152 Days… Jesus take the wheel πŸ˜©

Today I’m so down in the dumps. I honestly thought I was over actual suicide attempts smh πŸ€¦πŸ½β€β™€οΈ. Yes, I constantly suffer with ideation, but things feel different lately. Family is so busy, with their own affairs, which I respect; don’t get me wrong. However this right here –>> Family member desperately crying out for help Should have never happen.

Although I really don’t want to commit suicide, because I realize that I won’t go to Heaven, which is my ultimate goal. I can’t see myself continuing to suffer with mental health issues until old age… Where I’ll eventually die naturally, because my insomnia is out of control, and I just feel so freekin miserable 😀

Lord knows I’m trying every thing within my power, to make myself happy, to no avail… Welp, I did a scan of my Facebook group, to see all the times, before now, that I was happy… Let’s take a look

Don’t get me wrong, I’m most certainly appreciative for every second that I’m smiling and happy. I just ask that God answers my Prayers and give me true happiness again, that erases this crazy mindset that I’m stuck in right now, because I have always said that I wanted to live until I’m 94 years old, but I need a huge breakthrough. I made myself a small OTC cocktail, that’s finally helping me to relax. So, I’ll come back either later or tomorrow. Until then, please please please please touch and agree with me for God to step in and turn this thing around for me. Thanking you in advance… Your support is always GREATLY APPRECIATED πŸ’–

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12 thoughts on “152 Days… Jesus take the wheel πŸ˜©

    1. I’m fighting to get medical insurance, which I Pray I get really soon, so that I can obtain a therapist again, because generally when I’m in biweekly care; my ideation is more contained and my mind isn’t running ramped anymore smh πŸ€¦πŸ½β€β™€οΈ… Thank you for your comment πŸ’–


  1. I don’t know your story, but I want you to know you are certainly not alone. Sometimes we can’t will it away though, and there’s no shame in getting professional help-speaking as someone who has been in therapy and taken medication (sorry if you don’t want/need that kind of advice). I will add you to my prayers. Keep fighting.

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  2. My heart goes out to you. πŸ’” I battled depression years ago and attempted to take my own life. But I want you to know that God brought me through it and He’ll bring you through it to. Know that your life is precious and that you have value. Please don’t give up. As long as you have breath in your body, there’s always hope that things will change for the better. Keep praying to Him for strength. You’re in my thoughts and prayers. πŸ™πŸ•Š

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