Dauglyducklin.org presents Naked & UNAFRAID (4/22/19 – 2)

Oh how I wish… If only… Well, maybe if I… Should I??? 👀 👀 👀 😰 😰 😰 ⌛⏳⏰⏱️⏲️🕰️🕛 Discernment: Perception in the absence of judgment, with a view to obtaining Spiritual Guidance and Understanding. I’ve said YES, I’ve laid Prostrate, I’m CRYING OUT, but yet, I’m still so so so so so so so so confused 😕. I’d give my life, to be rid of mental illnesses, irony huh 😲 😲 😲??? My mind is haphazardly, too cloudy, for me to be able to get right straight to the core of God’s Plan and Will for my life, and I just Graciously follow suit, and begin to move therein smh. There’s no doubt #PERIODTT, that I want this, and running ramped anymore, is a for sure for sure thing of the past. But, I’m clueless about what my next move should be, as if I’m a pawn, on a chessboard, with all the optional moves stacked against me, simply because I’m fearful of Fellowship, in a Congregation, of people, who have the potential to crush my already torn, scarred and bruised heart. The crazy thing though, is this: I could really be doing my ownself a disservice, by refraining from joining a Church, outta fear… When the whole time, it’s simply my mental illnesses, that cause me to misconstrue everything I’ve ever experienced and disliked about “Saved Folk”… What if??? It’s all in lucifer’s disgusting plan, to make me continue to reflect on the, so called, bad that’s happened to me, in Church, just so I’ll miss out on serving God, full throttle?!?!? Ohhhhhh, how I desire to be NORMAL, where there’s no wondering, constantly, about should I do this, should I do that, should I go there, should I stay away, is he/she loyal, should I trust him/her 😥😲😭😥😲😭😥😲😭… These roller coaster emotions, and seesaw doubts got my head spinning, and I’m beyond sick and tired of being sick and tired #StayTuned

PSA: Nothing crushes the heart more than realizing that you were played played, for no less than 14 years, and you only get a glimpse of it, when you’re ending your IG LIVE, where you’re in total despair and anguish, and you happen to see that person you gave your ALL to, I mean bent over backwards for… Popped in, said 2 words and skkkkrrrrrtttt… How could you be so cold hearted and callous??? Nonetheless, I still wish nothing but the best for you, and I’ll still hold you down, as before, till I tap out 👍💖💗🙏💕❤️😜💋👌

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