149 Days… Father God in Heaven… Have Your Way πŸ˜πŸ₯°πŸ˜˜

Man ole man ole man… I opened my site to blog for today, and seen that a fairly old post had been reblogged, and I took the time to read over the post, from nearly 7 years ago, and I seen how optimistic and positive I was, even though I was homeless smh πŸ€¦πŸ½β€β™€οΈ… Not getting many hours at work 😩.. But, I was always taught that you never allow yourself to look like what you’re going through. Also, “Faith is the substance of things Hoped for, and the evidence of things unseen”… Back then, I can remember that I would keep a smile daily smh πŸ€¦πŸ½β€β™€οΈ and believe God to do the unthinkable for me; which He has so many times before, and just as I hope He does again for me, before my time runs out. #JesusTakeTheWheel

Something else I surprisingly noticed today, is that a nice author reblogged my first book post for me… I’m so thankful for that; as I expressed to them, and I elaborate on that, with great emphasis, because that’s gotta be God, Who led them to reblog the book, because I was so sad that my books done so poorly, and I know it’s my fault, that I failed to promote the books properly duhhhh πŸ™„… Like how would anybody be interested in my books, when they have no clue who I am lol πŸ˜‚ lls 🀣… But, still the fact that they took the initiative to assist meant a lot to me #ThankYou

But, back to the old post I mentioned earlier, even though I’m happy that the post and video was so πŸ…ΏοΈositive, I just had a #thingsthatmakeyougohmm moment, where I just wanted to break down and cry my eyes out, to think that I even have horrible memories to look back on, dating back so many freekin years ago, and people have the audacity to wonder why I’m counting down my days so openly!!! My God, just take the time to analyze my HCYMABH page, different posts from my YouTube and many other social media platforms… A lot of things I’ve archived, because my family would be embarrassed of my transparency, and instead of me moving forward with my attempts to link with others, who were going through the same things I were; in hopes that we could support one another, to please my family… I denied myself, probably some of the best help I could have ever received smh πŸ€¦πŸ½β€β™€οΈ… Not this time dammit 😩… If it’s meant for me to live through this and finally get connected with good people, who are also suffering, and we can help one another, then that’s what will happen. #ironsharpensiron #loveyourfamily #eachoneteachone #PrayWithoutCeasing #ohana #happy

I’ve actually had some inconsistent inconsiderate therapists and counselors, one who fell asleep on me, one who reintroduced herself to me, after I’d been visiting her for months πŸ‘€πŸ‘€πŸ‘€… I’m like wtf… You can’t be serious… I just feel like it should be more than a paycheck for these people smh πŸ€¦πŸ½β€β™€οΈ… For me, I get really attached to my therapists, or I can’t disclose any personal information πŸ€ͺ… So, when you prove to me that we really don’t have a genuine caring specialist client relationship… Then I’m turned off and totally done thereafter. Nonetheless, I really thank God for the 2 miracles He performed for me today, showing that He is answering my Prayers, for Him to turn things around for me, before my plan can become a horrible reality… God knows I really don’t wanna die… Just wanna be loved, appreciated, taking serious, seen as important and worthy of life. As always, I love each of you and thank you from the top and bottom of my heart for all of your Prayers, support, likes, comments and shares πŸ˜πŸ’‹πŸ₯°πŸ’―

#PaulettePassionWilliams #PauletteWilliams #shootahdcpassion #CertifiedSTEPPAH #putemonnashirt4Passion #pluckemoff4passion #pressemout4passion

15 thoughts on “149 Days… Father God in Heaven… Have Your Way πŸ˜πŸ₯°πŸ˜˜

  1. I’m in a bit of a hurry because I have an appointment to attend but when I return, I wish to read this post more thoroughly. I just wanted to pop in for now and wish you a gloriously blessed day! β™₯️ Big hugs!

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    1. Yessssss, it deftly is smh πŸ€¦πŸ½β€β™€οΈ… That’s why I made mention of the fact that, this type of work should be more than just a paycheck, and more of your heart into it; which will allow authentic sympathy and empathy to show forth 😩… When you choose a career like that, you gotta keep in mind, that your patients/clients are fragile asf, most have totally disconnected from family and friends, and are heavily isolated; meaning you’re possibly the ONLY hope they have, at holding on to life, by the hair on their chinny chin chin, but you fail and disappoint them, to that degree, you can almost be sure that they’ll move forward with committing, and that’s horrible and should not only be punishable by them losing their jobs and license, but also they should face legal ramifications as well. I bet things change in the mental health arena then, as it relates to lackadaisical professionals, who are held accountable πŸ€ͺπŸ˜πŸ˜΅β€πŸ’«

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      1. You are exactly right! It’s completely insane. They should be held accountable for neglect! I know, from experience, it’s so hard to step foot into the office and admit you need help. A therapist should never ever forget that or abuse that position of vulnerability.

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        1. What’s worse now, is the pandemic has truly impeded upon whatever ounce of hope we had left, in even gaining an optimum relationship with a worthy therapist, because we can only talk to them virtually now smh πŸ€¦πŸ½β€β™€οΈ… For some, we need that intimate interaction (office couch visit), so we’ll do ourselves a disservice, by reluctantly not opening up to them, full throttle, thus causing us not to receive the level of care that we truly need smh πŸ€¦πŸ½β€β™€οΈ

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