of my threats, (out of frustration), to report her to Child Protection, in an effort to forcefully get my granddaughter out of harm’s way. Perhaps I did appear to be mean by saying that, but I felt I was left with no other option, seeing as she’s 23 and totally disregarded my motherly advice to never see him again or at least not allow him anywhere around the baby. I had gotten her a rental car, because she now lives in Tennessee, and needed a better source of highway transportation to come to and from DC for visits. So, I thought about punishments that I use to implement when they were younger that worked and taking things from them that they really liked always got their attention, and brought about immediate change. So, I snatched the keys to the rental car, Praying that’d make her see how serious I was about her leaving that toxic man alone, but it caused her to hate me instead, and I come to find out that was because she no longer had her car, that’s been parked for five months, while she enjoyed the luxuries of the rentals, to resort to, because the prohibited man, during one of his many nights of rage flattened all four of her tires, and it’s gonna cost nearlyΒ $800Β to get someone to professionally come to the car and remove each tire, change it from the rim, and reinstall them.

It would appear that she’d see all the things that this man has done to negatively impact her life and leave him on her own, but she turns the blind eye and deaf ears obviously. She has a permanent huge chunk missing from her abdomen, from where he bit her and ripped flesh away. On many occasions she has to be stuck for weeks leading into months with no phone, because he destroys them. After the mishap with her Post Office job, she went to school and was overjoyed at the fact that she secured her CNA license. After the shooting in her home and the terrible attack she endured, she had to be put on major medications to help get rid of flashbacks and nightmares, but she kept falling asleep while on patient watch, now once again she’s leftΒ jobless. I stressed to her to please see the culprit for all her downfalls to be this man, and do the right thing and separate herself from him at once. Lastly, about this particular daughter; I would hate for any before and after pics to be shown of her, with the comparison timeline being since the day she hooked up with him to present. It’d bring tears to your eyes, just as it does me being her mother and having to watch my babygirl self destruct; only because she’s reached the age of appropriation, and no longer has to abide by my rules. It crushes my heart to see how frail my child is now, face all sunken in, and her baby looks even worse, but every time I feel it’s my duty to get officials involved my two eldest children and other friends and family members say I’ll be doing the baby an injustice. Please help!!!

To add, back to the daughter I spoke about earlier, the one that felt a bit slighted by me years ago and still does now I’m sure, after this weeks horrible vacation. FromΒ a child all the way through to where we are today, she’s always been a very mean, rude, disloyal and obnoxious young lady, not only to me, but also to strangers, extended family and her own siblings, and she knows and apparently adores this about herself, even to the point that her nickname “Rudiist Bitch” was coined after her crudeness, something I hate with a passion and always tried to help her lose sight of to no avail.

But, the night things got blown out of proportion concerning my baby daughter, I made a statement that caused friction to transpire between us two, and I regret it, because she was actually trying to help me figure out a course of action for her younger sister. My oldest daughter asked a question about how I intended to handle the fact that I’d never be able to see or talk to my baby daughter and her child again, and my stupid reply was that I’d just start treating her as I had been doing my middle daughter “feeding her with a long handled spoon”. Instantly, my middle daughter went off, it was like a domino effect the entire night, even spilling over to my oldest daughter and my only son, who wasn’t even present. Certainly it was misplaced anger, that was definitely geared towards my baby daughter for how she left my granddaughter outside in the cold, to wait for her sister to bring her to me, while she rushed away back to this evil man she’s connected with, something she never would have done before meeting him.

But, my reasons for starting to deal with my middle daughter that way is because she was and still is involved in a way worseΒ domestic violenceΒ relationship and she has four small babies who cringe at the sound of any raised voices, even if it’s in excitement during a sports game or we’re watching a boxing match. Her lip is disfigured and she has all types of permanent slits and cuts, that’s been stitched up from her crazed maniac. It’s nothing to walk in her home and find blood splatter everywhere and all the furniture flipped and broke. But, she never would adhere to my begging her to leave the unhealthy relationship, and even went a step further to simply tell me to mind my business, and just like with my baby daughter, I was encouraged not to contact the police, because the children may get the bitter end of the stick in the end. So, I just made up in my mind to stay away from them as much as possible. To her, that was the straw that broke the camel’s back, since she said she’d been trying to put a finger on why I’d been so distant. She decided if that was my initial thought pattern, let’s make it all the way official and indefinite. Not once did she consider the fact that I’m her mother and could NOT bare to see her face always bloody or her neck with deep scratches, knowing a young punk ass nigga was abusing her, and I was powerless to help.

AsΒ for my oldest daughter, even though she got dragged into it, she has never lost her ability to withhold verbal disrespect. So, she just disregarded the things that was brought up about her and continued to try to fix things happening with her two sisters. I will say this though about my oldest daughter, the two younger ones may be more verbally overbearing, but she and I have had three real bad fist fights, that left my pinky on my right hand deformed and she has put me out of her home, where I was helping with bills, to sleep on the streets four times. I’ll never EVER trust her in that aspect again. Usually three’s a charm. But, I got hurt for the fourth time believing in tainted family values. But, for the most part as long as I don’t have to depend on my oldest daughter for living arrangements we’re pretty cool. My son on the other hand is now and always has been very weird and disconnected from ALL of us girls, and to be honest it could very well be for all the right reasons. Too much Drama at every event. But, then too if that is the case, instead of standing on the outside looking in, maybe it’d behoove him to intervene and help us females iron out the many differences for the sake of the eleven babies coming behind us, which is my imperative reason for reaching out to you. Again I reiterate… Please help!!! Thanking you in advance.

Alert Alert Alert!!!

​Real IMPORTANT!!!
Either I’m a complete weirdo frfr… Or the WORLD did some crazy stuff with time… This imma bout to tell y’all is no lie!!! And I’m mentioning it to see if perhaps someone else experienced the same thing, and just thought they were losing their mind. 
I was driving home from a 1 pm appointment, that didn’t take no longer than 45 minutes, but it was a new Doctor and I had to use GPS to get to my house. I hit the Waze app and went to my saved address, put on my seatbelt and started to put the car in drive and realized it said I’d arrive at 8:39 pm… I mean the feeling that came over me was so eery; almost frightening!!!
I looked ALL around me and it was still bright outside, so I’m thinking to myself no way they had me in there ALL them hours and I just wasted time on IG and didn’t pay no attention… But, mind you it’s still very lit outside, which means it’s deftly before even five in the evening.
I got even more scared now, and I’m looking around honestly to see if others are moving normally and NOT zoned out like zombies… But, traffic all about me was flowing regular, so I assumed it was maybe a glitch in the app, but I happen to glance at my phone time, which is set according to my carries Network and surely it’d be accurate I assumed… Nope, it said 7:46 pm… I nearly lost it totally then!!!
I checked ALL my settings to make sure it didn’t somehow adjust while in my pocket, but it was just fine setting wise, but the displayed time was nearly five hours ahead. 
I sat there for a minute, and blamed the WHOLE uncertainty on the fact that I’ve been sleep deprived lately and decided as long as the directions would still get me home I’d proceed. Low and behold it did, and I’m safety here now, after running a few errands. But, what happened earlier just won’t leave me until I get some type of clarity.
I didn’t receive any medicines from the new Doctor that could’ve caused me to be kind of off in the brain… So, Prayerfully somebody else who has Boost had this happen to them today too, and I’ll go to bed feeling better SMH.

Watch “Pole dancing on da party bus” on YouTube

I’m really angered by all the harsh comments coming from non-factor mutha fuckaz ABOUT THIS old ass video on my fucking page!!! 1.) It’s my prerogative to put on My YouTube what the fuck I want, that’s why the ability to upload at leisure is allotted to each one individually. 2) The video is in Nooooooo way outta the ordinary or vulgar in the midst of the children and neither are they being exploited or encouraged to do no off DA wall wild geekin ass bullshit!!! I raised four fucking children of my own, and assisted in the rearing of ten grands. So, how da fuck would I look sitting back watching Lil ones self destruct??? 3.) Y’all look stupid as fuck reaching back in the past to pass judgement on my family; especially when it’s unwarranted and totally irrelevant, considering the shit was a few ticks ago SMH!!! Perhaps if you’d been THIS same cyber thug umpteen years ago you’d probably got a better me. But, since I think you’re just outlandishly being annoying, NOW y’all boutta get da worst curse out of your fucking miserable ass life… Leeeeggggggoooooo!!!

Seeing the world from MY point of view!!!

​Hate the way I’m feelin, pain killers in the cup… Pray to God I wanna end it seems I don’t believe in much!!!
Searchin’ for love in the wrong places… Now I’m givin’ up, suicide been contemplated, think I really had enough… I think I really had enough… Wanna believe all the lies that they told me, that they told me… Wanna believe all the lies that they told me, that they told me!!!