I’m almost scared to write this. But, I can’t shake it til it’s totally outta MY system.
Nonetheless, I’m trynna figure out JUST what type of person I am that makes EVERY aspect of my life sooooo unbearable SMH.
I can’t keep friends, because I ALWAYS seem to be standoffish; afraid of being HURT. So, I purposely fail to give it my ALL grrrrrrrhhhhhhh.
Honestly, I believe I do the same thing when it comes to potential significant others as well, and if this same obnoxious pattern continues I’ll unnecessarily go to MY grave a disheartened loner (((TEARS))).
At a certain point in my life I came to grips with the fact that the only people I’m comfortable allowing close to me is my children and grandchildren, and I was OK with that until they all got grown and NOW have children, careers, mates and friends of their own, meaning time spent with me is little to none DAMMIT!!!
What do I DO now??? My career is secure and for the most part of 5-6 days in each week I’m steady working hard and the predicament don’t have room to bother me. But, the evening comes, just as it always will, and I find myself in a downtrodden stupor… Jesus please take the wheel!!!
I never knew what it was like to be jealous over somebody else stealing your friend from you and you inadvertently hating that person until my last babygurl became her own woman and I could NO longer force her to be my confidant. The very thing I long for… Attention, affection, CARE, concern, sympathy, empathy and Love.
My family has long life spans and I give myself at least another 48 years here, and I’m going to have to figure out ways to be happy with the fact that my babies are now happy with others geeeesssshhhhh!!!
Da UGLY Ducklin -IN DA LIFE OF PASSION 
I would have helped you sooner, but I was in some crisis myself, if you need any help I can also ask some of my friends to support you. Stay blessed xxx
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Awwww Thanx… I hate hearing that you too was experiencing some issues… How’s things NOW???
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Praise God on your unit … things are getter better we thank God and Ill keep you in prayers aswell
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Your continual support and Prayers are valued… You’re the real MVP √√√
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Don’t worry rest assured in the Lord. I’m nothing haha! God’s MVP… YOUR LOVED 🙂
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😋😇😋
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Your welcome, how is your living situation? Is everything okay?
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Yeeeesssssssssss lawd… God is awesome!!! I NOW have an affordable unit 😀😎😍😘
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Hey Praise God for the unit…if my name seems unfamiliar its probably because I read a lot more than I comment.
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Thanks
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Hey, don’t be angry at yourself, I understand you and I hope things get better for you. You may not know this, but you are very brave for putting yourself out there and sharing a part of you that authentic, the world needs that, don’t doubt your ability. Someone out there needs this, if you need someone to talk to my email: ms-debby-osami@hotmail.co.uk
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Thanx bunches… Much appreciated √√√
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